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--67--Am i really too nice?**Baby Lost. what?! [smallest]date: O9.23.O9 | time: O3:22 | entry: O67[/smallest] [font=wingdings]nononononononononononononononon[/font] [font=symbol]© © © © ©[/font] [smallest] I was online last night talking to Tim. He's a great friend. I asked him what he thought about what was going on between Josh and I. Tim goes to me that I have a lot to offer. Not that I deny the fact that I do. But I wanted to know what he sees in me because it'd be nice to get someone's point of view. He goes to me, "you with so little faith in yourself. Intelligence, humor, kindess, and generosity." But I guess he's right. This morning when I woke up my mom goes to me, "Do you know where Baby is?" I freak out you know I was hoping that she was outside. But since mom said she wasn't in the pen, outside I was scared. I hoped that dad was out giving her a bath like he said he's been wanting to. Anyways a few moments later I hear barking from the back pen.So of course I ran there hoping it's her, she barks like a huge dog and she's so little you know. Well she was out there and mom swore she wasn't I don't know where she was but now she's fine. I'm helping Stephanie with her report for school. She's doing a report on animal cruelty. You know what that means? Miss PETA member can help her sister on something. So I decided to e-mail PETA2 and freecycle members so see if they have any litrature that i could get becasuse I need as much as I can to help her I'm sure. But you know that's the thing to get lirature as a normal PETA member the stuff is so expensive that I was hoping they'd help. I was helping on teenhelp today as well did about 20 forum posts whatever was the newest and then quit. I'm going to be doing that every day now I think the young teenagers need help you know. they have problems. I remember those days being lost and confused (really those days are still here). I am so Accident prone lately. I smashed my finger in the keyboard drawer already. It hurts but that's arlight. I don't know what to do with the pain. Oh since I joined TVchix, which is a nice site, they seem to like me and hope I can find a tv, or a cross dresesr. I made a wonderful new friend he's so cute. Maybe if you're not into cross dresesrs you'd think he's gross he goes by the name Elizabeth and he's my hero. So cute...nice, and if i was more single and lived closer I'd date him 4 sure.  I want to do a baby shower for the local B.A.B.E. group, Bed and Britches Ect. Because they usually need new baby things for the low income families who can't get anything. I know I'm so nice lately I want to help people instead of sitting around doing nothing. As long as I'm not working why not you know. Still so antsy about Sunday. I get to see Josh again! Whooo! I like him it takes a lot from me to like somebody I don't know if it's my pickyness or it's the fact that I usually feel no connection between them I don't know. Just that I'm not the most social person for sure and I know exactly what I want and I won't settle for less. I'm like that with everything though, I think us women need that when it comes to guys or else we're selling ourself short. Enough rambling. I think it's just excitement about sunday. My sleeping has sucked lately. Haven't got good sleep for whatever reason it maybe. I think it's being bipolar thta has ruined my sleep and a bit of excitement. My life is different now again you know that's what's so crazy. I know in the next 10 years things will be really different from what they are now but I need to get used to the sleeping thing. I'm again debating to go on a diet. It's not what people think it's not because I'm fat. I want to go on a low carb diet to help with my hypoglycimia. I have low blood sugar problems and get sick easily. Well too many carbs meen too much sugar and nothing to support it so I as I call it yo-yo I get normal blood sugar and I crash, and when I crash I get horrible. I'm copying symptoms from a website and starring what I have **hunger **nervousness and shakiness **perspiration **dizziness or light-headedness **sleepiness **confusion difficulty speaking **feeling anxious or weak Hypoglycemia can also happen while you are sleeping. You might **cry out or have nightmares find that your pajamas or sheets are damp from perspiration **feel tired, irritable, or confused when you wake up So as you can tell.And some of my readers can tell I do have tons of problems health wise as well. But i handle it well. I just need a better diet i think. 