robbyb5150 , 31

Well last night the group went out for the first time this year and it was a riot. Too many things to put down on here; different "plots" with the 3 different couples of the night. First I got to Dennys about 11pm to meet Michele, Jeff & Marie where Michele somehow comes up with having three blonde moments in about 2 minutes as she can't beat Jeff in tic-tac-toe. How pathetic is that!? As obviously everyone knows, no one should EVER win at that game. It should always be a draw. But of course Michele proceeds to change the laws of physics and lose the game not one, not two, but THREE freakin times in a row. She always ceases to amaze and she did that last night with that episode of human excellence at its best. After there we went to bowling and met up with John, Jenna and Kevin and needless to say it was a roller coaster of a time there. First off I'll start with my bowling. Not having bowled in four months, I proceeded to miss 4 spares the first game which would have given me about a 200, but whatever. The second game I couldn't miss and had 10 strikes and 2 spares which could have been strikes. I bowled a 267 which even with my high standards I was doing cartwheels over. The 3rd and 4th games werent quite as good (around 200) but I got tired (since I did work yesterday as well) and finished with I think 795 or 805 for four games which is right around my average. Now secondly to Michele and Kev. I seriously do think these two could go out in the future as a couple (depending on if Kevins friend Amy is more than a friend to him). But of course Michele doesn't think so; she said they "may go out again but she's not sure." Now Michele normally the guys you take out with the group we personally don't want you to go out with, and you can't get enough of them. This guy we all agreed that he's decent and could become more than a friend in the future and of course you come out and say that there may not even be a real formal date between the two of you. I just shake my head at this. I don't think I'll ever figure her out (well shes a girl and I'm a guy and normally we can't figure the others sex out so I guess this is normal). Thirdly to John & Jen. All hell broke loose after Jenna started talking with Jeff and John just basically blew his lid and got pissed off at her. I really think these two could have a good long term relationship if there was some trust on either side. John needs to accept the fact that she is going to talk with other guys and that she will come back to him. If she didn't love him, she wouldn't keep coming back in the first place. He needs to let her have some freedom with this whole relationship and let her be with her other friends if she chooses. If he keeps this up she definitely will leave (if she hasn't left already). Then when I'm about to head home I see them in the parking lot; Jenna gets out of John's truck and heads inside; he parks the truck and heads inside after her and from what Marie told me this morning they're gonna break it off. I really hope they don't but if not it honestly wouldn't surprise me. You would think that after going out for 5 months there'd be some sort of trust on either side but obviously there is none. I don't know who to blame for this; it's probably 50-50 but even though Marie talked with Jenna and got some of her side of the story, I'd like to talk w/her and see what she says, then go to John, talk w/him and get his take and come up with a conclusion. I don't wanna be throwing around stuff on here and saying yes this is it when I honestly don't have a clue on what they're thinking inside. So for now, they've broken things off but I think after a couple days and they can get their feelings and thoughts together I truly believe they can work this out. Now for the fourth item: Marie and Jeff. From what I can see, everything is still on the up and up and that's all I care about. Jeff really does need to stop drinking like he did last night. He is seriously going to hurt himself (and/or a lot of other people) if he keeps this up and possibly drives after doing it. Fortnuately he didn't drive himself home last night but I do worry and care about him and don't want to see anything happen to him. He and Marie have put a lot of emotion and work into this relationship (ok Marie has a lot more on the work side) and I don't want to see the two of them be separated. I don't know what Marie would do; nor do I want to think about it. I just hope that for all the fun they seemed to have last night, they can keep that up for a long time and see this relationship go to the next level. Whew that was a lot and I'm sure I could write more if I sat here and think about it. But to sum it up; it was a very good night out and I think the group won't wait another 2 months to go out again, which is a very good thing! til next time......

