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[rimg=i13.tinypic.com/2iqonwn.jpg]entry | 52__[color=1fd873][font=wingdings]«[/font][/color]__mood | cold. and tired [font=symbol]©[/font]____I did something very smart last night I decided to write out an e-mail that I'm going to send to Brian but I want your guys opinion first before I send it. If anybody has any suggestions please let me know. The email: Hey baby. Theres been something on my mind. I know we havent been talking for a month and a half and it isnt either one of our faults. But honestly somethings been on my mind. I cant get you off of my mind every day and some times lately it hasnt been that good. Im just hoping this not talking for this long put a kink in our relationship. I hope we didnt like drift apart or whatever. If we didnt let me know what weekends are fine with you the next few weeks and we can get together. I miss you like hell. But I know we need to get together sooner or later or things will fall apart and I cant let that happen. Youre important in my life. I didnt expect that until after I didnt see you for this long. So there were points I was thinking about looking else where but then something grabbed a hold of me and said, Yo, Jen, you have Brian, and I heard the Crossfade song, Invincible if youve heard it I realized that song is totally my song right now, its basically how I feel about you right now. Its nuts. For once Ive wanted only one guy in my life and not wanting to look around thinking theres somebody else out there. Well you know you get it. I hope to talk to you soon. Rawr, Jennifer Other than that I talked to David for like an hour yesterday. He is so cool. He has his own theme song, so he was picking me out a theme song. One was an apple dumplings theme song, another was weird. I don't know why I all of a sudden need a theme song but if that's what he wants to do let him do it. He was pretty nice though. He made me smile. He's just a cool guy if Brian and I fall through I want David that's for sure. Rain's in heat again. She's rolling on the floor doing her typical in heat things. It drives me nuts. I'm about ready to kick her ass. I have to listen to her while i sleep. At least she was good last night I told her if she was quiet i'd give her treats in the morning. It actually worked. Another problem. My toy poodle Kipper, he's well he's trying to hump Baby. It bothers me not that she can get pregnant but the fact that Kipper is an old cranky dog. He can hump her but when it comes to her playing with him he growls and gets all mean. I yelled at him after he tried humping her and she thought he was playing. [bg=69bef7]I know people are going to call me wierd when I say this. I have an imaginary penis! Yes it was something Brian and I had a talk about awhile ago because he has imaginary boobies. I now every once in awhile tell guys my penis is bigger than their's. Haha! It's cool. Sorry for such a short entry but I'm tired. [/bg] [font=georgia]RESPONDERS[/font]__[color=8b8b8b]dandi_andi--thanks and it's no problem. It happens your a parent you have other things that are more important. [:)] Shammy_486--I know my room isn't that bad either and I thought mine was a mess. I guess we could still be friends but that happens. And about the seizures thing it's just the past years it's got bad. I was at my sisters concert last year and I had to cover my eyes half the time because of the strobe lights.[/color] [font=wingdings]«[/font] [font=georgia]SUBSCRIBERS[/font]__All_iwant_isyou, dandi_andi, dustysgurl4eva, JerzeeDevil73, KB_Lover, Lovely_LadyVL, MetalManders, PrincessAlwayz, Shammy_486, stilettoADDICT [bg=69bef7]http://my.kiwibox.com/journals/journal.asp?id=109522[color=black]©cnk[/bg] --51--enviromental control freak???!!![bgcolor=black][font=webdings] ggg gccg gncn ggg n |g|g|n|ggggcgcccggcg g gcc g ccg gg |n|<|g [/font] ###############################If you don't take a chance you don't have a chance. ggg gccg gncn ggg n |g|g|n|ggggcgcccggcg g gcc g ccg gg |n|<|g [/font][box align=right]Entry: 51 Mood: sick Time: 3:40 Subbies: 9 Weather: Sunny and windy Talking To: David Listening To: The Tv Yesterday's 1st Responder: Jerzee Devil This guy Chris came by yesterday. I wish i thought it thruogh before I invited him over he was 36, greying and so not my type of guy. So far a head of me you know. that went well. Another thing Joe, that one guy that keeps calling me won't flipping stop calling me. I ignore the phone calls and I don't want to tell him what I really think because if I do I know I'm going to sound like a total bitch. It's not my typoe of thing to do you know. I'm starting to miss Brian. I really need to go visit him before everything takes a turn for the worst you know. I don't know why on earth I'm afraid of letting things slip down hill with him but I am. Maybe because the last 3 years he was my friend and then if I breakup with him I'm not going to have him as a friend anymore. I do'nt want that. Anyways, I watched Applesead Ex-Manchina i think it was called. It was a good movie, very anime/cgi almost. It was really damn cool. I liked it. I fall for cartoon male characters. It's hard to explain this movie though. It's just awesome. I couldn't watch a lot of it because I'm photosentitive and can't see flashing lights without going into a seizure almost it's