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 =[font=wingdings]n n n n[/font]( entry 0000 | mood here ) [font=symbol]© © ©[/font] Today was the day. Oh my God It was awesome. I met Josh for the first time. I don't know what say other than I like this guy. He's cute sweet and so reserved. I've been looking for a guy like him in so long. Kind of the whole reason behind the layout today. I didn't expect anything like this to happen. Wellw we watched movies sat and sort of talked and cuddled. Awh! And guess what happens next weekend? Yeah that's right I get to see him again. Thought I'd let people read a message between him and I obviously the lastnames have been taken out for personal reasons. Jennifer: what are you doing hooker ^_^ Joshua: hooker? Jennifer: yep i've made you a hooker needed to call you something i shoulda said cutie but hooker came to mind first you're not one though Joshua: lol not even close Jennifer: i know then i'll call you a cutie does that work Joshua: sure, something not demeaning is nice Jennifer: i'm stuck baby sitting my cousin while my uncles out for no pay...i'm a dumbass!!!! Joshua: i know how it is, i do alot of extra work with no pay, just benefits Jennifer: yeah. i'll use seeing you as payment Joshua: a that's sweet Jennifer: that is'nt sweet. i'm not sweet at all you should know that Jennifer i'm a brat. and i'm weird somehow i miss you already how'd that happen Jennifer: hope i wasn't too weird or crazy for you cuz i would have ran away screaming if i were you Joshua : you were fine i thought you were cute Jennifer: hehe thanks i was too quiet though i wish i talked more Joshua: you were fine Jennifer: thats good so were you. though i'll admit it i didn't i'd like you as much as i ended up liking you Joshua: how come? Jennifer: i don't know i thought i'd like you. but to feel safe around a person as soon as i was around you is odd for me Joshua: i have that impression on people alot Jennifer Saratankos: that's good...i guess. but at least you made me stop my little out looking for a man search for awhile i have my eyes set on a sexy little target *looks at you with a playful glare* Joshua: i was trying not to get "excited" i didn't want to make you uncomfortable but it was very hard not to Jennifer : its okay and you weren't excited. shoulda thought i felt something mighta been my imagination and it wouldn't have made me feel weird. i'd actually see it as more of a normal thing Joshua: you didn't notice? Jennifer: i noticed that's why i said it was my imagination because you said you were trying not to Joshua: oh i see Jennifer: yeah. i was going to say something but didn't want to be like, "Josh stop having a fucking stiffy dude." but it's cool that i wasn't really just going crazy....well crazier than i am Joshua: lol i'm sorry it's not my fault your so cute Jennifer: me cute? nah. i'm sweet too....well can be. though i just said i'm not and is the nervousness gone and do you trust me a bit more i hope Joshua L messenger crashed on me Jennifer : aww poor joshy Jennifer : thought yuo ran away scared i was like, 'score' Joshua : do you want me to? Jennifer: hell no Jennifer : eww i had my pentacle pendent in my mouth, that was stupid i nearly chocked it wouldn't have been good Joshua : no that wouldn't be good, don't do that i want to see you this weekend Jennifer s: i know same here. Jennifer : ^_^ yay! my display picture is so me!!!! wooohooo! i Joshua : yeah i like that one Joshua has signed out. (9/22/2008 7:42 PM) by the way with the display picture I stole the little icon from the layout But that's all I can think of right now my minds still going crazy dandi_andi=Thanks and orange juice is fantastic. Yeah but then agian Amy's 9 she doesn't know what she's talking about.[/color][color=666666]MagicPixieDust=AMW makes me feel less like a criminal. And I know i love my orange juice. [ /color]responder ==No guy matters but him.[/color][/bg] --65--yes i'm still an alcoholic**orange juice**AMW [bgcolor=80ff80][font=webdings]....................................[/font][/bgcolor]time: O2:55 | date: O9-21-O8 | entry: O65 [bgcolor=80ff80][font=webdings]....................................