♀I'm having one of those days where I'm mad at people who can read profiles. Katie's friend from back home (where her and I both used to live) ended up adding me to Facebook. I don't mind adding people. It's nice to make new friends. But of course this guy wasn't into wanting to be friends. He was into calling me cute. I'm alright with being called cute. But I tell him, "I'm in a relationship," he told me that he wasn't into bothering women who have a man. That's good so I was fine with it and thought he'd just leave me alone. Why on earth did I believe that. Then he's bothering me more. The question came up about why am Idating a girl.  Kelly is not a girl. So he had to question that a bit. Thank god he left me alone finally because I was about ready to e-smack him.♀

♀I had a chance to talk to Katie's husband today though. He seems pretty rad. I have no problem with him. I seem to like him he seems like a nice guy.♀

♀My stomach isn't agreeing with anything today. I tried goldfish crackers, every flavor imaginable, none seem to agree, cereal don't agree. I don't know what will and does agree anymore. It's insanity that's what it is. I can only eat fruit and salad and that gets too much,. I don't want to see an apple, banana or a bowl of cereal ever again.♀

♀Other than that no fun updates sorry people :)♀

It's been a long depressing day. A guy I went to school with when I was younger, a family friend passed this morning. He was my age. I can't believe I'm taking it harder than I am. So I did write him a poem. I'll let you guys read it beofre I get on with my day. Yes that's a picture of him.
My memories are clear
About the time on earth you spent here
The news today hurt so deep
The memories of you on earth are ours to keep
I know you put smiles on our face
Ones that will never erase
You were a fantastic friend
True to the end
I'll keep these memories close
Charish the person I've come to know
So now that you're gone
And we have to say so long
I'll miss you
I'm sure I'll always do





Now on with my day. It was okay. Kelly had Rayne today. She's great. He was reading her the Lorax story you know the one from Dr. Suess. I forget the full title. His grandma got the book and the doll for her. She loves it. I never found the Lorax to be totally cute. I think one of the animals from a wocket in my pocket would be better or something like that little skinny bird chick from Are you my mother.

I played some DDO today my character isn't leveled well yet but I hope for her to be. I stopped playing because my mind couldn't keep on the game I'm kind of in a blah mood.

Still not sure on the baby thing something's just not right. I'm lightly bleeding as some pregnant people do, my hips actually changed a bit now. So you figure. But as a promise on the names. I'll give you what we have so far. For a girl Guinevere Brigid and for a boy Gabriel. We don't have a middle name. We'll figure stuff out when the time comes I suppose. So hah.

I feel like a piggy today though. I ended up eating some ice cream and Kelly's who couldn't eat all of his ice cream. I ended up some how getting my hair in the ice-cream now it's all sticky. Eww.

Anyways that's my day not much but like i said i just needed that out

♥Good day everybody. Hope all is well. I hope to write everyday again. ♥

♥I should have went to school again but didn't. Bad Jen. But anywho I'm tired and feel like crap. I just hate this bleeding forever thing. It only happens after sex so I am not completely sure what's going on with me. Pssh figures. I just am still really stuck on math. It is true if you don't use it you lose it. My basic math is fine I'm scarily trying to work past the 5th grade level. Dyslexia problems are probably the case.♥

♥ There has been no luck on me finding a female yet. Tried those dating sites. Tried all the free ones, even vampirefreaks, myspace and whatever comes to mind it's a daunting task. Then again, when it came to men I was evenly as unlucky forever. Thank god my finding men on dating sites is over. I'm happy with Kelly but you know I need to see if the female thing is what I want as well. He's a typical male when it comes to sexual exploration, he would like to have this women join us and then possibly i have a women to work with for the cam stuff. Typical isn't it? ♥

♥ Today it was the typical play DDO and spend time with Kelly. I'm only a level 3 on that game. I'm so new to the MMORPG thing I feel strange. I'm asking a million questions. I think that's a bit normal. At least I would hope so. I kind of like pretending to be somebody else just for a bit. I think that's why it's a great thing to do for me gives me writing ideas as well. It's just something new for me to do, I see why Kelly loves it.♥