not a lot of fun to watch things where i shake and get really funny feeling. Oh I'm talking to this cute guy David he's so cute. He was talking about his roomate that he kicked out. Man you should see the room. It's horrible. I can handle some clutter but this shit is unbelievable then there's going to be a picture of dear david the room  the bed  David  Oh did i tell you that I'm pissed to day? I was reading the local paper and I'm a PETA member this little jerk whoever he is. Got into about oil drilling and is pissed off at the "enviromental control freaks like ACLU and PETA". I am not an enviromental control freak. Mom says not to get worried about it because it's not true but still it pisses me off. It was a typical boring sunday today. i don't know what else to say about that but its true. Oh last night was funny dad was sleeping on the love seat while me and Stephanie were watching home movies of when we were younger. Baby goes by dad stands up looks over him and I think licked his face, he's half way awake mumbling. It was far too funny I guess you'd have to be there to see it. And about home movies thet're so awesome. I was watching like my second or 3rd christmas. I was such a spoiled little girl. I got my McDonalds (you know the toy McDonalds Restuarant thing), PJ sparkles, wetsy betsy, a doctor kit, my toy oven, Mickey Mouse View master, and a ton of other siht. Well i'm off talk to you all laters. ###[font=wingdings]«[/font][font=monotype corsiva]Jennifer[font=webdings] ggg gccg gncn ggg n |g|g|n|ggggcgcccggcg g gcc g ccg gg |n|<|g [/font]dandi_andi: hah. and yeah cherishing sleep because you have children happens. thanks I hope to feel better too. And Long Qt's a heart problem where you have an irregular heartbeat mainly. JerzeeDevil73: they're just scary and i know she's very smart. Shammy_486: I so agree we need to take a look at ourselves as women and prove we're strong enough. And it doesn't really effect me that much since I'm on my beta blockers. All_iwant_isyou, dandi_andi, JerzeeDevil73, KB_Lover, Lovely_LadyVL, MetalManders, PrincessAlwayz, Shammy_486, stilettoADDICT [font=webdings]ggg gccg gncn ggg n |g|g|n|ggggcgcccggcg g gcc g ccg gg |n|<|g [/font]Image//Layout [color=#ffef06][font=wingdings]«[/font][/color] ©silversafpheir[font=verdana]SilverSafpheir[/font][/user] [font=webdings]ggg gccg gncn ggg n |g|g|n|ggggcgcccggcg g gcc g ccg gg |n|<|g [/font][/bgcolor]--50--why i wasn't born male//nightmare[bg=dim gray]
[font=webdings]< < < < < < < < < < < < < < |[/font][font=wingdings]«[/font][font=webdings]| < < < < < < < < < < < < < <[/font] [/bg]_____________________________________________________________________________________________[font=bradley hand itc]Welcome to My 50th Entry[/font] [font=courier new]time: 02:20===//===date: 09/06/08[/font] [font=webdings]< < < < < < < < < < < < < < |[/font][font=wingdings]«[/font][font=webdings]| < < < < < < < < < < < < < <[/font] [font=courier new]Does anybody ever wonder why they weren't born a man or if you're a man why you weren't born a woman? I've been really realizing that I'm happy I wasn't born a male. I'd be a complete asshole. I hate why women do what they do most of the time. You don't need to take 2 hours to get ready, and you don't need your boyfriend to buy you anything. I think most women are clingy, money hungry, needy bitches that need to settle down. I've learned that I can't possibly think a guy can buy me things. I need to know how to make my own money and get what I want. Okay enough of ranting that's just weird. I was going to possibly have a lunch date with my musician friend Joe today but...it happens that he had a gig tonight and didn't get sleep in 'forever' that figures. Poor Joe. I was really hoping to see him but if he's happier sleeping that's cool. I like sleeping too. The real reason why I haven't been writing? My fever. I can't seem to get rid of this fever I have. It's always something health wise with me. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I think I'm healthy enough than this comes along. I don't know whats wrong. [color=a0f050]Yesterday I went with mom and dad to the doctors. She had to go to the cardiologist for a follow up whatever. I'm still afraid of cardilogists from when I was younger. Well more like 13 or 14 I had to go to stupid cardiologists I have what they call http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=993[color=b0f040]Long QT Syndrome. [/link] It just scares me some how. We went to walmart yesterday to get food. I wanted an Asian Pear but mom wasn't going to pay $1.25 for one pear. That's fine i settled on peaches which ended up being sorrow. Damn! It was no fair! I wanted them! oh well. It's cool. But I did get some good things to eat. I can't remember all of what it is all i can remember is Cinnamon Life. Oh the crazy thing about yesterday. I was in the bedroom sleeping when next thing I know is baby's by the bed trying to attack, well play with Rain. I roll over and yell, "Mom who let Baby in?" I guess she actually learned to open the door herself. So I wasn't alone in the room. She's a very smart puppy.