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 Hey Guys, It's my first time putting up a picture so... I really hope it worked![:)] It's FuzzyLilBunny who made it for me... isn't she nice?[:D] This entry is going to be super short... I don't really feel like writing much. Last night was horrible... me and Phil got into a HUGE fight about something really stupid [again], because we were both drunk [what else is new...]. We're fine now, but I wasn't so sure about that last night. I'll write more about it maybe later today... but probably most likely tomorrow. Don't feel like writing much right now... my right wrist hurts for some odd reason.[:(] I feel extremely bad, I ditched my friends at the club last night and left without letting them know, because I was so frigging mad at Phil... I hope none of them hates me... *sigh* My own stupid fault anyway... I should of just let him be a baby by himself, geez. But of course, stupid me had to run after him... *rolls eyes* Meh. Can't go back now!... So Linda if you're reading this... please don't hate me!![:(] Well anyway, my wrist really hurts... so i'm going to go. take care everyone! [<3]RaCh~x0x PiCTURES!!!  One of my cat Virgil. My favorite.[<3]  Phil & me looking like an idiot[:P]  Me, Linda & Channy[<3]  Me trying to look kool[:P]  Me & Channy!  me and a couple girls in my class at the Christmas dance[:)]  Sam & Me acting like retards once again... in Mcdonald's lol ((THANKS CHANNY!!!)) I'll post more later[:)] Responders: Jackit_Fan_1234, LilSwEeTBaBy135, midnite_breeze2, TheGeminiGirl, tiltedxoxhalo, true2yourself, x_DieRomantic_x (8)How do you sleep when the rest of us cries?(8)[limg=i2.photobucket.com/albums/y46/O0cookiez_n_kreem0O/more/52e73751.gif]
.......... time: 1 PM | date: 1.13.2007 | entry: 46 .......... [color=e6d0cc]Hey Guys![:)] How's life? Mine's going pretty good... tired as HELL right now... I had to get up this morning, because we went to eat at "Cora's" (it's a restaurant) for breakfast. So DAMN good!! Ahhh... *drools* I swear I ate so much, I think I would have to roll out the restaurant! lol. But it was SOOO good though... if ever you guys have the chance to go, GO! It's amazing.[:)][/color] [color=806240]It was me, my dad, Caroline, Diane (my dad's gf), Janie (my cuz), my aunt and my uncle... I hadn't seen Janie in SO long! So I was super glad to see her.[:)][/color] [color=e6d0cc]Phil was working nights last night... I texted him a couple times while he was working, hoping he would text me back on his break, but he never did.[:(] He only does that lately though... since he started day shifts. Usually he would text me back on his break, or when he gets off work, but not anymore. I don't know what's up with that... and then when I forget to text him goodnight before I go to bed, it's like the huge deal. Like wtf?!? So YOU can "forget" to text me, but I can't?? Fuck that... I don't know, it just pisses me off when he does that. But whatever. It's okay I guess... I know he works hard... he was on his own last night. So he might not had time to answer me, but still. He could of answered when he got off work, right? Know what I mean?[/color] [color=806240]It's okay though... i'm going to see him tonight.[:)] Well atleast... I THINK I am... since he never answered, I hope the plans haven't changed... and I swear, if I get there, and he's watching his stupid hockey... i'm taking the first bus to get back home, and i'm going out on my own. Too frigging bad... I don't feel like watching the damn tv all night tonight. I mean, isn't so bad to want to do something different for ONCE? *sigh*[/color] Also, I think he might be hiding something from me. And no, i'm not just saying it like that... because I have proof. I know, BAD me... but I went through his cell phone yesterday (hey, he does it to me ALL the time!), and found a text from his friend Paul from Truro (where he used to live), and he's like "yeah man, i'm going to come down next friday... it's like 66-99% chances that I am... it'll make my day, hell my year" or something like that. Maybe not in those EXACT words, but close. Okay, I don't CARE if he goes, hell I would like him to go, because I know he misses his friends like crazy. But hiding it from me? NO FRIGGING WAY. And when I asked him yesterday if he planned on going down there any time soon (I mean I'd like to go too.. I want to go see Channy!) he said he wasn't planning to. So either he's lying to ME, or he doesn't feel like going anymore. I really don't know. ALSO... he told me that if he goes there, he'll just get in trouble, because "trouble seems to find him there". *rolls eyes* Guys... what should I think of that?? [color=806240]Well anyway, I have to go... thanks in advance to those who will actually read this. [<3]RaCh~x0x "Dear Mr. President" Pink (feat. Indigo Girls) Dear Mr. President Come take a walk with me Let's pretend we're just two people and You're not better than me I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep What do you feel when you look in the mirror Are you proud How do you sleep while the rest of us cry How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye How do you walk with your head held high Can you even look me in the eye And tell me why Dear Mr. President Were you a lonely boy Are you a lonely boy Are you a lonely boy How can