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Pissed off about my birthday.

08/12/09 3:05 pm

So I am kinda disappointed. Terence hasn't done ANYTHING for my birthday. It's not like it took him by surprise, everyone was talking about it. I was planning his birthday for TWO months! He didn't even need to get me a gift or anything... just a nice gesture would be great. Like, cook me breakfast or even just spend time with me. But yesterday he spent ALL DAY on the computer. And half the night too because his video game just came out w/ some contest and he doesn't understand why I don't give a fuck. As if his stupid ass video game doesn't already take up so much time... they threw a fucking contest in there too. Now he'll be hooked and my birthday has been long forgotten. He very rarely does anything special for me. If someone else doesn't plan it, it won't happen. Valentines Day - I pick the dinner or am the one cooking it. Christmas - his dad plans that. Thanksgiving - his mom family takes care of that. Now I guess I'm supposed to plan my own birthday shit too. He knows I'm not the romantic type or anything.. but why is making even the slightest effort so fucking hard for him? It doesn't take much to make me happy but he's just completely disregarded the whole thing.

Shoutouts. Finally an entry! Pics

08/07/09 10:08 pm

Hey girls! Happy August! Soo my birthday is in 3 days (Monday)... I don't really care though. 20 years old isn't very exciting... especially when everyone around me is turning 21 haha.

So Terence bought a car today. Well... I bought him a car. It's just a boring old Dodge Neon... nothing fancy... but it has low miles, winter tires, block heater, custom stereo, and it will work fine for him just getting to and from school this winter. I'm relieved I won't need to drop him off all the time. Also - it would be great to give my car a break! Poor thing has gotten SO many miles this last year. Anyway so yeah we went and saw the car last night and all the banks were closed so we couldn't buy it then. So since I have the day off and Terence doesn't I went to the bank and pulled out $3,100 cash to bring to him. Terence is paying me $2,500 back tonight or tomorrow. I'm throwing $600 into the car. It's worth it to have a relatively reliable 2nd car in case something happened to mine.

Anyway so I went to the Forever 21 last weekend but I didn't buy anything. I was actually hungover that day and since it just opened, the line was long so we just left. I haven't gotten a chance to go back yet, and I already spent $600 this weekend so I'll try to keep my spending to a minimum for awhile.

I'm thinking about ordering a Spongebob shower curtain. I know.. random... strange... whatever. I really love Spongebob. He makes me happy. I know Terence will hate it but... I mean we aren't going to get a house for at least 2 more years. Why not have a fun bright Spongebob-y bathroom!?? Lol... besides the rest of our apartment is all mature and everything. We hardly have people over. So yup... I'm probably gonna get it. It might be considered tacky and childish but oh well!! I'm ONLY 19... ;-)

Terence has been really bossy lately. I'm not sure what's up with that but I've had to call him out about it more than I ever had. I'm hoping since we got the car and all... that he's less stressed and less a fucking dick.

I'm glad I finally wrote an entry! I might be buying an iPod Touch or whatever since it goes on the internet. I'm going to borrow my sister's to see if it would work at my job or not first. The only reason why I'm so inconsistent now is because my work blocked Kiwibox.

Anyway I'm gonna make some chicken noodle soup and hangout with my cats for a little while. I kind of have a headache today so I'm going to chill out, drink more water, and take some medicine so I'll be feeling fine when Terence gets home.

Oh and also I have caught up on all your entries!

Sugar_xxx - your dog is sooo freaking cute!
a_pretty_girl - I liked those summer jam pictures... and your new apartment!
HershyKiss111 - That's really weird about your friend and his preggo g/f. Mostly just weird that they kept lying about it... oh and Chris dances JUST like Terence! Its pretty hilarious

Some pics

This is one of my younger sisters, Halie. How gorgeous, right?!

Terence and me last winter

Me at the end of the rainbow. The camera made it look a lot lighter than it was outside.

Myspace. Update. Work. Parties. Etc.

07/25/09 7:44 pm

Hey guys, it's been a while again. Last weekend Terence and I went to his friend Megan's 19th birthday party at her place. It was pretty fun, minus being around one girl. I think I've mentioned her before... her name is Kristin. She tried to steal Terence away sometime last year so it was kinda awkward. Anyway she was acting like a total slut the entire time. Rubbing against her new bf in the corner, wearing a skin tight mini-dress that kept going up while she "danced" and showing ALL of her... blah. Nasty. I think most of it was a show because Terence and I were there but what the fuck ever. Anyone who thinks they need to act like that is pretty pathetic, that's for sure.

