So, lots to update you guys on!!

For those who are on my facebook, you already know... but for those who aren't; I got a job! :D
I had an interview Thursday afternoon for a company called Assumption (insurance), and got a call not too long after sayng I got the job, so I accepted it... wasn't my first choice, because of the pay ($12/hour), it was only a casual position (for 8 months), no vacation time, and I had to pay around $105/month for parking (ridiculous, right?).  But I figured... well, if that's all I can get for now, then this willl have to do! So I told her I would take it. I would start the Monday coming up.
But then... I got a call back from Caisse Populaire, and she offered me a job too! A job I thought I would personally like more... pays better ($13.50/hour), vacation time, and don't have to pay for parking.. AND it's a position for atleast 12 months (very good possibility on being permanent). So I had to make a decision, and obviously... I ended up picking Caisse Populaire, so I had to call Assumption Monday morning to let her know I wouldn't take it. I still feel kinda bad about that... because they seemed like they really wanted me there. But... I decided to be selfish for once, and take the job I would actually like AND it pays better so... yeah :P
I started my job just today actually... and it was really fun! We just mostly met everyone, and then visited the Caisse of Dieppe, and then did a little bit of job shadowing for about 2 hours. I like it so far! Very different from RBC though... but I like it :)
Another awesome thing... they pay weekly! Do you know how awesome is that?! I had told Channy I wouldn't be able to make it for her bday, because I thought I would only get paid on the 18th, and that's it, but i'll get paid... 5 times by then, so maybe i'll be able to go now!! :D  (Channy if you read this, still not 100% sure, but i'll def see what I can do!) And not only that, but we get 5 days of vacation (just because we arrived half way through their calendar year), but next year, starting June 2011... I would get 3 friggin' weeks paid vacation! I was SO excited when I found that out! You can't even imagine... I never got 3 weeks vacation anywhere!! So that's super awesome for me. :)

On a shitty note though... once again, my "mother" is being a total BIATCH (like always) and she's giving me 2 weeks to move out (thanks a lot for the help.. NOT) so guess where i'm moving? Jeremie's! I thought at first that it might be too early, but he really wants me to move with him... and has been wanting me to for weeks. but I just wanted to take my time with that (considering the bad experience with Phil), but... we had been practically been living together for weeks now (i'm always at his place, so I don't have to deal with my so called "mother"s  fits), so I think we're going to be fine. :)  Well, I hope! And honestly... it's not like I have anywhere else to go, anyway...

But atleast I have a job now... and I have my friends, and Jeremie, and my family... my dad said he would help me out the best he can (good to know I can always count on my dad!) and a lot of my friends surprisingly supported my decision of moving with him (I thought they would say it was too soon, but nope! they all love him anyway lol), so... that's all that counts in the end, right? As for my "mother"... I don't want to see, talk or hear about her. EVER. Some of you might think it's overreacting, but for those who know me, and know what she did to me in the past.. I know you'll understand. The rest well.. you'd have to read my past entries, I really don't feel like getting into it tonight... all you need to know is that she's a controlling bitch, and always has been, and manipulates people.. and there's a reason why my dad divorced her, and why Caroline (sister) refuses to have anything to do with her either.

But anyway... I'm going to leave it at that for now... i'm moving this weekend (probably saturday), and Jeremie doesn't have the internet right now, so I won't be able to get to anyone's journals for alittle while (sometimes I read them from my blackberry though! so if I do, i'll try to leave a little comment if it lets me) but i'll def try my best to keep you guys updated no matter what!

Wish me luck!

Later guys xoxoxo

So I found out this morning that I didn't get the job at Manheim (the one I wanted the most)... it sucks, but I had a feeling I wouldn't get it. I didn't thought I had enough sales experience to have the job, and I was right. I'm not giving up on the other jobs though... i'm waiting for my friend Steph to find the # for the company insurance her father deals with, so I can call them and ask them what's up (he said he would "keep in touch" with me, but he never did, but Steph's dad said he would most likely not call me until mid Jan. anyway), and i'm also waiting for a call back from Caisse Populaire, to see the results of my testing from almost 2 weeks ago... and I have been applying at other places in the meantime, so i'm bound to get a call back from someone soon. I hope!