you say No child is left behind We're not dumb and we're not blind They're all sitting in your cells While you pave the road to hell What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay I can only imagine what the first lady has to say You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine How do you sleep while the rest of us cry How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye How do you walk with your head held high Can you even look me in the eye Let me tell you bout hard work Minimum wage with a baby on the way Let me tell you bout hard work Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away Let me tell you bout hard work Building a bed out of a cardboard box Let me tell you bout hard work Hard work Hard work You don't know nothing bout hard work Hard work Hard work Oh How do you sleep at night How do you walk with your head held high Dear Mr. President You'd never take a walk with me Would you[/color] ...hugs .......... midnite_breeze2 , Naked__Truth , true2yourself ...hugs ©cookiez_n_kreem Everything's fine till' I start worrying again... [bgcolor=#CC66FF]ggg[font=century gothic]entry OOO[/font][/bgcolor] [font=century gothic][color=#CC66FF]I gw a n t ga [font=lucida handwriting] fairytale [/font]ge n d i n g .[/color][/font]
[font=lucida sans unicode][color=#CC66FF][ I s n ' t gt h a t gw h a t gw e ga l l gw a n t ? ][/color][/font] [font=century gothic][color=black][color=#CC66FF]Hey Guys![:)][/color] Sorry for the late entry... I slept over at Phil's last night, and I just left when he had to go to work (which was for 9:30 pm) so... yeah. I know everyone might not have the chance to read this but... it's okay.[:)] We had a really good night. We were both in the "drinking mood" so we drank pretty much all night.[:)] Let me remind you, that the last time I drank was... in november? Remember when me and Phil had that huge fight, and that his mom had to get involved... yeah. I think that's the last time I drank. Oh wait a min... I drank a little bit later that month, that's right... when Channy came down! Anyway, point is... I hadn't drank in a pretty long time, so I was pretty drunk!! After the first drink, my head was already spinning... I know... how lame! lol. But it's all good... I had fun.[:)] And atleast when i'm drunk, I don't worry... *sigh* One of his friends (a girl... his ex roomate from where he used to live) called him last night. She looks really nice![:)] I think he didn't really talk to her since we're together, because she didn't knew who the "Rach" was in Phil's nickname on msn. But she seemed pretty happy for him! She said we sounded cute together. lol.[:)] I really hope that if we go down there one day (him to see his friends, and me to see Channy, of course!) that i'll get to meet her too. Because she sounds really nice! And i'm sure Phil wants me to meet his friends so...[:)] I felt bad though... I know how much he misses his friends... but he can't go back, because he knows he'll just get in trouble.[:(] Not that he's that bad... but supposebly every time he's down there, trouble finds a way to find him. lol. Poor baby... he's trying to convince his friends to come down here instead, but in the whole year he's been living here, only like 1 came down. Oh well. I wish he would have friends sometimes... I feel bad, because I do.. and he doesn't have any around here... he just had his brother. But oh well... not much I can do, right? I swear, my worries is driving everyone up the walls. And I can kinda see where they're coming from... because I mean, who wants to be around someone who worries all the time, anyway?? Certainly not me... so I can see why it would be annoying. And I swear, I am NOT doing this for attention... it's just extremely hard for me to stop worrying. I don't know how! And I swear... I am really TRYING here... but I don't know how to stop. I've worried about everything all my life... how could I stop now? That's probably the reason why i'm so stressed out. Okay, not probably... it is the reason why i'm so stressed out. And believe me, I know it's not good for my health... i'm not stupid. But i've honestly been like this all my life... and people who have known me for years know that. But also, people who have known me for years, know that i'm getting better. A lot better, but like Channy told me... I still worry too much. And I know... but it's hard not to. *sigh* Life is so complicated... But... I have you guys, my friends from school, Phil, my family,... to help me through this, right?[:)] thank you to all of those who are going to read this[<3] [<3]RaCh~x0x[/color][/font] [hr color=#CC66FF] [font=century gothic][color=black]Entry[font=symbol] © [/font]45 [hr color=#CC66FF]Date[font=symbol] © [/font]January 12, 2007 Mood[font=symbol] © [/font]exhausted Music[font=symbol] © [/font]"Say it right" Nelly Furtado Talking to[font=symbol] © [/font]no one at the moment Plans[font=symbol] © [/font]go to bed very shortly Previous first responder[font=symbol] © [/font]Naked__Truth[/color][/font] [font=lucida handwriting]Responders: [/font][font=century gothic]dandi_andi, HiHeelSneakers, Jackit_Fan_1234, midnite_breeze2, Naked__Truth, purplegiraffes, trashkatt, true2yourself[/font] [bgcolor=CC66FF] [font=century gothic]©F0RG0TTEN_x3[/font] [/bgcolor]I was having doubts..