[/font][/bgcolor] [color=ff3e9e][font=courier new]girls rock it better[/font][/color] I watched Americas Most Wanted last night people on that show a are seriously screwed up how can anybody kill anybody or be crazy I don't know. Josh got me into watching it last night he said cops were on but by the time i switched the channel it was AMW so he and I sat texting about htaht ofrever. Talking about Josh it's going to be tomorrow when he and I meet up woohoo! I'm excited he's excited and my mind won't get off of that thought I was hoping that the interenet would keep my mind on something else but it don't seem to be happening. At home I wanted a veggie lasagna oh how stupid am I the box for the lagasna says to put the container in the micro for 14 minutes I do it and it burns. Our microwave is going out and i should have put it in for a shortere abount of time but I was stupid, so i had burnt dinner. I ate all i could that wasn't burnt. Then i had like something else i forgot what. Lately I've been wanting orange juice and orange juice with pulp. It's fantastic I am so in love with orange juice it has always been my favorite drink but never really with pulp you know. Today I saw a huge cricket on the way over here. It was cute. I like crickets, really they'r4e the only creepy like bug I like. Spiders, ants, bees, and worms are so gross. And yes I know people go, "But you don't seem all girly girl like," I am when it comes to bugs, hair and my nails. I don't mind burping, farting, getting dirty, or picking my nose. But I do like fashion and spending quality girl time. Marcus asked me today, "You still an alcoholic?" It was fuhny the only reason why he asked that was the other day Amy saw me drinking a wine cooler and thought because I was having a drink I was an alcoholic so she asked, "Jennifer are you an alcoholic?" It was priceless. [bgcolor=80ff80][font=webdings]....................................[/font][/bgcolor] [color=ff3e9e][font=courier new]girls rock it louder[/font][/color] watching: nothing listening to: nothing wearing: my black tinkerbell shirt (I love Tinkerbell), and my play boy jeans. eating: nothing drinking: nothing but I'm wishing I had Orange juice loving: life hating: perverts plans: nothing today mood: tired weather: nice and cool [bgcolor=80ff80][font=webdings]....................................[/font][/bgcolor] [color=ff3e9e][font=courier new]girls rock it harder[/font][/color] MagicPixieDust: Thanks. Yeah it really sucks haha! And I'm so happy I killed the spider my sister made me feel better that she made me kill it. responder: shoutout responder: shoutout responder: shoutout responder: shoutout responder: shoutout responder: shoutout responder: shoutout [bgcolor=80ff80][font=webdings]....................................[/font][/bgcolor] [color=ff3e9e][font=courier new]girls rock it faster[/font][/color] All_iwant_isyou, dandi_andi, dustysgurl4eva, JerzeeDevil73, KB_Lover, Lovely_LadyVL, MagicPixieDust, MetalManders, PrincessAlwayz, Shammy_486, stilettoADDICT [bgcolor=80ff80][font=webdings]....................................[/font][/bgcolor]©cookiez_n_kreem --64--Gotta get in school**Katie's 22**Killed a spider___________________________________________________________________________________ [font=webdings]gggggnggggggggcccggggggggg < gggg g gggg < gggggggggcccggggggggnggggg[/font]  =========================[font=courier new]Entry #064[/font][font=courier new]Yesterday was GED practice. I hate it, I need to finish with all my problems. I want to get an accredited at home high school diploma or a GED. I feel bad that I'v slipped in life and now I have to get back on the road to life. The reasons why I dropped out make sense though and I know it isn't my fault. I had my credits that didn't follow through when I transfered schools which pissed me off so I wouldn't get a college bound diploma, and then my mom was going for her brain surgery then, and finally I money issues and bipolar problems so it all was far too much for me to handle. Give or take I feel like a retard about it but life changes. I hope things go well for me and Josh but then I keep thinking. What the hell would happen if Dave contacts me what will I do then? Both are very important to me. I guess I'd have to find out when the time comes around. Last night I talked to Josh for awhile. He's so antsy but nervous about meeting me Monday, so I am. It's kind of scary to me, that I'm nervous and excited. But that happens. He and I didn't talk last night because he took Xanax that put him to sleep, and he didn't hear his alarm go off even. Did I meantion I got a dog tag in the mail the other day. I got it when I was still thinking of the name Polly Purebred. Like from Underdog at least it had the address on it, so I had to stick the studs through the collar so