ishtar87 , 34

Today wasn't bad, but my pms made it hard for me to stand some callers, like this man who kept going about Franco and how things should be like back then (a sane person can't seriously want a dictator back!), or this woman who wanted her health card renewed and struggled for like 10 minutes to read some data she had to tell me over the phone, only to end up saying "wait, I'll turn on the light" (if you can't see a damn word written on a paper, can it really take you 10 minutes to realize you need some light? Hello!). And right after I finally got the data from this woman and she hung up, the computer goes and shuts the program before I can save the data. All fucking lost!! GREAT! *groans*. Then, to top it all, I took my lunch break hungry as hell only to realize I couldn't eat my potato salad that I brought from home because I had no fucking fork! I ended up getting creative and using some bread sticks I carried in my bag from a leftover snack as chopsticks to eat my food with. Good enough. lol

So yeah, that was my day. I've obviously had worse days but it was still annoying. But no biggie. I'll try and be more relaxed tomorrow.

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TeenageKicks

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Today was a slow day at wrk. Few callers, except for a peak near 1 pm, and no assholes worth mentioning. As far as I know, the drug guy didn't call either, so that's good. Or maybe the big bosses are waiting for my direct boss to come back (she had 2 days off I think) so they can tell her and she can tell me... but I don't think so. I mean, if you do something wrong they just yell at you no matter what, right?

Anyway, since there was enough time between calls, I managed to finish reading the Life Swap book I started a couple of days ago and I started a new one. I also had a long chat with Tabatha about makeup. Since she found I went to a professional makeup school she asks me for advice every now and then.

This afternoon I just relaxed. I couldn't play the Sims, because my dad was on the main computer all the time (the other computer is too slow for that game), but it's ok, I just used the old computer for internet stuff and I exercised for over 30 minutes, which is an improvement for me. Oh, and speaking of this, I'm doing good following my diet, but I still haven't noticed any results because I'm on pms. I'm waiting until I get my period and until it's gone to see if the diet needs any adjustments.

Work was pretty good today, I hope it's gonna last. We got an average amount of callers (which means enough time to read), and none of them were the drug guy who got me in trouble last week. At least none of the calls I got and I didn't hear anyone saying he had called. I *hope* we won't hear from him again! I still warned Marga, as she was just coming back from 10 days off of work and knew nothing about it, just so she knew what to do and what to expect if the guy called and she got the call.

So as you see, it was just a normal day but because nothing wrong happened it put me in such a good mood I decided to leave work 1 hour earlier instead of doing so tomorrow (I usually leave 1 hour earlier on Wednesdays, it's in my schedule) and I had a long afternoon to relax at home. I will soon start going out with my friends again, but after what happened with Ruth, I really needed these few weeks on my own.

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Selestial, TeenageKicks

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The guy who got me in trouble at work on Friday called again! And more than once. One of the times he called, to top it all, *I* was the one who took the incoming call and he recognized my voice! I pretended it wasn't me and quickly transferred him to the team I was supposed to transfer him on Friday in the first place. Short after that, one of the big bosses came to my direct boss to tell her the guy had been calling a few times wanting to talk to me, saying I helped him so much he'd like to talk to me again. So my direct boss came and told me, because she had promised to keep me informed if there were any news on that case. I told her I knew he had called because I answered one of his calls, and the high boss was around there. When the high boss turned around to talk to me I was terrified, but -surprise- she wasn't mad and even told me I did the right thing by transferring him to the other team as soon as possible! Maybe the woman just looks more terrifying than she really is? Who knows... Well, she has to look somewhat serious, I mean, she's in charge of the whole medical emergency call system of this area of Spain!

Anyway, the good sides of this today, other than the high boss not yelling at me, were 1) Laura took the time to talk to me and make sure I'd be fine. She may get on my nerves sometimes but she's very nice. 2) *All* of my workmates plus my direct boss and her helper plus a woman from a different service told me not to worry about getting fired or even put in a different service, that it just wasn't going to happen. They say I might get a couple more lectures just so the bosses make sure I understood my mistake and they'll watch me closely for a few days and that's all. Well, my direct boss couldn't tell me that because she's not allowed to, but all the others told me the same, so I have to start believing them. And 3) my direct boss started joking about the guy calling back again, so it's definitely a good sign when your boss jokes about a mistake you've recently done. lol. Basically the plan is, if the guy calls back and I get the call I'm supposed to immediately call my boss and she'll answer the call for me, so the boss went and said to me: if he calls, you don't answer, you get up and yell "ensaimada!" and I answer "sobrasada!" and I pick the call. (For the non-Spanish readers, those are two foods that come from where the guy was calling). It's stupid but hilarious. Of course we won't actually yell that, or the others will think we're crazy, but my point is, it sure seems like a good sign that my boss is joking about it. I'm not fully relieved, but I do feel a lot better.

Other than that, work was busy as it usually is on an average Monday, but near lunch time things slowed a bit and I got time to talk to some workmates and read a little. When I got home I found my dad was gone to take a two day course on whatever he decided to take it, so I got the main computer to myself! Hehe. The only problem is that my throat aches and I feel my sinus going weird... Please, not another cold!!

I'm nervous. I can't stop thinking about what happened on Friday at work. If I can keep my mind busy enough on internet, the Sims or a book I'm fine, but the second my attention lowers a little bit it all comes back to me. That's why I'm making an entry, I thought writing would help me relieve the stress. The one thing that scares me is getting fired after all. The rational part of me knows it's very unlikely to happen but a part of me keeps bugging me telling me "not likely" doesn't mean impossible. My biggest fear about getting fired is my dad's reaction. He has changed and takes things better now, but there is still a big chance that he'd go mad. I've been thinking about it, and *if* I do get fired I will either 1) pretend I'm on vacation for 2 weeks, hoping I find a job before that (risky!) or 2) tell him they just terminated my contract because they had too many workers and just decided to get rid of a few. The second one could even pass as true, because there *are* too many workers on the morning shift and I do have the kind of contract that the company can terminate overnight. It would surprise him that I was kicked out having been in the company for over 2 years, but I can always tell him there were enough people who had been there longer than me. He won't be able to check anyway. That one definitely sounds like a good idea to me. Or I can do both options, first pretend I've got 2 weeks off and if I haven't found a new job by the end of the two weeks I can pretend my contract was terminated. What do you think? Or I could tell him the truth, of course, and hope he will understand my point of view and won't scare me telling me being fired means it will be a lot harder for me to find a new job. There are about 50% chances for him to understand me and 50% for him to go mad, yell at me, quit speaking to me for a month and be on my back watching my every move until I find a new job. It would still be simpler than telling a lie... I've lied to him many times and he never found out, but if I decide to lie this time and he does find out I'm in deep shit. What would you do??

Oh well, I do feel a little better... just a little. Moving on, I didn't do much this week-end. I stayed home, I really didn't feel like going out. My back has been hurting and I just wasn't in the mood anyway. I've also decided to dump the Weight Watchers diet and switch to the diet that made me lose close to 40 kg about 5 years ago. I had quit that great diet due to the influence of a friend who pushed me to eat more and more junk food, and just like an alcoholic can't stop drinking I can't stop eating junk food once I start. I need to have it every day. But I'm not friends with that person anymore, for several reasons, so it should work again. The WW diet was crap for me. I know it works for many people around the world but two days after I started it I started feeling dizzy every night before dinner and my meals were even less varied than usual. No good. The diet I switched to was custom made for me, so it's obviously a lot better for me. I had wanted to see what the WW thing was about and now I know, end of topic.