karo_xxo , 20

This will be an entry basically for me to bitch about work, so I apologize...

Ok so yesterday was my second day on cash, since it was saturday we were CRAZY busy (for those who dont know, I work at tims).. so I made a few mistakes,anywho I was 44.50$ short on cash and they are making me pay it.. like what the hell ?? first of all, you don't put a new person (who HASNT been trained because they just never bothered) on cash when its THAT busy!!

Today , they put me on cash again, only this time it was drive-thru cash, wich is 2X busier!! Anyways, I was working 7-3 and they're suposed to take me off cash at 2 (an hour before my shift ends) to give me time to count the cash, they took me off cash at 3:10 and I had to stay there until 4 and they're not even gonna pay me for that extra hours.. bunch of cunts! I'm SO mad , like they're NEVER happy with ANYTHING there, it's only my second week and they're already treating me like shit :S! I'm trying to get transferred to another store.

Anyway, I didn't sleep last night, Or the night before.. because Madison decided she wanted to cry all night long,both nights! so maybe that's why I'm so cranky.. atleast I'm home tonight. Rachels gone with Madison at her moms until wednesday...

I started today, and my cramps are seriously the worst I've ever had!!! so thats not helping either.. ahh enough with the bad mood...I'll get journals and try to take a bath and relax..

One tree hill is on tonight :) but I'm most likely gonna miss it since I want to go to bed early ...

[<3]
xx.

Hi kiwis,
no time for entry, I'm at Rachel :p, but umm.. Summer (the girl I work with) well Josie called her and asked her for my work schedule.. so there goes her and her imaturity again !!!

Talking about work, I work every single damn day until friday (+ I worked today) jesussss...7am-3pm everyday , THATS gonna suck!! [:(]..

Anywho, I'm watching two and a half men with Rachel , so I'll let you kiwis go! xx [<3]

p.s I'll have time for journals & entry tomorrow... AND , thanks to the people who responded yesterday [:)].

"Now that I'm sitting here thinking it through, I never met anyone as cold as you. "
- Cold as you; Taylor Swift.

I love her music!! I can relate to almost all of her songs, like that one I can relate to because of Rob (for those who don't know, Rob's my ex.. the only one I actually ever really cared for) .

This entry will basically be about first love, do you have your story to share ? How did your first love end, or are you still with that person ? How did you deal with the pain, if there was any ?

Honestly, I am over Rob & I've been for quite a while, and I'm not just telling myself that because I think it's for the best.. I actually mean it! If he was to leave Jess and ask me for a second chance, honestly, I think it'd be like the biggest slap in the face.. cuz it'd be like hes telling me hes sorry for what he did and ask me to take him back and forget about the past.. Because of him I cried for nights, actually for months.. I was hurt like I never thought was possible, I gained I don't know how many pounds, I lost count ! and what hurt most was to see him being with someone else like two weeks later..

He hurt me bad, and maybe that's why when I start dating people I back up and tell them I can't do this.. I'm scared to hurt again, but everybody gets hurt, and it makes them stronger, but for the time being, I'm happy ! I mean I think I'd be even happier with somebody in my life..

Someone told me something today, and I thought it made alot of sence! "cant expect to be with someone 24/7, relationships are about sharing your life with someone not being their life." it's so true, cause like I used to be SUPER clingy and I wanted the guy to be the same, but now when I date people they're clingy and carring and I HATE it.. I mean, carring part is alright, but I can really see how I drove Robert crazy with the clingy part!!!

Anyway, all that to say that first love does hurt, but you grow from it, I mean I used to say I wish Rob didn't hurt me so much, but come to think of it, if he went easy on me, I wouldn't be ready for the next relationship & I wouldnt be half as strong as I am today!

Today, I stand strong and happy.. and I think I just might get out there and look around, being causious but not scared to try new things.. to trust people and not think right away that its gonna end badly.. [:)]..

Hope you all have a wonderful day, [<3]..
xx

I made a picture entry yesterday , go check it out if you want ..

hmm , yesterday I worked 1-5 pm, I had my own cash [:)] + I didn't make that many mistakes [:P].. Uhmm... Summer came into work(I think she was working at 4 or 5) and I went to see her, I was like "I would really appreciate it if you wouldnt give out my schedule information" and she was like "oh I know , we're not allowed doing that anyway" and I explained the fight to her, and she thought it was really stupid..