[/color] We went to the pet store yesterday as well. Aww, they had a cute little white puppy and all the rats were so cute. Mom had to lead me by the fish and if anybody know's I have a strange fear of fish I can't even look at them. It happened from the fact when I was younger and went swimming there was a muskee or whatever the big fish are dried up dead on the island we go to and it scared me half to death, and the fact that I had a goldfish my mom put on plastic after she died and just some deep down fear I can't explain it. There were some cute animals there. We had to go to get rat food since wal-mart don't sell it but I go to look at the animals that I know I can't take home. I had a nightmare last night.It was weird. I always wake up screaming when I have nightmares. It was about me being on this Rock American Idol show and we had to do a movie or whatever and then I was in a bus wreck and had to kill this chick who was already dead. Long ass story it's hard to explain really. 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[bgcolor=D4B687]You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you Help me I broke apart my insides, help me Ive got no soul to sell Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself [hr color=000069] [hr color=D4B687] I'm still a bit sick. That's why I haven't been on. I went to the after hours clinic/urgent care last night. I wasn't able to pee the last few days, running a fever and feeling like shit. The doctor said that she's sure I have a UTI, so that makes me feel better after my aunt told me, 'I think you have a kidney stone.' Thank god it was only a uti. And I'm still feeling horrible. I still have a fever and should sray home but I wanted to let youa ll konw that i'm not dead or anyhting close to it. After the clinic we went to wal-mart. They have Sims2 Apartment life out! Woohoo! I didn't have money (well never do) so my sister promised me next time she gets money we're buying it. I've been sleeping on the floor the last few days it's more comfortable on my back. But yet I relax and Baby's laying on me, licking me or something like that. She's a typical 4 month old dog. [:)] but in the bedroom I get Rain on me, "Murreow" and rubbing against me. I love it that animals love me but it drives me nuts that my life right now is devoted to Roxy, Saya, Baby, and Rain. I'm not ready to be a parent and to see these four pets of mine it's almost like that. Well for playing urbs. I maxed out all my skills so now i'm walking to the different places and getting all my missions done, well the job missions still sucky at the socializing part of the ggame. Lately I've been having a problem. The whole time I was sick this guy named Joe. Kept on calling me. He's pissed I didn't ansewer and he's telling me to break up with Brian for him. Truth is I'm debating on breaking up with Brian but I want nothing to do with Joe. He's not my type and my uncles won't accept him because he's Spanish. Racist family members suck. Oh my, this crazy thing happened one of my great friends from online was in Alanta the other day. Dave Tango and his dad were there, my friend ended up talking to Dave about me liking him (well sending my love his way). That's not good. I like this guy but would he actually like me? He's got star potential. Last night before falling a sleep I was watching My Redneck Wedding on CMT. Ugh, those people are idiots. I don't want a redneck wedding I'm sure but I don't want an expensive wedding either. If I ever do get married I'm thinking about a courthouse or chapel wedding then, have a huge reception. It's not my thing to pay a ton of money for something that only lasts a day. *Shrugs* that's the way I feel. Well we had to give Nikki dog back to my cousin. She ended up being full of fleas and we didn't want any of my other dogs to be infected. I feel bad we couldn't keep her and she's probably going to be a shelter dog. But, I have Baby and Kipper who can't get fleas it wouldn't be nice. Anyways I'm going I don't feel good. T2ul girls. xoxoxo [hr color=000069] [hr color=D4B687]I want to fuck you like an animal I want to feel you from the inside I want to fuck you like an animal My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to god You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everythi[b[ng Help me tear down my reason, help me its your sex I can smell Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else [hr color=000069] [hr color=D4B687] Shoutouts to people who responded dandi_andi : That sucks that they miss diagnosed your kidney stone as a UTI. Thanks about the thought about the love life thing. I think you're right. Shammy_486 : She's doing fantastic it's been almost a whole week with out accidents and she's getting cuter by the day. I need more pictures of her. yeah i guess it's better than smoking other than the fact it hurts and we don't know how to stop hurting ourself. I read that it could be self harm but i so disagree. List of subscribers All_iwant_isyou, dandi_andi, JerzeeDevil73, KB_Lover, Lovely_LadyVL, MetalManders, PrincessAlwayz, Shammy_486, stilettoADDICT [hr color=000069] [hr color=D4B687]I want to fuck you like an animal I want to feel you from the inside I want to fuck you like an animal My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to god Through every forest, above the trees Within my stomach, scraped off my knees I drink the honey inside your hive You are the reason I stay alive [hr color=000069] [hr color=D4B687][font=symbol]Ó[/font]kareemsbaby bad habit, and Nikki doggy![bg=#9F8A89]________________________________________________________________________________________________
