mashuki , 24

Only a few days left before I start my new job!! :)

My last week at the Caisse actually went by alot faster than I thought! Even though there were days where I felt like the day was never going to end, now that I think about it, it actually went by pretty fast. I'm glad it's over though... and like my psychologist said, atleast it ended on a good note. If I would of stayed there any longer... I don't think it would of. I was getting pretty sick of it towards the end... especially because I knew I was leaving, it almost made it worse. But hey... it's over now! WOOHOO! :)  lol

My last day was nice though... the 2 girls who are normally at the reception both called in sick, so I had to replace them. So I basically did  eff all allll day... except greet clients with appointments, and check on the fax. So it was nice to have a relaxing last day... one lady that comes a few times a week to make deposits for her work, brought me homemade slippers that her mother made, and also homemade fudge, with a card. I thought it was so nice of her! And the fudge is really good!! She made alot, so I ended up walking around the building for a while (mostly because I was bored) and sharing my fudge with everyone... I would of never been able to eat that on my own, even though i'm sure Jerr could of... lol  And then after work, they had organized a supper for me at one of my favorite restaurant, and alot of people came... I was surprised of how many people showed up! So that was really nice... they gave me a card that everyone had signed. It was pretty kool! I thought I was going to cry once it was time to say bye to everyone, becasuse I hate, and suck, at goodbyes, but I didn't.. honestly, I was too thrilled of leaving that place, to be sad. I mean, i'm going to miss some of the people there... but i'm not going to miss the actual job. I know now that I definately made the right decision! You have to take chances in life, if you want to get somewhere...

I'm a little nervous about my first day though, i'm not going to lie! Mostly about where to park... since they don't know where my parking spot is going to be, I have to find a paid parking spot for now, and they're going to pay me back. There's not really much parking downtown though... she told me I could park where the city employees park, but I have no idea where that is. And of everyone I asked, no one really seems to know where it is either. So I think I might park somewheres else... it's like $18/day to park though! Even though they're going to pay me back, I just hope they find out where my parking space is soon, because I don't really have $18/day to spend on parking...

I'm pretty excited about meeting everyone, and find out where my "office" will be though! But mostly, to find out which lawyer i'll be working for. :)  I hope it's someone awesome!

I'm taking this weekend super easy, though... need to relax, and sleep before starting the new job! After the supper Friday, I caught up on my shows online, and went to bed after (I was exhausted!). Yesterday, I did some dishes, and cleaned a little bit... then Jerr came back from spending the night at a friend's, and we just layed in bed for a while... it was nice! We watched a movie last night called "African Cats". It was really cute, and interesting! It's made by Disney, and narrated by Samuel L. Jackson.. even though I would of never guessed it was him! But we both really liked it. I definately recommend it! Today i'm going at Janie's (my cousin) to watch a bunch of horror movies! We had been talking about doing that for a while.. we both love horror movies, and with Halloween coming up, we've both been in the horror movie mood so.. should be fun! :)  Tomorrow, Jerr's sister and her kids are coming, and we're all going apple picking (again). That should be fun too! It's announcing really nice for today and tomorrow so... that's nice, considering we had like 60mm of rain this week!

Anyway, I should probably go and get ready!

I hope you all have a good weekend!

Happy Thanksgiving to all my Canadian readers! :)

So there's only one week left before I start my new job... i'm so excited!! And nervous! But mostly excited :)

This last week at the Caisse is going to be hell... I have a feeling the week is going to feel like it's never going to end. I just can't wait to get out of there now... not that it's a horrible job, because it isn't. It's just not for me... and once you realized how unhappy you are somewheres, you just want to leave. And that's kinda how i'm feeling... but there's only one week left! :)

I was thinking about it the other day, and I finally feel like I have everything i've ever wanted... all that was missing before was the perfect job, really. And I have a feeling that i've finally found it. I have the best boyfriend in the world... we have a house, I have the car i've always wanted (even though i've had trouble with it, I still love it), we have a dog (yes that drives me nuts sometimes, but still :P ),... things are finally going the way I want for once.. it's kind of scary! Not used to it. lol.

I had some really good news at work last week... I thought that because I had already taken one week vacation in August, that I would have to pay them back for it (because I didn't stay the whole year), but guess what... the time off I took this year, is time I accumulated last year, apparentely! And I even accumulated some time off for next year! So I checked with the girl that's in charge of payroll, and guess what... they owe me 113 hours of vacation time! I'll get that on my last paycheck, apparentely... which is on the 13th, plus my regular pay on top of that!! So that's such a HUGE relief!! And my first full paycheck at the law firm will be on the 19th... which is only the week after, so it's perfect!! I'm so glad! I was scared I was going to have to pay them back something... but to find out that they owe me quite a bit of money... seriously was awesome!!