it stuck and mom started calling Baby, Polly she comes by it, I dont' know if I want ot stay with the name Polly, or Baby but Stephanie insists that she'll still call her Baby. I killed a spider today! For my first time really. We were leaving to come nextdoora and there was a scary spider (well all spiders are scary to me) on the screen to the double door where the ramp is, well I freaked out and Stephanie nearly killed it and told me, "You kill it because it will make you feel better." I did so. Today is my sister, well best friends birthday. She's 22, I've known her since before I was born. Really our moms met at the clinic they went to when they were pregnant and became friends. Katie has one son, Hunter Emmanuel, and now she's having a second son in October. I can't wait. Katie does live in Montana and has been for 7 years I miss her to death but yet we're still best friends you know. [/font] [font=webdings]gggggnggggggggcccggggggggg < gggg g gggg < gggggggggcccggggggggnggggg[/font] [font=courier new]Responders: dandi_andi : It happens, yeah at least it makes sense why I don't sleep there. dustysgurl4eva : Oh yeah it hurts it pissed me off. And it's fantastic that we're on the same page. My basement has lights just no windows which makes it dark. MagicPixieDust : Yeah i think it's because it was cheap hair dye. And it's fantastic that she hasn't been peeing anymore. 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[smallest][color=9f9f9f][font=verdana] I swear the last few days I have been accident prone. I went to walk home yesterday and a stick got stuck in my sandals I thought I could just you know shake it out, well the stick got stuck to my foot and cut it, i wasn't bleeding that bad but it still hurt. Last night I talked to Josh again. He's so nice he told me that he'd wait as long as I wanted for sex and he's looking for a long term relationship, so am I that makes me feel tons better. I'd like to spend a long time with him no matter how long it is. That's strange for me to say. I hardly ever say that. But that's cool. I made the worst mistake yesterday. I don't know where I thought yesterday was Wednesday but I swore it was so I was thinking, "Ghost Hunters," and "Mindfreak," that's until my mom goes to me, "Today's Thursday they don't come on today," oh I was pissed. So instead of watching TV i redyed my hair. It worked pretty good just that I need more color for the bottom one box didn't do it. I'm still blonde. I like blonde better than black, everybody who said I'd do better with blonde hair that black hair was right and I feel kind of stupid that I didn't believe them but you know I'm one that learns on my own first. As some may know I don't like sleeping in my bedroom. Why not? Simple it's in the basement where there's no light, so I don't know what time of day it is unless I look at a clock, and I hate being alone in the basement at night. I don't know why it's not like I'm afraid of the basement. Maybe it's the fear of being alone Mom and Uncle George had a go around last night. As you know my Aunt Cindy & Aunt Mary won't talk to my Uncle George and are fighting with each other about my grandparent's trust and what goes on. Well Uncle George goes to mom, "You know they're screwing you over want to go to the laywer to figure things out?" Mom says to Uncle George, "No, I don't want to start anything with anybody." I totally agree with her I wouldn't want to start anything either that's just the way I am. So they had a go around. As I'm typing there's a little jerky fly that won't leave me alone. I hate flies, I hate insects all together and he's bothering the hell out of me. Grrr! I played with Baby this morning. She's getting better hasn't peed in the house a lot anymore she did last night and does when it rains but other than that she's been good. Still a bit wild but we thikn that's the lab in here that's making her crazy. [/smallest] [bg=9f9f9f]__[font=symbol]©[/bg] [smallest][font=verdana] [color=ff8080]responders: cosasqueson: I know and I totally agree. And metals? I'm allergic to nickel so most jelwery like you said is unsafe it's unfair! Really it is [color=9f9f9f][font=wingdings]o__n[/color]_____[font=symbol][color=9f9f9f]©[/font]_____[color=9f9f9f][font=wingdings]n__o[/color] [color=ffff80]subscribers: All_iwant_isyou, dandi_andi, dustysgurl4eva, JerzeeDevil73, KB_Lover, Lovely_LadyVL, MagicPixieDust, MetalManders, PrincessAlwayz, Shammy_486, stilettoADDICT [/smallest] |
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