pokinoi , 22

breakfast:
-1/2 can of pineapple
-1 and a half handfulls of unsalted peanuts

lunch/snack-o-rama:
-1 stick of mozarella part skim cheese
-1 apple

drinks:
-lots of water


Outtake:
-later

breakfast:
-a handfull of corn flakes.
-a can of coke zero (summer school)


lunch:
-3 slices of light veggie pizza :/
-a ton of watermelon
-a big ass thing of grape gsatorade g2 (100 calories for entire bottle)


dinner:
-1 turkey burger patty[w/ketchup] (9g of fat) :/
-1 bowl of corn flakes w/ 1% milk and 3 packets of splenda
[but i didn't eat the milk cause it's grody.]


outtake:
-hopefully i'll walk my fatass out of the house. (perhaps update later?)



current mood: 6:46p.m.
-headache, tired, frustrated

I feel like everything is caving inwards. I would not doubt it if I am having a nervous breakdown.
I hate leaving home, I can't look people in the eye when I talk to them, I'm always tired, I'm irritable, I get so nervous when I go to school. The list goes on.

I would rather kill myself, than have to go to school/work. I hate being there, and just want to go home and sleep.
This has been going on for too long, and I don't think I can handle this any more. I am so suicidal that I really am starting to get scared.

I rarely go to class, and I feel like there's nothing to look forward to. The though of flunking out just reflects how idiotic I am. I hate myself even more because of it.

Agh that's another thing. There is 0 motivation anymore. I have crying spells, and then I'm always crabby/irritable.
I think I'm losing it.