The only thing that kinda sucks is that the law firm only pays bi weekly... so i'm going to have to get used to that again, since I was being paid weekly at the Caisse... but it's not really a big deal. It would be kool if my paydays and Jerr's paydays would be different weeks... so that it wouldn't be so bad. And also I won't have any benefits for the first 3 months, so I'm trying to get 3 months worth of birth controls, and things like that, so I atleast don't have to pay full price for it... they just don't have vision care though, which sucks.. but i'll either get some by itself, or I just won't bother. I don't need to go to the optometrist that often.. but I would need a new pair of glasses though (mine are about 6 years old)... and apparentely i'm due for an eye exam. But an eye exam is like every 2 years, and it's only $110. And my contacts are just $60, and that lasts me 6 months (and I ordered enough contacts to last me a year before I run out of benefits at my current job). So the only way it would be worth it, is if I get glasses... well depending how much just vision care costs. And depending how much I have to pay after my 3 months probation for the benefits I have at my new job.  So we'll see...  I miss the days where I was covered under my dad's... his benefits were really good!! But it stops after you're 21. :(  I'm so old!! lol

Last Friday was Chantal's wedding... we were like best friends in high school. Kinda lost touch after that, but once in a while we hang out. She was stunning!! We all cried when she first got in the church... it was a really nice wedding! I had a lot of fun :)  It was nice seeing old friends too... we only ever get to see each other either at funerals, or weddings, it seems... we decided to try to hang out more often! I hope we do. :)

Anyway, i'm just going to leave it at that... don't worry, i'll make another update once I start my new job, and tell you all about it! :)  So excited!

I just wanted to share some BIG news with you guys...

I GOT THE JOB!

I'm so friggin thrilled! Found out yesterday! She called me while I was at work, and I couldn't really call her back because I was working, but I did anyway... couldn't get ahold of her at first, though. She ended up leaving me a message saying that she was leaving for the weekend, but I could contact the lawyer who was also at the last interview. So I did, and got ahold of her right away.. she said they were really impressed with my references, and they would love to offer me a job! :D  I was in such shock... and I still can't believe it! She asked when I could start, and I said I still have to give my 2 weeks notice where i'm at now. She asked if they would take less, because they just hired a new lawyer who would be starting around the same time I would, and it would just be easier if we didn't start at the same time, but they understand I really have to give 2 weeks notice.. especially since where i'm at now, they're so short on staff. So yeah... I would be starting there October 11th! Didn't give my notice at work yet, because i'm waiting for them to email me a letter to offer... I won't give my notice until I receive that, because technically they can still back out. I know they won't, but it's just to have piece of mind... so I should get that monday morning, and I will give my notice as soon as I get it.

So excited! Everything is finally turning around! I don't know how my boss will react to my notice, but honestly... I don't really care. They can't expect me to stay there forever if they never give me a chance in anything. So tough luck for them... and anyway, it's not really my problem if they're so short on staff... if she would of been smart, she would of hired a few tellers long time ago! But she didn't, so obviously it's not too important to her. So that's too bad for them... but not my problem! (I don't want to sound bitchy, but I got to think about me, for once, and what *I* want)

Only thing that sucks, is that I won't get the bonus they get in March... which I worked really hard for. But my new job pays like $2000 more a year, so it's actually not a real loss really. The benefits at my new job might not kick in until like 3 or 6 months though... so i'm going to order contacts like next week to make sure i'm covered, and probably oder a good 3 months worth of birth control. Without coverage it's like $20-something for the birth controls... with it, it's about $7. And my contacts well... I never end up paying for them, they're always covered. So that was a plus... because of what I understood, they don't have vision care at the law firm. But that's always something I can get coverage for seperately, though... and if I don't pay for the benefits (which i'm not sure yet) then it's going to come to the same thing. And my contacts are cheap, anyway... it's just if I have to get an eye exam, or new glasses that it's going to get expensive. But anyway... other than that, the interest on my line of credit will be going up, because once you're no longer an employee, they give you the normal rate... which i'm scared is going to be quite high, so I might ask my dad to re-cosign with me, but at RBC, because I know the interest would be better there. But not right away though... i'm going to wait for it to go down a little... because right now, it's quite embarassing.

