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I could
stay lost
in this moment
forever

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Stressing day just like yesterday. figures that's how things go with me.

We were deciding to move my bookshelf to the study. Mainly because where the shelf was by my bed everytime I got up I kicked a book off. Mom wasn't quite pleased because I almost halfassed everything. But it was alright. I understood my dad moved it up before even telling her and then it was crazy. I just didn't know I had so many books.

After all that we had to go to dads house to check his mail. I got another metal magazine. The nice thing about those is the fact that I can get two more free issues and the last one had a music CD in it with like 8 tracks and there's some Soulfly *cheers*

As I was in the store. Brian texted me and said, "Well on myspace I will let oyu know that I posted a new blog and when you read itll upset you but please just don't mind it ok." My mind went crazy I was thinking uh-oh what happened between him and I. I told him either if he was breaking up with me or he didn't love me any more that I wouldn't be upset. So he texted me the problem, "Ok here's the problem and don't be upset I've been in love with Britt for three years and know there's never gunna be anything between me and here. But I held it in for so long I had to get it off my chest. I want to be with you and if i didn't say anything i wouldn't be able to be happy with you." So in all hindsite i"m not that upset i know how that is. I'm the same with my best friend dan. It happens you know. Figures right? He's not breaking up with me he still loves me it's all good.

When I got home i needed to get out so I came here to my uncles nextdoor (since we don't have internet YET). I read his blog. i understand it totally. I'm not mad. But anyways. I'm actually doing a lot better now
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Well my subby asked a question about my ovarian cyst and i was debating if i wanted to just reply to her or not. But i decided since this site is primarily a women's site I thought it'd be better if I explained the whole thing to somebody so they don't question it.

How I found out. I had to go for my yearly pap smear. The doctor was checking my cervix and while she was pressing down on my right side. I had the worst pain ever. I mean I wanted to cry it hurt so bad. She looked at me and said, "I think you have an ovarian cyst on your right overy." Like the type of person I am. I freaked out, you know, but I did my research.

The typical symptoms are:
+Dull aching, or severe, sudden, and sharp pain or discomfort in the lower abdomen (one or both sides), +pelvis, vagina, lower back, or thighs; pain may be constant or intermittent -- this is the most common symptom
+Fullness, heaviness, pressure, swelling, or bloating in the abdomen
+Breast tenderness
+Pain during or shortly after beginning or end of menstrual period.
+Irregular periods, or abnormal uterine bleeding or spotting
+Change in frequency or ease of urination (such as inability to fully empty the bladder), or difficulty with bowel movements due to pressure on adjacent pelvic anatomy
+Weight gain
+Nausea or vomiting
+Fatigue
+Infertility
+Increased level of hair growth
+Increased facial hair or body hair

You know I'm reading the symptoms, and the thing was I had
1. Dull aching, or severe, sudden, and sharp pain or discomfort in the lower abdomen (one or both sides),
2. Fullness, heaviness, pressure, swelling, or bloating in the abdomen
3. Pain during or shortly after beginning or end of
Irregular periods, or abnormal uterine bleeding or spotting
4. Change in frequency or ease of urination (such as inability to fully empty the bladder), or difficulty with bowel movements due to pressure on adjacent pelvic anatomy
5. Weight gain
6. Fatigue
7. Infertility
8. Increased facial hair or body hair

You know most of the symptoms I had I thought most of the time were just normal. I thought because a few months before I stopped my birthcontrol and that's why I had my "female mustashe" which I have to bleech almost every two weeks, and painful periods. The painful periods I had i thought were just you know bad cramps. I mean sure I couldn't walk AT ALL and had to use a heating pad.

I went to the hospital for an internal ultrasound which with my cyst hurt like hell. I don't know why it has to hurt like that but it does.

A few weeks later I went back to the doctor which if anybody needs to know they put me on birth control for the fact I am for sure sexually active but secondarily to shrink my cyst to make sure It don't grow or anything like that. So she resceduled me for my second ultrasound in about 11 days from now. which sure i'm nervous but i think i'll be fine

Hopefully I answered any questions about my cyst.
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Hello everybody I'm not exactly new to this site at all. My last name (vampire_hottie1) was hacked into. Well sorta...I gave my computer away with all the passwords. So now I have a bunch of bullshit made up about me that was never true so i'll clarify what ones those were:

1. the me and Paul thing--first off he never existed. he was a cross dresser from my story a wrote a long time ago. where my best friend Serena (who used to be bj) became Paul god knows.
2. My pregancy thing--I never had children. I'm probably not going to for a long time.
3. Holly, and Andrea--yes they are my friends but those aren't thier profiles either.

That's what happens when you leave your computer to somebody else.

Any who I'll update everybody about me and re introduce my self. Okay i'll make it easy i'll copy from my profile information then i'll get on about my day and whatnot.

My name is Jennifer though i like to go by Brigid (pronounced Breed), or Elizabeth. I'm a very simple girl with very simple wants or needs. nothing too crazy you know.

My life revolves around music, writing, and the sims2. I'm never too far away from one of those three. If I am then i'm out at the store. I write way too much

At the moment i'm not single. I'm dating my good friend Brian which I love. Yes a little more than tinkerbell and happy bunny. Now how could that happen? But he's my world and he's on here

A few things about me. if you're homophobic, racist, or biased, afraid to be yourself or whatever.

Don't talk to me. I"m not afraid to be myself and i am not homophobic. I believe if we were all supposed to be the same, like the same things or whatever. That's just how i roll you know. I have many friends who are different

Be yourself be free, we're all different. Just remember that

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Okay about my day and life....
Today was a bunch of bullshit. I at least got everything fixed between me and my boyfriend Brian. He and i were having a bit of an argument the last few days because of my self harm issue. I gotten over that a year ago but was cloes to relapsing. I didn't want him to break up with me because of the fact I relapsed he doesn't want to deal with that shit (neither do i).

Anywho. My dad went to the hospital for his CT scan. All went well. So far. but it reminds me that a few more weeks and i go back for an intenal ultrasound about my ovarian cyst. that really suscks. Oh well.

I did have to fix my cousin's computer, sorta. They had to switch computers and the internet wasn't working. I never had to fix the cable with a telephone thing before so i didn't know they needed to be reset. Tech support is so much help.

But anywho that's how it's been.

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