orgygirly , 25

Well, it's Saturday.  Joe showed up at my door on Tuesday. Suddenly he loves and misses me and wants to be friends.  I thought this would happen... much much sooner.  I had given up on the idea. The problem is, I don't know if he's trying to come back or if I'm looking too deeply into things... and I have a new boyfriend and it's making me act funny towards him having seen Joe.  *sigh* Also, Fuck that diet crap. *eats icecream*

So I just weighed myself... 334. Not too bad... only 4 pounds back on after 3 months off the diet.

I've gotta do this.

I want so badly to be back under 300...

Okay, so I haven't been on here in like 3 months.

My diet, died after joe left. I got down to 330... 51 pounds... and then I just kinda gave up.  It was hard dammit =(

Joe's been gone 3 months and I'm going to be alright. I've had another boyfriend since which only lasted about 5 weeks. Pretty sure he just said he'd be with me to get in my pants.  Guys really suck.

I need to get back on my diet and quit worrying about these stupid ass boys.

I bought a new scale. My other one just keeps saying E. Grr.

I'm afraid to weigh myself and see what kind of damage I've probably done...

I need to change my profile picture... Joe is long gone =/

Also, I have a cold. *sniffle cough die*

Well... I've lost 49 pounds now.  336.  Yay, I suppose.

I miss joe so badly.

I'm going to see a therapist in about an hour.

*sigh*

I haven't mentioned it in a little while, so here I go.  I'm now 336.  I've lost 45 pounds.

Lately I haven't even been trying, but I'm just so unhappy I can't really eat.

Oh Joseph, I can't let you go... you have my heart.  I suppose I'll have to pretend to let you go... =(