Anyway... I still can't believe I actually got it! It feels so sureal... I had to pinch myself a few times to make sure I wasn't dreaming! I really can't wait to start there... I really hope i enjoy it! I also can't wait to see which lawyer i'll be working with... hoping for someone who does alot of family law :)

Anyway, i'm going to go... just wanted to share that important news with you guys! Thanks for all the positive vibes... it obviously helped! :)

Have  a great weekend everyone! I know I will now!! :)

I hate how I can't pick the colors, and layouts, when I write in here anymore... I thought it made the journals more interesting and personal to read! They should of never changed it... I still don't understand why they did. So many people left because of it... it sucks.

So I went for my second interview at the law firm last week! Didn't have a choice, but to go during my lunch... turned out well though, the interview wasn't long at all. Maybe 30 mins. I was scared it was going to be one of those interviews that lasts an hour, or more... but it wasn't like that at all. I was actually surprised... but I think it's mostly because they knew I didn't have a lot of time (they knew I had no choice but to come on my lunch hour) so maybe that's why. Either way... it went well! The lawyer I met with was super nice... actually everyone there seems really nice, so far! And basically they asked me what I was looking for, and why I wanted to work there. They told me at the end that they're planning on having someone hired by the end of the month (not exactly starting, but that they know they have someone to fill the position). I have to go do some testing in french and english as well, before they make a decision... they told me they have interviews almost through last wednesday, or maybe later, but I didn't hear anything from them yet about the testing. I actually emailed her friday, late afternoon, because I understood she wanted all the testing and interviews done by wednesday, and since I didn't hear from her, I decided to email her, but I didn't get an email back yet.. i'm assuming they probably had more interviews than they thought, and were too busy. Either way.. she said that even if I didn't get the job, they would let me know, either way. So that's a bonus... there's nothing that I hate more than the "waiting game"... waiting, and waiting, and having no clue if you got it, or not... atleast this way, i'll know. It's taking a little too much time for me though... I don't know if it's because i'm so eager to get the job, or in a hurry to leave where i'm at now, but either way.. i've never been someone with much patience, and ive always hated waiting. lol.  But sometimes you don't have a choice... and sometimes, the wait it worth it! Hoping this is one of the times... :)

I also started talking with one of the girls that comes almost everyday to make deposits for another law firm, and apparentely they might possibly someday need someone else, because there's 2 lawyers, 2 paralegals, but one of the lawyers (that practices family law) is starting to get too busy, for just one paralegal... so she asked me if I could bring her my resume, so I did. Keeping all my options open! Even if they're not looking now... when they start looking, they'll already have my resume in hands. Plus since she comes everyday to make deposits, i've already started to make a relationship with her (she's one of the paralegals), and the other paralegal, turns out she's a girl that I went to college with! Which I was friends with, when we were taking our course... and even though we haven't really talked after, i'm hoping that will help. They say connections are the best way to get the job you want... we'll see if it's true, or not!

I already made up my mind that i'm leaving where i'm at now though... I think I made my decision on my first interview with the big agricultural firm, that I didn't get the job because of my lack of experience. It just made me realize that there's so much more out there, and even though the job I have now, is a good job... it's not what I want to do with the rest of my life, and I don't feel valued there, at all. I want to be somewheres where i'm valued, and recognized. Somewhere that makes me happy, where people are nice, and open minded. And as time goes by, i'm realizing more and more how unhappy I am there... and how I need to leave as soon as I can, because I have a feeling that i'm turning into a person I really won't like. I don't like being cranky.. but that place seriously makes me like that. Drives me nuts...  so I think that if I don't get the job at the law firm (either one), that i'm going to keep looking, and maybe try to see if Kelly Services, or Drakes International, can help... they're 2 big companies around here that help people find jobs. I've tried Drake twice, and found jobs both times (way back when), and tried Kelly twice as well, and that's how I found Homburg, one of my favorite jobs i've had so far. So if I start getting desperate.. I might go see them. Plus... sometimes some businesses don't advertise anywhere, but with them. So I might be missing out on some great jobs, and I don't even know it! But i'm going to have to write down a list of what i'm looking for, and not willing to settle for less, for it to work. Because they could probably find me a secretary job super easily, but it's not what I want. And I don't care if it pays $35 000/year, I still won't take it. For that, I might as well go back to Royal Direct (RBC call centre)... because that's about what I was making there, and right now i'm not even making $29 000. And trust me.. i've thought about going back, many many times! But again... it's not what i'm looking for. And i'm not willing to work another night shift EVER, which might happen if I go back there. So unless I lose my current job, for some odd reason... I don't think I would ever go back. I hate answering phones...