I even applied at the call centre for the Fairmont Hotels... I didn't really want to at first, not because I didn't thought i'd like it, but because Adam (a guy I dated this summer for a little while) works there, and I thought it might be awkward, but meh... at this point.. even if it is awkward, fuck it! I'll suck it up, and do the job... they pay somewhat decent too (starts at $12.50/hour + 50 cents bonus for bilinguals) and there's full benefits (I believe you don't even pay for them, but probably only starts after 3 months though). So I couldn't complain if I got the job... and apparentely they have training classes pretty often, so I would most likely start soon. And I would get a discount on hotel rooms (again, most likely after my 3 months probation is over) so... that's pretty awesome too! I don't know why I didn't think about applying there sooner... i'm stupid, sometimes!

I've been at Jeremie's house for the last few days... I can't stand being "home" anymore... my mom drives me completely NUTS... she even called my dad last Thursday night when we had that argument... she hasn't changed at ALL. I don't know why people say she has... because it's not true. She's still as controlling, manipulative, and selfish as before. Whatever... if I can get a job soon, I will hopefully be able to be out of there soon. I can't wait!

Things with Jeremie have been going extremely well though.. he's a total sweetheart, and I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend!! I know i've said this before, but I never thought I would ever feel the way I feel right now, again... especially after Phil... i'm so happy that I have found him!! He makes me really happy. :)

Sorry that my entries have been pretty depressing lately, but I need to vent out somewhere... and Kiwi has always been the only place I could. Makes me feel better, though! :)

I hope everyone had a great weekend!
take care

Wow, i'm finally able to go back on Kiwi (at my dad's right now)... I miss Kiwi so much!! I even downloaded Firefox, and tried going on it there, but it didn't worked either... so it's definately a problem with the computer my dad lend me... shit!! :(  I guess i'll be on Live Journal for a while then... but i'll try my best to come on here as often as I could, though. I miss you guys!! (Live Journal sucks ass compared to here!)

I am seriously frustrated lately... being unemployed for 2 months (yes, already!), and looking for a job is mentally exhausting. I'm getting more despret by the minute... I feel like sleeping the whole day to just not think about all the things I need to pay, that I don't have the money for. Because when I start thinking about it.. I get so stressed out that I eventually end up in tears. I can't take this anymore... I don't know what to do anymore!! I don't get why I can't find a job... I have great experience, a quick learner, fully bilingual AND I have a college course to back me up, to name a few... and they all say that at the interviews, but then don't call me back! WTF?! If i'm such a great candidate, why the hell am I still jobless?? GAHH...  and the fact that Jeremie's contract with the Federal Gov. ended at the end of January, isn't helping, because now he's also looking for a job, except that he's a little more despret than me... he has a house to pay, and all that... and the job hunting is not looking good for him either... he's thinking of going back to PEI (where he's from) for a few weeks, and work for one of his old boss, if he can't find something soon. And I hope it doesn't get to that point, because I don't know what I would do without him around... and the fact that his cell, and home phone, got disconnected this week doesn't help, because I won't be able to get in contact with him, if he goes. :(  FUUUUUUCK!

I just don't get what the hell I did to deserve this BS... like seriously! People that aren't even looking for jobs, get jobs like it's nothing, because some of them have "connections", and i'm there looking like hell, and I can't get one?! Does anyone else see something wrong with this picture?

I've actually been thinking all week about going back to RBC... maybe i'm meant to be there, since no one else calls me back for a job... but anyway, I've decided that if I don't hear from anywhere else by the beggining of next week (like the 20th, or something) i'm going to go talk to Nicole (the girl that's in charge of the hiring at RBC) and hopefully get hired again. But if I do... i'll have to suck it up, and take whatever shift they give me, and not complain. But I could also ask to be put in the American side, because they close earlier (midnight, instead of 4am)... plus they need bilingual reps BIG time... but then they would have to train me (unlike the Canadian side, I would only need a refresher).