[font=webdings]ggggggnggggcccggggggg g ggggg < gggggnggggg < g gggggggcccggggngggggg[/font]  [font=webdings]<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<[/font][color=E6B788]Entry: 048===== Date: 08/29/08===== Time: 03:24=====[/color] [font=webdings]<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<[/font] [font=webdings]ggggggnggggcccggggggg g ggggg < gggggnggggg < g gggggggcccggggngggggg[/font] I am totally sick now today. I thought I was fine and now something else happens. I hope it's not too personal for anybody but my lower stomach like my instestines hurt and I'm having blood in my urine and I"m runing a fever. They say vegetarian's have a great immuine system I don't know whats wrong with me then. I tried reading on Web MD and all I get is that I might have a Uninary Tract Infection or a list of other things. I'm scared half to death it's just not good you know . I'm getting back into Europop again. I kind of was thinking it was okay music, but now I'm back into the fun almost like on drugs kind of excitment these people have. I just wonder why us Americans don't have pop music like this, our pop music in my opinion is stupid, we all try to be like everybody else and that's what sells. They're setting thier own bounderies and making thier mark. That's why I never liked American Pop or anything Main Stream. These people are so cardboard cutout it's like pathetic. A few days ago I realized that I can't leave Brian and I love him so much. I had this guy calling me, and asking me to break up with Brian, because he wanted to date me. I was thinking about it, but then I heard the Crossfade song called Invinsable, if anybody had ever heard that song. It's very beautiful. Baby yesterday and today did fantastic, no accidents on the floor or anything. She's still a bit hyper. Which brings me to my next topic. My cousin is going through a divorce and is moving out of her house so that means, she has to get rid of her dog Nikki. Nikki has been my aunt's dog for like forever, Nikki was my first best dog friend ever. We used to go to the park together, play out side, play fetch with water bottles or frisbees. Anyways, I guess my cousin wants us to take care of Nikki for her. Mom said the money situation here is tight but if Kimmy (my cousin) provides food it won't be any problem. I think maybe Nikki can teach Baby something. Nikki's a beautiful shepard/rott mix. I love her and I'm so happy she'll be with us. I'm addicted to playing Urbz now. It's a Sims game for the PS2 where you get to have to follow the people around do jobs and all of that. It's a cool game, I was debating what ton if I was an urb that i'd belong in. I'm thinking I wouldnh't fit in at all though. Because my styles taken from every social strata almost. We had a power outage today. I was trying to take a nap and all i hear is a boom it sounded a lot like a gun you know. All I hear from the living room from Stephanie is, "The powers out." I guess a squirrel was on the power line which knocked a transformer started a fire and blew the transformer on the other end. We had no power for 2 hours. The neighbor kids wanted to burry the squirrel which was nice. Until they found another animal they fished out of the lake to burry my dad looked at him and said no. Kids shouldn't pick up dead animals they could be riddled with illnesses. Yesterday though dad was cleaning out my aunt and uncles house which my other aunt kicked them out of, and in the trash can they had a three layer rodent cage. Roxy and Saya got a new cage. They are so happy, I think it's better because they get air, Saya can climb and of course, they can take cheerios better (yes my girls are in love with cereal and cheerios). It was cute because we couldn't use the water bottle we used in the tank, Saya took a drink out of the bottle and looked at Roxy like, "This is our old bottle Roxy." It was so cute. I'm happy that they got a new cage. I do have another problem. I have a bad habit that I need to kick now. I bite my tongue, you know the taste buds off...well some of them. It usually happens when I don't evenr realize what I'm doing, and yes it hurts but it happens anyways. Anyways. That's my entry have fun girls. [font=webdings]ggggggnggggcccggggggg g ggggg < gggggnggggg < g gggggggcccggggngggggg[/font] Responders==========
JerzeeDevil73: Yes over a klondike bar that's my brother for you. And I can't wait I want the internet back so bad. And yes, old men are creepy. RainbowLesbian: Yeah, my family is funny most of the time. I kind of worried if we're messed up or something. I know, it's even tough being a dog parent. And about raising kids I see how that would come into play as well. [color=E6B788]stilettoADDICT:too young? I'm 22 [:P] and I know what you mean. I see a lot of young women thinking they can be mothers and it drives me nuts. It's just sad that this is what our world is coming to. [/color] Subscribers========== All_iwant_isyou, JerzeeDevil73, KB_Lover, Lovely_LadyVL, MetalManders, PrincessAlwayz, Shammy_486, stilettoADDICT [font=webdings]ggggggnggggcccggggggg g ggggg < gggggnggggg < g gggggggcccggggngggggg[/font] Layout: LayoutsByMe4You Image: Unknown[/bg] |
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