Other than that though, things in my life are going great! I've had a busy month this month so far... last night was the Gala Royale... it's a competition that 2 of JErr's friends are in. It's the East photographers against the West... there's like 50 categories, but the 6 best ones of the East, are going against the 6 best ones of the West. There was also a few fashion shows, and a live band playing... it was pretty fun! I also have to plan Chantal's bachelorette... since her sisters don't seem too interested in taking their precious time to do so. Which I don't get... it's supposed to be like the best day for her, before getting married, and no one seems to care. If it were me... I would be pissed, and hurt. So that's why I decided to take it in my own hands, and plan something for her... we're VERY last minute, though! The bachelorette would be Friday coming up, and her wedding is the Friday after. I was waiting for one of our mutual friend, who just moved back from Toronto, to come back, and help me plan it, because she's one of Chantal's best friend (so am I... or I was back in high school, anyway!). So we're getting together tonight to talk about it. Chantal is not really a person that enjoys going out that much, so we're thinking maybe a party at someone's place... and just have games, and have fun! But i've never planned a bachelorette before, or gone to one, so I have absolutely no idea of what to do. Any ideas??  I just want her to have a great night, with all the people that are important to her... you know? Because if it was my wedding coming up, that's what I would want.

Anyway... I should probably go get dressed.. if it were just of me, I would probably stay in pj's all day, but it's too nice out to do that! Gotta enjoy the nice weather as much as we can... because next thing you know... it'll be winter again. *sigh*  Not looking forward to it at all...

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Just a super quick entry to update...

So I had my interview for the position where I work now. Thought it went pretty good! I was pretty nervous though... I don't know, there's just something about them that doesn't make me very comfortable. I almost feel judged, half the time... anyway. Thought it still went pretty good though, and since they needed someone for the position almost right away, they said they would let us know in the next few days if we got it, or not.

Well surprise, surprise... come to find out this afternoon that someone else got it, of course. Doesn't really surprise me anymore... even though I work my ass off at that place, I don't think they're even close to consider me for anything right now, for some reason. I might be wrong, but that's the impression I get.

Anyway, I understand why they picked her... if they would of picked me, it would of disturbed alot of things in my current department, because we're so godamn short on staff. Plus, the other girl has been there longer than me. So it makes sense. It just shocked me in a way, especially to find out so fast, because I had no idea she was even interested in the position... she had gotten another position, which I thought she loved, but apparentely it wasn't anything permanent, so she probably applied for this one because the other one was about to be finished, or something. I don't know. But you know what, good for her... I know she works hard too, and she deserves it! But I thought I did too... and to just find out through an email at the same time as everyone who got it, and not even hearing why you didn't, kinda sucks. You know?

But I have to say... when I found out I was relieved. Not because the position sounded horrible, but because I found out while in the interview, that what I really want is the other position (the one at the law firm). And I know I might not even get it! But still... now it gives me a better reason to work super hard, and put all the chances I can get on my side. Because of the first impression I got when I went the other day, they seem to be exactly what I have been looking for. It really seems like a good reliable company to work for. And I was just so impressed and wowed! I even started researching about what type of laws they do, and about the company, so when I get to the final interview, they will think that i'm the one for them, because I am truly interested in what they do. And I want to learn, even though I don't have the experience, I am the perfect person for the position anyway, because they can train me the way they want, and I learn quickly. I just want to make the best impression I can make, you know? Might not be the greatest idea to put all that pressure on myself like that, but I think it will make me thrive even more to do the best I can, and hopefully get the job.

So really... not getting the job at work today, was for me a sort of sign. A sign not to give up, I will find something else... and maybe, who knows, the law firm is what i'm meant to be doing. I'm a firm believer of "everything happens for a reason", and if something doesn't happen, then it probably wasn't meant to be. And sometimes it's tough to see the reasoning behind it, especially right away, but this time... it's like I have a clear vision of the reason why. I have this gut feeling... like something BIG is about to happen (in a really good way). But I don't know what it is... and I don't get those "gut feelings" very often. And it's making me think it might be about the job at the law firm, but maybe it's not even job related at all. I just have this really good feeling though... and I gotta be honest, I'm REALLY hoping it's about that job.

Damn me, and putting my hopes up again...