karo_xxo , 20

Ok .., I'm gonna be reaaaaaaaal bitchy in this entry ,his girlfriend just pisses me off , but then again, why do I care? .. Because I always do , I care about everybody ,mostly him though, don't know why , he's got my attention.

Anywho , She keeps stressing him out, so he keeps smoking, and well.. I dont know but hes gonna die between a year to 3 years if he doesnt stop..his lungs didn't sound good the other night when we all drank , I stopped him from smoking as much as I could , but then SHE called and pissed him RIGHT off..and yea , trying to help him stop smoking went down the drain after that..

Oh yea , did I mention I kissed him on the cheek when I walked him home ? After he gave me the best hug any guy has ever given me... He doesnt seem strong, but when he gives you a hug.. oh my , my heart just melted [:P]..I took him to take good care of him self, and I kissed him on the cheek & walked away..

He hung out with her last night, he came on and I usually say hi first, but he only came on for like 5-10 minutes.. so I didnt say anything.. and Right now , hes on but away, and I aint talking first.. if he wants to talk, he knowwwws where to find me..

OH , I'm starting a "diet" today , Until January 1st of 2009, no more take-out (UNLESS its Subway, but even at that, barely any subway) ..the only thing is saturday nov. 29th I'm drinking, and probably Christmas eve & New Years eve too .. so I'll have to make up for that , i'm gonna try to go for walks every single day, but I know me, It's gonna be hard to get my lazy ass outside....






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I swear , I feel high like I was the other night, and I smoked ALOT that night. lmao I guess I'm just REALLY over tired , but I found a song and it's like.. hilarious to me [:)] listen to it hereee

Drank last night , at Rachels, with Jeremy, Chris & Rob.. (Rachel and Jessica werent drinking cuz they were taking care of the baby)
& I dont know.. now I'm all messed up, scares me..I'm sort of getting attached to someone I barely know :s..
I don;t know , I'm not making any sence, and yea.. I'll write some more whenever.. to make shit clear.

p.s I thought he was gonna leave his gf ,they fought alot last night and today..and then he says he only cares about her to a certain extent.. wtf.. omfg.. I'm donnneee ..

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yesterday , his gf was like "they should kill all emos " and he was like "so you'd want to kill me ?" (Chris is going through ALOT.and his music is like.. all emo and stuff) and she was like "you're not emo!" you dumb bitch , you've known him longer than you have and even I know hes somewhat "emo" !!! Anyways , he was like "what if I'd wear tight pants and dye my hair " and GUESS what she said :@ "I wouldnt be with you anymore" :|... like.. OMG you've got a perfectly carring & SWEET guy, nice , funny, who just needs a bit of help and you're being a fucken BITCH ? UGH , sorry.. I dont like the girl, and I HAVE to let these emotions out :p.. ill explain more tomorrow..

I have the convo saved (see yesterdays entry) so if you want to read it, kn me! [:)]

Ok, so I wrote a whole entry about a conversation Chris and I had.. but then I decided to delete it because he's not aware of this journal, and I wouldnt want anyone writting about me when I'm not aware..

So far the people who responded thinks he'd be interested, but yet he has a gf, .. so I dont know I'll update more later!

I know it's been a while, and I apologized.. but Rachels computer is so damn slow, took me 25 minutes to write my entry last time (took me like 2 to actually write it , the other 23 were to load! [:P])..

Okay, so I'm gonna update on Luc (Guy from the mall).. turns out I'm gonna forget about that one, we talked for three days and already he was ready to go on a date, cuddle & whatnot, I didn't mind that part.. but I was at work so I couldn't text him back, when I got back there was 7 missed texts on my cell phone, all from him.. mostly 7 different ways of asking how my shift at work is going.. and no they weren't duplicates.. I showed Rachel and then I was like "maybe if I don't text him back he will stop" HA ! that was a funny one, he texted me about 12 times the next day (without me answering) and that was on saturday .. sunday he texted me alot, same for monday,.. Tuesday he not only texted me alot , he messaged me on facebook :s..yesterday when I got home I went online and he pretty much would NOT stop talking. I put in my nickname "installing sims, be back later" and he was like "wich sims are you installing??" 7 minutes later (i was counting [:P]) " are you installing sims 2??" .. then 20 minutes later "have you ever played sims 2??? its so fun!" like wtf buddy ,can't you see I haven't been answerring you ??

Not only he's SUPER clingy , but I've been talking to Chris alot lately .. He's Jeremy, Rob & Justins friend.. he's 21 years old, Puerto Rican (sp?) taken.. but we talked ALOT lately.. sad thing is , he smoked alot (cigarettes, bit of weed here & there) and the other day they rushed him to the hospital, I guess his lungs collapsed, something like that , from smoking too much.. and only 25% of his lungs are working....Anyway, if he doesn't stop smoking, he's gonna die. he came back from the hospital (they wanted to keep him there, but he's like me, hates hospitals!) and that day he finished his pack (dumbass haha) but the day after, he had one smoke.. his gf (shes a 19 year old Virgin! haha [:P] I think thats great someones a virgin, but I remember when Rob tried to quit, = a whole lot of sex!) anyway , his gf was trying to get him to go party with her :s.. shes a virgin, yets parties ALL the time..anyway, he didn't go, and that whole night him & I talked on the computer.. I remember him saying a few times I'm the only one who believes in him, and that he can stop and that I'll help him ..

Few days later he was right sick.. ("rehab" i think [:P]... thats what they call it when you quit and you smoked alot,you get right sick) & I was like "well, think cold air would help you ? Cuz I just might go walk Shadow after super" (he lives right close to Rachels) and he was like "that would probably be great" I was like "well if its not TOO cold, you could join me!" and he said he would.. but it was FREEZING out.. and I didn't want him to get any more sick.. so I told him to just nevermind about the walk.

Anyway, we've been talking every single day, for atleast 2-4 even 5 hours.. and he kinda seems interested ,but at the same time seems like he wants to give a last try with his gf.. so I dont know, we've been through the same relationship wise, so we REALLY understands each other.. he told me twice that he didn't think anyone would have gone through the same shit he has , and I was like "yea its nice to talk to someone who actually understands, when people go through the same thing, they can help eachother, but when you talk to someone who just says yea, doesn't help!" and he completely agreed...

Last night he came to see me at work (ASSHOLE!!:@) I HAAAAAAAATE when people see me at work!! Megan (girl I work with) was like "ouuu look at the hotty in front!" (we were in drive-thru and it was like deaaaad) so I looked and I was like "oh my ,thats Chris.. hes the puerto rican I was telling you about earlier".. and Chris saw me and was like "heyy !! whats up?" so I went to see him and i was like "hii , uhm working, wich by the way, I hate you for coming in here [:)]" with a smile on my face, meaning i was sarcastic but still kinda meant that I wished he wouldnt be there [:P], and he was like "what whyy ?" and I was like "cuz im working!" anywho , turns out I went back to my station , red like a lobster probably..

wow, this is enough, plus I gotta go eat, my belly is making funny noises.. I'll get as many journals possible when I come back [:P].. xx [<3]..