ookii_to_kawaii , 25

Hey everyone,
I am kind of tired and worn out so I will make this quick. Yes, I am back... For those who knew I was gone I commend you. For those who don't know who I am, my name is matt and I am still discovering who I am. I am starting on a path to discover the self, my self, me.

What I want you all to know is this is journal is not mean to inform, entertain, persuade, convince, encourage, discourage, draw attention, gain popularity, or anything else you can think of. The purpose of this journal which i am revamping is now to guide me, lead me, and draw me closer to finding out who I am and why I am here. For the last few years I think I have been losing a sense of who I was, a lot of people have been telling me who I should be, and I have been losing site of reality because of it. In order to get in touch with my true self and with reality I need some record and account of my day to day life so track my progress. That being said, I give my condolances to anyone who wishes to comment, to share life stories, similar situations, or general discussion but just know that I may post every day, maybe not for weeks. I have no idea how many times I will post but I am sure going to try to post as often as I can. I will also state that I may only have time to post an entry and not be able to comment others entries or read them for that matter, I will do what I can. So if you want to subscribe to me you can, if you want to unsubscribe go ahead if not I would enjoy to hear your feedback, as long as there is no slander, rude comments, or spamming.

Thank you for listening those who did, and just so you all know....
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It wont be as boring as this one I swear! ;)

I have been in a somewhat pissy mood lately...Well, y moods have been fluctuation but it seems i a getting more agitated easier. I find myself taking out my anger the person I love the most. I don't really know why, maybe it is because she it the closest to me or maybe i feel a little resentment towards her so my anger gets channeled towards her. Or maybe, i am really angry at myself for taking shit from people and doing shitty things to people I care about. I have no clue.

Anyways this week has been ok besides the arguments...I filled out my fafsa, started a study group for bi101 (which has 3 people total), organized my planners, got my side of the room taken care of, but one thing i neglected to do was my homework... I really need to do that this weekend! I also need to do my laundry.

Jen made deans list at her college! Too bad she stayed up until 2am and is too tired to go! That would have been cool to go to....She also made profile of the day on kiwibox! Yay!

Well, I suppose I shoud get to work. I can't be distracted by anything! Leave some love!

Peace!
Matt.

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today was hectic, will tell you more later.. byes.

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Will edit this later...

Well today was long. For one, I am finally able to pay rent and Janice (Jen's mom) WONT PUT MY ON THE LEASE! The only reason she is giving me basically is that I am living in the same room as jen... today I didn't do a lot in terms of homework. I was walking A LOT! I ate a bit, walked some more... Um... ate...walked...then went to aq where i ate again and then spent most of the time on my yeast paper for BI101 Lab... I haven't studied for BI101 Lec... Should I be stressed?... in my opinion yes...am i?... Nooo nooo noooo...why? I have no idea, maybe its the fact that its 10:56pm and I have to wake up at 7:00am... I just want to get to bed... I will talk to you all later.

Peace!
Matt

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