[bgcolor=black][font=webdings] ggggggggggggggg g g gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg [/font][font=Vivaldi][font=Papyrus][font=monotype corsiva]Where you've been is not half as important as where you're going.[/font][/font][/font] [font=webdings] ggggggggggggggg g g gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg [/font][color=#ffff00]Hey Guys![:)][/color] [box align=right][bgcolor=black]Entry: 44 Time: 11:55 AM [color=#99ff66]Mood: happy[:)][/color] Subbies: 19 Logins: don't know lol Profile Views: don't know Talking To: Sam & Rob Listening To: Sam bitch at Rob lol Prev. 1st Responder: minite_breeze2[/bgcolor] I'm sorry I didn't write yesterday.. I went at Phil's after school, and right when I came home I just passed out... I was so tired!! God... sometimes I wonder if I don't have mono or something... because it's pretty bad. And no I am not pregnant... I finished my periods like 2 days ago. lol. [color=#33ffcc]When I was at Phil's, I was sorta having doubts about "us"... I don't know... I just kinda felt like he didn't really cared about seeing me... but don't worry guys... he proved me otherwise by the end of the night.[:)] I don't know.. I guess i'm just super paranoid lately... i'm so scared of losing him guys, you have absolutly no idead. I seriously can't see my life without him now...like really, I can't! And I don't want to. And to all those who are in love... you know what I mean.[:)][/color] [color=#33ccff]Right now i'm just at school... in "legal research" right now, but i'm almost done my project thingy, and we still have another period to finish it so... thought I would write a little something.[:)] And I want to appologize in advance, because I probably won't be able to get to journals until tomorrow night... because i'm going back at Phil's after school, and i'm sleeping over because he only works night shifts friday, instead of day shift. So going to spend some time with my baby.[:)][<3] Well anyway, sorry so short, but I have to go... it's lunch break now.[:)] have a great day guys! love you all[<3][/color] ###[color=99ff66][font=wingdings]«[/font][/color][font=Vivaldi][font=Papyrus][font=monotype corsiva]RaCh~x0x[/font][/font][/font][font=webdings] ggggggggggggggg g g gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg [/font][color=#ffff00]dandi_andi[color=#d6ff28]HiHeelSneakers [color=#adff51]midnite_breeze2 [color=#84ff7a]Naked__Truth [color=#5bffa3]TheGeminiGirl [color=#33ffcc]true2yourself [color=#55d2d6]VintageHeart Subscribers: bloodypunk, dandi_andi, emotastic__, extreme_chaos, HiHeelSneakers, Jackit_Fan_1234, jessicasuga, LilSwEeTBaBy135, major_blonde413, midnite_breeze2, N2cj4eva14, Naked__Truth, TheGeminiGirl, tiltedxoxhalo, trashkatt, true2yourself, VintageHeart, x_DieRomantic_x, xoSOiCY [font=webdings]ggggggggggggggg g g gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg [/font][/bgcolor]I'm disapointed... *sigh*[bg=white]
( entry 43 ) [hr color=hotpink][font=symbol]© © ©[/font] [limg=img.photobucket.com/albums/v244/xo_platinum/Graphics/thshefeelinlove.png] [font=century gothic] [color=hotpink]Hey Guys![:)][/color] How's life? Me, not so bad... once again I was supposed to see Phil tonight((just like yesterday, but that never happened either)), but I didn't. *sigh* [:(] I'm really sad... and disapointed.[:(] I know it's not his fault, he's still sick... I think he was throwing up all day today... Poor baby!![:(] But still... it's not my fault I miss him!! lol. I can't believe we've gone 3 days without seeing each other... that never happened since we're together!! So that's kinda long for me.. I know, I know... it's not "the end of the world", but still... I miss my Pooky.[:(] It's frigging hard to get back in the whole "school routine" thingy... god! I'm so tired the mornings... but i'll survive though... hey, already half way through the week for me![:D] YAY!![:D] One good news though... we learned today that the last software test we had before the vacation was our midterm for that class so... atleast there's one less![:D] Pretty glad about that... [:)] I read someone's journal today ((you know who you are!)), and it really made me think. Like sometimes I get sad over the stupidiest things EVER, when I could just get over it, and be happy with what I have! And I should really try to do that... because i'm sure it must help with stress! And god knows how much I have right now... and if I don't stop stressing like this, i'm going to end up having a heart attack at frigging 30! So yeah... I think it's time for me to look at life with a more positive outlook... so the person who wrote that entry, you should be tapping yourself on the shoulder right now... because you made a difference in someone's life! (not like you don't usually, but you know what I mean!!![:P])) Well anyway... that's about all I had to talk about... ohhh! I bought dye for my hair, and i'm dying it tonight!![:D] ((with or without help)) You can check out the color if you want: www.garnier.ca ((it's #426)) Anyway guys... have a great night!! take care P.S. I don't have strept throat. YAY!![:D] [<3]RaCh~x0x Responders: dandi_andi, extreme_chaos, Jackit_Fan_1234, LilSwEeTBaBy135, major_blonde413, midnite_breeze2, TheGeminiGirl, VintageHeart [font=symbol]© © ©[/font] [hr color=hotpink] |
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