I don't know... we'll see...

I'm just SO sick of this...

I just want a godamn job.. is it too much to ask?

Just wanted to let everyone know that I won't be on here for a while... or atleast until the computer my dad lend me lets me go on Kiwi. It loads the first page, but when I put my username and password, says that explorer can't find the page, or can't load it, or something. It's messed up.

So in the meantime, i'm going to be on LiveJournal.com. If you're on there, add me! Username: this_is_me881.

Don't know how long i'll be gone for...

Hopefully not long though, I already miss Kiwi! :(  (i'm not home right now, hence why I can actually write an entry lol)

Well since I wasn't on kiwi around Christmas, just wanted to wish a Merry belated Christmas to everyone!!
I hope everyone had a great one, and got to spend lots of time with friends and family! I know I did!!

On the 23rd, we left early morning for Bathurst to go see my friend Steph, and Jeremie's sister. It had been 10 years since the last time I went there... I couldn't recognize anything!! (I'm originally from there) It was crazy...then we had to be in Tracadie (where most of my family live) for supper time, because they were all waiting for us at my grandmother's (on my mother's side). Then we slept at my godmother's that night, and woke up early to have lunch at my other grandmother's (on my dad's side). My grandfather was so happy that we went to see them, me and Jeremie, that he gave me $20 for the gas! He really didnt have to do that... but honestly right now.. any little bit helps. So that was nice. :)

We arrived back home (in Moncton) around 6-7pm, on the 24th, and got ready for supper at my aunt's (we celebrate Christmas on the 24th, usually at my aunt's, every year, because it's my dad's bday). By the time supper, and games, and all were done at my aunt's.. it was around 12:30, so we had to go straight home to bed, since we had to wake up early again the next day to leave for PEI.

On the 25th, we left for PEI pretty early as well... Jeremie wanted to leave around 9:30am, but we only left around 10 instead. Partially my fault.. I wanted McDonald's for breakfast! lol  But the drive seemed really short compaired to the drive this summer... took us about 2 hours, if not less! It was my first time meeting both his parents, and both of their spouses, and also my first time in Charlottetown (sp?) so it was pretty nice! His parents were both really nice... we had a lot of fun at his dad's, because there were people our age (his step brothers, and their girlfriend/boyfriend) and one of his step brother's girlfriend got a Wii for Christmas with the new Mario game, and we played it for hours!! I miss my Wii now... just because of that game. :(   It was so much fun!  We only got home around 1 in the morning that night, again... but it was lots of fun! :)

On the 26th, we finally had the chance to sleep in a little (YAY!!) and then there was a supper at Jeremie's grandmother's house. So I got to meet even more people from his family... thank god his family is about the size of mine, or I would of had problems remembering everyone's names!! lol.  They were all really nice though. :)

And yesterday well.. we decided to brave the mall (I know, we're crazy!) to first maybe buy a Wii (they had an awesome deal at Superstore), but ended up with an Xbox 360 instead, for the same price, and more... figured it wasnt worth buying the Wii again, just because of one game I would probably get sick of really soon. Instead, I convinced one of Jeremie's friend's gf that she needed to buy that game, and got the 360 instead lol.  We were actually supposed to go join them last night, and play it, but we were too tired... it's so much fun though!! I think they loved it too, because they spent a lot of time playing it lol

Other then that, not much has been going on.. the New Years Eve party at Janie's is going to be super awesome, and I can't wait! Janie even gave me a $25 gift card at the liquor store for Christmas, and Danielle got me Lindor chocolates (my faves!) and chocolate body lotion and shower gel... so that's pretty awesome!! We're even thinking about making some Jello shooters for that night.. and Jeremie and Danielle are getting a keg of beer from Pumphouse. So it's going to be an awesome night!! i'm super excited! Even more that Channy AND Brandon are going to be here!! Can't wait! :D


Well anyway, I hope everyone's Christmas was great! And if I don't come back before then, I wish you all a Happy New Year!! Can't wait to see what 2010 is going to bring us! :)