iamapencil , 26

I think I've spent so much time pretending I don't have feelings...

...that I've forgotten how to feel.

My life is going well. I know where I am and what I want. I'm acting upon these things. And I am happy.

=)

Totally got fucked on the whole relationship thing. There's not a lot to say past "I got used for 7 months and then he galavanted off and got back together with his ex which he was planning on doing the whole time." I think that about sums it up.

I'm doing. The days have gotten much better. Especially since rediscovering Taking Back Sunday and taking a trip to Ypsilanti. I know I'm better off and looking back it's definitely a "WTF" kind of thing. But there's no use worrying over it now. I'm moving on and ready to have a great summer. You can't waste time over people who so blatantly don't care about you.

I have the whole day off for some unknown reason...I think that means it needs to be a crafty sort of day...or a napping day. Or both. I always feel bad when I don't go outside when the weather is nice but I think I deserve a day to do what I want inside. I can't just sit around and wait for rain.

We all need a little more room to live.

My Konstantine.

<3

Well...seeing as it has been like 3 months since I updated and I have time (finally) I might as well update again.

College: DONE! Well...with the semester. And with being on WMU's campus! Took my last final monday...feel totally mediocre about it. But I'm super excited that I'm done. I normally want to get good grades but this math class legitimately made me hope for a C. And that's it. My other classes went well. I feel pretty good about them. My pre-internship was AMAZING. I'm so sad that I'm done working with those kids. It's like there's a tiny 4th grade void in my heart. But I can't wait to start my actual internship...with 7th and 8th graders!! It should be fairly awesome. I went to the school today and everyone seems really nice. I can't wait to start working with them.

Work: today was my last day at CDC. For a month and a half at least. Then we'll see where I am. It's honestly the best thing for me right now because I'm just so tired of being there and all the bullshit drama. So I'm fully ready to not have to go there except when I want to. And this means that I get to start my new job...SUBSTITUTE TEACHING! Yeah! I have my first sub job tomorrow at Hillside Middle School in a 6th grade English class. I'm pretty excited about it. And about everything else I'll be doing until school gets out. I'm also trying to finish up an application for being a secretary in summer school so we'll see how that works out.

Josh: Things are going really well. It was 5 months last week which is kinda really awesome to think about. I can't believe it has been that long. Especially when we both weren't looking for anything. I dropped the "l" word (love, not lesbian) a handful of weeks ago and that turned out to be a fine decision. It didn't ruin anything or scare him away which is always a bonus. He's having some troubles with getting to California but I don't know the whole story yet so I don't know what's left to figure out. But I'm sure it'll get figured out. Most exciting in our lives right now, we're going to Chicago in a day and a half! It's finally here! I can't wait to get on the train and get the hell out of this town for a few days. Especially since we're going together. We're doing a TON of things and I think it's going to be pretty spectacular.

And that's my life. I know I started wayyy too many sentences with the word "and" but I can't help it. It's not my thesis paper so I'm okay with it.