pink_dreams , 25

♥Good day everybody. Hope all is well. I hope to write everyday again. ♥

♥I should have went to school again but didn't. Bad Jen. But anywho I'm tired and feel like crap. I just hate this bleeding forever thing. It only happens after sex so I am not completely sure what's going on with me. Pssh figures. I just am still really stuck on math. It is true if you don't use it you lose it. My basic math is fine I'm scarily trying to work past the 5th grade level. Dyslexia problems are probably the case.♥

♥ There has been no luck on me finding a female yet. Tried those dating sites. Tried all the free ones, even vampirefreaks, myspace and whatever comes to mind it's a daunting task. Then again, when it came to men I was evenly as unlucky forever. Thank god my finding men on dating sites is over. I'm happy with Kelly but you know I need to see if the female thing is what I want as well. He's a typical male when it comes to sexual exploration, he would like to have this women join us and then possibly i have a women to work with for the cam stuff. Typical isn't it? ♥

♥ Today it was the typical play DDO and spend time with Kelly. I'm only a level 3 on that game. I'm so new to the MMORPG thing I feel strange. I'm asking a million questions. I think that's a bit normal. At least I would hope so. I kind of like pretending to be somebody else just for a bit. I think that's why it's a great thing to do for me gives me writing ideas as well. It's just something new for me to do, I see why Kelly loves it.♥

♥ I did write a bit on my xanga page. The page is www.xanga.com/sacrifice_your_children I know the name is  bit dark and twisted but that was on my mind at the time. I mainly added a poem and a writing prompt. I just like escaping from the hum drum of every day life. I think that's why writing, reading and these video games are a part of who I am.♥

♥ Kelly didn't get Rayne (his daughter) today. His exwife's only day off was today. He was really bummed. He hasn't seen her for a week she's been sick and is finally feeling better. I admit I miss her to. Kids are great. I hope this belly I have is baby bump realated because I just love kids. Rayne's great, I love her like she's my own. Sadly enough since Kelly and I are wanting a baby together we do have names picked out which I'll give out another time since Im running low on room tonight and have a mouth full of things to say. ♥

♥ You know what I'm going to hate about spring? The neighbors here. They like playing their radios in thier cars full blast. I'm not a huge fan of hip-hop and rap, and to hear it bumping so loud is bothersome. It's an appartment complex people. Grr. Not even if it was metal or hard rock I woudln't like it I find it stupid and annoying. Why does somebody want to make themself deaf by playing something that loud? I don't care if they got the best system out there it's dumb and lame.♥

♥ LA Ink came on tonight. It's like the only TV show I watch now with the internet and Rayne around I have no use for television anymore. But LA Ink makes me cry. I'm a wimp, I think the brain cancer an problems with people's brains hits home. I remember when my mom told me she had a cyst on her brain. I was crushed. I cried a ton. Thank god she's fine but it was just so inspiring I know how these famalies feel.♥

♥ On the topic of not doing things I used to. My favorite past time isn't much of one anymore. I don't sleep 24/7 anymore. Mainly I think because now I'm busy and doing more I don't want to sleep. I usually go to sleep at 2 at the lastest and wake up at 9. Then I usually eat. Dishes happen somewehre in the day. Yes house work I do a bit of that now. It's fun keeping busy. Not that an escape from the ordinary is bad but sleep sometimes ends up in a nightmare and I have night terrors. I thrashed and was nutty last night I guess, I hate that. Sometimes Kelly does have to be in the other room because he can't sleep next to me. Poor thing. ♥

♥Guess I'll end it here. Later :)♥