After work I went to Rachels and she's doing so well in the motherhood!! Madison was in her little "vibrating chair" and asleep [:P]. it was adorable [<3].. My sister (mashuki) & my cousin came to get me and met Madison [:P].. hehe, she's really a good baby, doesn't cry very often at all... and her sleeping schedule is already starting to be pretty good! She's 2 weeks old today [:)], seriously.. WHERE does time go??? It flies by so fast, it's crazy !!

Today & tomorrow I'm off, so I'll most likely watch Prison Break (third season) until about 2-3 pm then shower then go to Rachels when my dad gets home both days! [:)]

we're still waiting on Jessicas baby to arrive.. ugh, she's not overdue or anything but the baby dropped more than twice and shes 5.5 cm dilated!! so come on babyy ,get out of there!! [:P]

so yea , I'll get a few journals, have a good one kiwis !! xx [<3].

Morning kiwis!

So, yesterday I worked 1-5, it was really fun !! they put me on Wandas cash for the last 2 hours (my shifts are short because I'm suposed to be doing CD training...did that for 3 hours on my first shift then they just skipped that step [;)].. hehe ! but yea, Wandas the best person to be "buddied" with (buddy= making coffee for the person) because she taught me most of the cash.. I'll most likely be on it for my whole shift today [:)] hehe.

So yesterday, I had forgotten all about Josie , until I noticed I forgot to block Jessika (not Robs gf..another one) Jessika & I get along really well, shes the one of all Josies friends I actually got along with.. Anyways , Josie had told me that the person who was coming after me had gotten in a fight with some "Miranda Leblanc" few days ago, so I asked Jess if she knew who that person was.. and shes like "yea I'm the one who fought Miranda Leblanc!" She thinks that Josie being mad over that stupid facebook thing is imature, and she was like "you two should REALLY stop fighting, you used to be the ONLY one she told everything to, and now you're both being so imature " I was like "uhmm..first of all, I'm very mature, and I didn't mean for ANY of this to happen, just seeing her status' , seeing how unhappy she is and she ignores me when I ask her hurts me..so I deleted her from there so I wouldnt have to see her status all the time" I KNOW Jessika isnt gonna come after me,she thinks i'm the sweetest girl ever.. but still I'm not taking any chances & I blocked her..

Later on I saw Josie was online(I had her blocked) and I changed my name to "Karoline" nothing else, not even saying what I was up to and unblocked her (since her msn name didnt have anything about me in it anymore) and left her unblocked for 5 minutes.. she didnt say a word, usually if shes REALLY mad, trust me, the second you unblock her she'll have written a novel about how you're getting your ass beat.. but nope, not a single word! so I blocked & deleted her.. Jess must have said something to her and MAYBE (hopefully) she came back to her sences.. either way, I don't expect an apology, nor that 30$ she owes me , I just want her to leave me alone.. and to deal with her own problems.. NEVER thought I would say that before, since i'm one to help everyone..(p.s I'll have pictures of Josie at the bottom of my entry)

Anyway,enough about that.. I cleaned my whole room last night while watching back-to-back episodes of Two & ahalf men [<3] .. Room looks good now !! [:P] birds are happy, I can hear them from here.. Oh by the way, did I ever mention, I have 4 birds? [:P] .. 3 Budgies & 1 cockatiel ! I'll post a picture for you to see [:)]...

Jess (robs gf) didn't go in labor, she had BAD contractions last night, she went to the hospital and since she didnt dilate more (shes 5.5 cm, 80% effaced) they sent her home... DUMBASSES!! I want her to have her baby [:P]

I'll end my entry with a few pictures I posted before, but I'll repost them in case you guys didn't see them


one of the 4 kids I babysat [:P] she'd always take my camera to look at this picture [<3] lol.


Josie and I laughing like we always did, ... haha dont mind the picture..


hmm.. p.s.. once again I'm the one who had made all the edits on the pictures.


hahah fooooooolss.. we used to have SO much fun, tell me, how could we go to being SO happy to this ?...


hahah at the movie theatre, in the bathrooms! [:P]


Matt and I ! (exes, & bestfriends.. we still get along GREAT)


Me & Monique .


I'm not bi or anything, lol we just took this picture for fun & as you can see, we're not actually kissing.


Me & Lyne ! [:)]


me .


againn..


me & two of my budgies [<3]


Lucky & Tweety, they're ALWAYS together, so cute!


The cockatiel isn't actually that fat, lmao he was all "poofed up" .. [left to right] Twister(cockatiel) , Lucky, Daisy & Tweety (yellow one [:P]).

xx [<3]

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