So work has been boring. But Wednesday I got off at like 3 (usually I don't get off until 6!!) so I went and got my hair done. I got a few high lights in the front for like $30! Today Terence came home from work being a total fucking ass so I left for a few hours. I went to the mall w/ my sister Halie. We were hoping that the Forever 21 would be open, but it hasn't opened yet. I don't think I've mentioned that yet, but we're FINALLY getting a Forever 21 here! We've never had one in Alaska so I'm way stoked!!

Oh I watched the new Harry Potter movie last weekend. I wasn't very thrilled. It was definitely just a filler movie. You know, something you had to watch before the last one.

Anywaaaays that's my update! Oh, feel free to add my Myspace. I'm on there a lot more often than this.
www.myspace.com/rachel_yooo

p.s. Oh have you guys seen that advertisement on Myspace and Kiwibox? It's like Jen's stomach flattener or something and it has some brunette girl with "before and after" photos for weight loss? Well what's so funny is the "after" girl is actually this girl named Hope who lives up here in Alaska. (The one w/ the white shirt, brown hair) I just thought that was really funny that they whoever is in charge of those advertisements like stole her picture and used it.

Irritating mother. Pictures.

07/12/09 8:25 pm

It always amazes me how easily my mom can just call up and ruin my day. I haven't even been awake 30 minutes and I'm pissed off. So she calls me once every 20 minutes until I answer, then when I call her back 15 minutes ago she tells me to go pick her and Halie (my sister) up at her hotel and take them to Allen's (stepdad) house, then says that we can have lunch and do this and that. I say "Well mom, I kind of just wanted to stay home today. I have a lot of laundry to do." She goes "Fine, we'll just take a taxi." I said, "No, I can drive you but-" I got cut off with a "No." and she hung up on me. Apparently I'm her fucking on-call chauffeur whenever she's in town and I need to drop everything and cater to her. I spent all yesterday cleaning the apartment, doing laundry, we went and bought a bunch of groceries, I rented this movie The Tenth Kingdom which is 3 discs long so I can RELAX today before I have to go back to work tomorrow. But I guess that's blasphemy since I didn't leap when she told me to. Anyway, whatever. Here are a couple newer pictures.

Terence going on 48 hours w/ no sleep... me making him take a picture. Lol

Sage and me

Kitty and me

Edit- So I just finished reading all of the entries in the last two-three weeks that I'm subscribed to. I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm trying to keep up even though I'm not on here as much as I used to be lol!

Still alive. Margarita and stress. Pictures too.

06/26/09 11:42 pm

So I'm just not all that into Kiwibox anymore I guess. It's been a while since I last wrote and every time I consider making an entry I change my mind. It feels like a chore now lol. I never want to have to get on the computer when I'm not working. It takes a lot of extra will-power to get on to even just check my e-mail, much less sit down and try to conjure up something to write about...
Anyway.

Terence and I made margaritas last night. I didn't like them though I made it accordingly... so I put some mojito mix in mine and it tasted better. I have a low tolerance for the taste of hard alcohol in mix/blended drinks. It either has to be super fruity w/ hardly any alcohol or I won't drink it. Which is why I'm just more of a beer or straight shots kind of girl. I don't know what it is about mixing it with fruit flavored shit though, I usually just don't like it. Terence is heading down to Kenai on Sunday evening around 5 to stay the night there for work. But he'll be back by Monday evening so it's alright I guess. I'll probably end up having dinner with my old high school friend Autumn... who I haven't hungout with in years. I only have to work 3 days next week - yay!

I've been really anxious and irritated lately. It embarrasses me to explain why... but I want to get engaged. I almost feel ashamed bringing it up to Terence. Like I'm trying becoming "that" girlfriend or something. I feel like even mentioning will pressuring him or something so I haven't been saying anything. It's just frustrating... we've been together for 4 years and neither of us want to get married until after he graduates and starts working but it's like he wants to wait all that time to get engaged too. In like 4 more years. It's not that I want to get married as SOON as he graduates or anything but... I don't know I can't explain. I'm honestly not sure even why all of a sudden being engaged is so important to me? I guess I just want to move forward. I've been trying to be patient... I've been trying not to really bring it up because I don't want to pressure him. Ugh. I suppose I'll just need to get the fuck over it.

Here's some pics...