Im still waiting on Mike to make up his mind. He was at the point where he wanted to just go and do it. And then he was like idk again. I understand it all. I mean its a hard decsion to make. This unit he is in now is really good. They are nothing like what he expeirenced in Ft. Benning. He doesnt want that to change and end up with a bunch of idiots or assholes. And I get that. The AGR job we wont find out about till Feb and now the Honor Guard has let us know that they have 90 days to increase there numbers or they will have to let ppl go bc they are $850 grand in hole. My thinking of course is they would let the 2 new guys go first and then some of the part time. Thats just how Id think ya know. But I guess waiting till Feb to find out about the AGR spot going ahead and going to AIT with Nat'l Guard isnt so bad. The 90 days will almost be up and hed know if they have increased any and hopefully wed get the process done and finished. The only thing is Mike AIT will go over his orders for Honor guard so when he gets back if he doesnt have the AGR spot then we'd be out of a job unless the Honor Guard was able to take him back. Until Mike did get the papers situated and he got off to where ever hed be stationed. Mike is considering keeping this job and bla bla whatever. If he goes to AIT hed keep this job when he went active is what I mean. Its confusing. I dont want to be like Look Just Do This. This is his career and hed never make me choose like that. I know what seems like would be best for our family at this point. Just go active now. He wants to do it anyways bc he wants to go career and there is really no retirement if he did 20 years with the guard at least with the army theres a decent retirement. Its all so confusing. Also a concern of mine (this is what made me think of all that that I just typed now we are back to the guinea) If Mike does AIT with the Nat'l Guard we will not get paid BAH so we will be able to have orders to get out of our lease. Which is great bc I hate the area. I dont feel safe esp safe enough to be here alone for almost 6 weeks straight. But Id have to get rid of my guinea pig. Im prolly going to have to get rid of her anyways bc I dont if she could handle a move an being in a car being bounced around that long. Doesnt seem right esp with how timid she is. There would be NO room for her at my inlaws which is where Id end up staying. But also Im not sure if she would let me keep my dog. She has made it clear she doesnt want another dog around and when we lived with them before and we had our dog from GA she didnt want him around either. MY dog wears a diaper. (I dont want her peeing and pooping and the kids getting into it. Plus we cant have pets so she cant go outside till the office closes since we are right next to it so we take her out in the AM and as soon as they leave) She doesnt have accidents in the house bc of this. She tells me when she has to go in the evenings shes a small little lap dog she she wont be in the way and I can keep her from the other dogs by putting her in my room. But my point is I refuse to loose my dog. I will not do it. I love my little dog. We finally have a dog (if she will stop chewing on my chair right now lol) that fits into our family that likes us and Mikey is super attatched already. I just wont. Whatever. Now if Mike joined the ARMY and went to AIT we would get housing still. We wouldnt have to get out of the lease till it was time for us to move to Mikes new base. Now I dont like being here but if I have to and Im paying for it I will and Ill suck it up. I can spend a few days at a time with my dog down there and not be living there ya know? So Idk. Im still stuck that I need to let him decide on his own even if I want to scream HELLO! lol. This is his career not mine. Im still torn that we will be leaving the only family we have. There will not ever be anyone to watch the kids unless we pay a sitter and then how do you know who to trust? You can go thru an agency sure but how do you know its ok? Grr. But whatever.