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Pics of my xmas my kiddos my puppy and my woes

Im not really sure what the heck I clicked but I lost my entry. God does that suck. And I was almost done. Geeze. Ok well I guess Ill go ahead and put up the pics first seeing as how thats what I was doing anyways. I will do the journal entry later.

This is our Dog Snowflake. Shes almost 3 months old. She was born 9-22 shes a terrier mix. We think with poodle we arent sure neither is the momma owner.

They are already best friends

These are my decorations and my tree

This is my dining room you can see all the dec's that Mikeys made for me

& this is a close up of my fav thing. My oil burning gingerbread house that kathy got me last year. it even is gingerbread scented! so yummy! Can you see the smoke coming out of the chimney?

This is mine and teh boys holiday photo. Daddy couldnt be in it bc he had to take the pic of course.

Nicky examining the ornaments

My little reindeer

Brotherly love

Mikey making decorations fro Grandmas house and ours

So things are going good. Basically the same. Last night we went to the store and on the way there, I seen a street of houses that were literally so lit up that they had to have been able to be seen from space. I swear. I cannot wait to post the pics of that! Its crazy there were at the least 10 houses maybe 15 that all were Deco'd out and lit the eff up. It was insane. Mikey enjoyed seeing those and so did Nick. Nicky was doing his usual I hate life cry bc his car seat exsist and he stopped as soon as we got over there and as soon as he didnt see lights anymore he started back. It was beautiful to though. I cant imagine there electric bill. Hell my reg bill is 75 bucks so Im barely running my lights! In fact let me go turn some off now. The boys have both had there breakfast and played. Nicky is now taking his nap and Mikey is watching a movie. After that we may do some crafts or something. I really need to change the frogs water I still havent done it and I need to change the guineas cage. That reminds me.

Im still waiting on Mike to make up his mind. He was at the point where he wanted to just go and do it. And then he was like idk again. I understand it all. I mean its a hard decsion to make. This unit he is in now is really good. They are nothing like what he expeirenced in Ft. Benning. He doesnt want that to change and end up with a bunch of idiots or assholes. And I get that. The AGR job we wont find out about till Feb and now the Honor Guard has let us know that they have 90 days to increase there numbers or they will have to let ppl go bc they are $850 grand in hole. My thinking of course is they would let the 2 new guys go first and then some of the part time. Thats just how Id think ya know. But I guess waiting till Feb to find out about the AGR spot going ahead and going to AIT with Nat'l Guard isnt so bad. The 90 days will almost be up and hed know if they have increased any and hopefully wed get the process done and finished. The only thing is Mike AIT will go over his orders for Honor guard so when he gets back if he doesnt have the AGR spot then we'd be out of a job unless the Honor Guard was able to take him back. Until Mike did get the papers situated and he got off to where ever hed be stationed. Mike is considering keeping this job and bla bla whatever. If he goes to AIT hed keep this job when he went active is what I mean. Its confusing. I dont want to be like Look Just Do This. This is his career and hed never make me choose like that. I know what seems like would be best for our family at this point. Just go active now. He wants to do it anyways bc he wants to go career and there is really no retirement if he did 20 years with the guard at least with the army theres a decent retirement. Its all so confusing. Also a concern of mine (this is what made me think of all that that I just typed now we are back to the guinea) If Mike does AIT with the Nat'l Guard we will not get paid BAH so we will be able to have orders to get out of our lease. Which is great bc I hate the area. I dont feel safe esp safe enough to be here alone for almost 6 weeks straight. But Id have to get rid of my guinea pig. Im prolly going to have to get rid of her anyways bc I dont if she could handle a move an being in a car being bounced around that long. Doesnt seem right esp with how timid she is. There would be NO room for her at my inlaws which is where Id end up staying. But also Im not sure if she would let me keep my dog. She has made it clear she doesnt want another dog around and when we lived with them before and we had our dog from GA she didnt want him around either. MY dog wears a diaper. (I dont want her peeing and pooping and the kids getting into it. Plus we cant have pets so she cant go outside till the office closes since we are right next to it so we take her out in the AM and as soon as they leave) She doesnt have accidents in the house bc of this. She tells me when she has to go in the evenings shes a small little lap dog she she wont be in the way and I can keep her from the other dogs by putting her in my room. But my point is I refuse to loose my dog. I will not do it. I love my little dog. We finally have a dog (if she will stop chewing on my chair right now lol) that fits into our family that likes us and Mikey is super attatched already. I just wont. Whatever. Now if Mike joined the ARMY and went to AIT we would get housing still. We wouldnt have to get out of the lease till it was time for us to move to Mikes new base. Now I dont like being here but if I have to and Im paying for it I will and Ill suck it up. I can spend a few days at a time with my dog down there and not be living there ya know? So Idk. Im still stuck that I need to let him decide on his own even if I want to scream HELLO! lol. This is his career not mine. Im still torn that we will be leaving the only family we have. There will not ever be anyone to watch the kids unless we pay a sitter and then how do you know who to trust? You can go thru an agency sure but how do you know its ok? Grr. But whatever.

Now that Im done complaining I really have nothing else to say lol. Im so excited for friday. I am going to my first SAHM Playdate with the boys. We are meeting at the mall here and going to see santa and all hang out. That should be fun. Plus sat we are going to see if Joe will watch Mikey while Mike Nicky and I go Christmas shopping. Im still not decided what to get the boys. They each get one more single gift a few stocking stuffers and one maybe two joint gifts and def a few outfits. Nicky almost has nothing winter wise to wear! Its also time for me to start thinking about Nicky 1st bday party. The 23rd it will be one month exactly away. Thats crazy. It doesnt seem real. Anyways. For family we will get my MIL and FIL something hopefully a joint gift if we can think of something good. Jeff and Tasha since there having a baby together now qualify for one joint gift and joey something. We can send Melissa and Aaron something later when we have more money and the Same with my sister and mom even though hopefully those boots will still be onsale and they will have them in there size. In that case Ill get them now and just ship later. Im not getting steven anything bc I dont even know if he is going to show up. No one has heard from him in 3 months. He came over washed his car and then left didnt say a word to anyone. So whatever. I feel bad for kathy and joe that he can be like that. I just dont get it. My mother and I have been thru hell and back and I still show her the respect to check on her let her know we are ok. And even through it all I cant see myself never talking to her again shes my mom. Just bc they dont agree with stevens lifestyle doesnt mean he should act the way he does. And its not the gay part theres a problem with. Its the complete disreguard for rules and laws the carelessness and just not caring. sigh
Tomorrow I have wic and Im going to be spending the day with kathy. At laest some of it. Im going to try to get them to finally come over an eat this chicken I have to cook. Im also going to make some potatoe soup. I think. I have like 10 lbs of potatoes Ive got to do something with!
Ok gonna go Ive written enough. Kisses![/bg]