♥ I did write a bit on my xanga page. The page is www.xanga.com/sacrifice_your_children I know the name is  bit dark and twisted but that was on my mind at the time. I mainly added a poem and a writing prompt. I just like escaping from the hum drum of every day life. I think that's why writing, reading and these video games are a part of who I am.♥

♥ Kelly didn't get Rayne (his daughter) today. His exwife's only day off was today. He was really bummed. He hasn't seen her for a week she's been sick and is finally feeling better. I admit I miss her to. Kids are great. I hope this belly I have is baby bump realated because I just love kids. Rayne's great, I love her like she's my own. Sadly enough since Kelly and I are wanting a baby together we do have names picked out which I'll give out another time since Im running low on room tonight and have a mouth full of things to say. ♥

♥ You know what I'm going to hate about spring? The neighbors here. They like playing their radios in thier cars full blast. I'm not a huge fan of hip-hop and rap, and to hear it bumping so loud is bothersome. It's an appartment complex people. Grr. Not even if it was metal or hard rock I woudln't like it I find it stupid and annoying. Why does somebody want to make themself deaf by playing something that loud? I don't care if they got the best system out there it's dumb and lame.♥

♥ LA Ink came on tonight. It's like the only TV show I watch now with the internet and Rayne around I have no use for television anymore. But LA Ink makes me cry. I'm a wimp, I think the brain cancer an problems with people's brains hits home. I remember when my mom told me she had a cyst on her brain. I was crushed. I cried a ton. Thank god she's fine but it was just so inspiring I know how these famalies feel.♥

♥ On the topic of not doing things I used to. My favorite past time isn't much of one anymore. I don't sleep 24/7 anymore. Mainly I think because now I'm busy and doing more I don't want to sleep. I usually go to sleep at 2 at the lastest and wake up at 9. Then I usually eat. Dishes happen somewehre in the day. Yes house work I do a bit of that now. It's fun keeping busy. Not that an escape from the ordinary is bad but sleep sometimes ends up in a nightmare and I have night terrors. I thrashed and was nutty last night I guess, I hate that. Sometimes Kelly does have to be in the other room because he can't sleep next to me. Poor thing. ♥

♥Guess I'll end it here. Later :)♥

Long time no writing here...plan to do more
Updates up the ass are happening here. I'm a web model again. Yes scary I know. I hate the thought but heck Kelly and I are making it well with that $100 for 15 isn't too bad. Yes Kelly and i are together still as for the baby thing--not sure whats up with me, I don't know if it's the shot or what. I gained a belly its a cute belly not unsure about it being a baby bump or what, I have funny tasting nipples a lot like milk (kelly said so), only problem with that i was on the shot, and well...that milk stuff isn't supposed to happen. I admit we were not playing it safe at all so who knows.  I'm questioning my sexuality. I'm not 100% i'm straight. I'm thinking possibly bi--I still like guys but not so sure. I'm finishing up school finally. If that's not enough now I'm living in Michigan

As for today it was an interesting day. We got the new laptop for work and Kelly's WoW. It's from dell it's a studio 15. The graphics on it are nice. I haven't ate much today. I'm having a bit of problems with anemia. Not fun. We're talking about taking ti-chi and playing WoW together.

Sorry i need to update my livejournal account as well so later girls..

Guess who's still alive? Yes I am. It's been a while since I've been on. I haven't been home. so I guess it's update time.

I'll just do a quick run through of what's going on. Kelly and I are still together. We're so happy together we're trying for a baby. So far I don't know the results I'm have to go to the doctors. because of my cycle is really weird. okay first off I know a few things about my monthly friend first as you know is heavy as hell i think what i had was implatation bleeding because it wasn't heavy at all it stopped and i basically bled just a teeny bit the next day, my boobs hurt more than a SOB and i'm having nausea like hell. I"m also moving in with kelly so it's been a long time. so

But I'll update more on my lj account later.