RB

Ok I know I haven't posted an entry in almost 2 weeks, but I've had no motivation to put one up and quite frankly, I've been pretty busy. A trip to Vermont, out with friends for dinner a few nights and a party yesterday have sapped my time and energy the past couple weeks, although it's totally worth it every time. Today I really felt bad for Marie. She got denied by her dream medical school and I know she's not sure what direction the next year could bring her if she doesn't get accepted anywhere. Knowing her, she'll come through and get accepeted to a college that she'll really like and go there and do very well, butu I know she'll tell me that's a pretty optimistic outlook right now. But today she went shopping with me and did a fabulous job hauling the cart around and putting our pop bottles into the return. I think she needed out of her house, and even though I know she'd rather be with Jeff, it was nice having her here even it was just a couple of hours. I just feel awkward in a way around her lately; I don't know what to talk about w/her (there's only so much P&P and ManU her and myself can put up with, and the situation with Jeff normally stays the same, although I like to know what's going on so I can help her if need be). I know that lately I've been around my train buddies so much that I feel that it's strained our friendship a little bit. The group hasn't gone out since new year's, and I haven't seen Jeff since the chorale concert and I want that to change very soon although Marie is the heart of our group and I don't want to push anything without her opinion first. We talked last year about doing all these things together since everyone will probably be split apart by the end of this year and hopefully in the next couple of months we can accomplish some of that. I know one of those things was tubing in Orchard Park at chesnut ridge. Well now that they've got over a foot of snow down there, maybe we can do that on a Saturday where Marie isn't working and Jeff can come. Maybe I'm being too optimistic and pushy here but I want to do all of this stuff when we can, because if we don't, we're gonna regret it. But first off, I need to step up and really help Marie emotionally and mentally right now. I know she's shattered with her med school apps and I need to be there for her. I know everything will work out for the best for her, but right now I don't think she thinks that'll happen. So we'll end this entry on that note and hopefully in the next entry I'll be feeling better about myself being a better friend to others. Til then.....

RB

P.S. the colors for today's entry is for the Pittsburgh Steelers, who fortnuately won the Super Bowl last night. :-)

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Ok no entry in 8 days means it's time for one. Really haven't had the time to put one up lately. I've been busy with work, being sick, out with friends or practicing with the new camera. I'm just looking forward to this weekend. Three whole days (at least) out of here with 4 of my friends and my brother. We're leaving for Albany on Friday and staying at our friends house in Troy. Then we're heading to Springfield, MA for the biggest train show in the east (the size of this show is about 5x the size of the Agricenter in Hamburg) and will probably take 3-4 hrs at the very least to go through. I'm only taking a couple hundred dollars or so to spend and most of that is for Mike with his models and such. I have pretty much everything I want; most of the books on my wishlist and same with the dvds although I could stand to buy a few more. But I'm just looking forward to railfanning in MA and Vermont (and probably around Albany) this weekend and get some more practice with the new camera. I'm in love with this thing; wish I could be trackside 24/7 just shooting pictures all day. It's the only form of art that I do well at. It's my way of expressing myself; what you see in my pictures is how I feel or can just see the shot. It's not something you can learn; either you have it or you don't and most guys tell me that I do. Someone may have a picture at a specific location and I'll take a picture there and no one knows where it is because I spice it up, either in the way it's shot or a different angle I use or the time of day it is. That's what I love about it though; I can express myself so well that way where as most of the time I can't. It's also a stress relief; gets me away from everything at home and can just enjoy myself. When I can share that time and feelings with others is when I'm the happiest. But anyway enough of my rambling; I'm heading into the shower then heading off to bed. I'm tired from the last 2 days; just getting over from being sick doesn't help either and I got to be in good shape for Friday. Hopefully I'll have time to post an entry tomorrow; if not then it won't be til I get back either Sunday night or Monday. But til next time....

RB

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Needless to say, the title for today just sums up my day. I was swimming in mail (well tripping over it in the truck at least). I haven't seen that much mail since I left GI, and that was 3 years ago next week. It was just absolute hell today. Then on top of it, they give me an extra half hour to deliver (on my old route near my house) because some pussy went home sick because they probably didn't feel like delivering all of what they had, so about 6 of us got stuck delivering it instead. A pain in the ass yes, but more money in my pocket next week, when I need it the most. Hopefully tomorrow is better although it may snow which would suck but oh well, it's not like I haven't done it before. But the rest of today has been a blur; got home bout 4:50, watched a little on the tube, made dinner, talked with Marie, fooled around on here and now I'm here doing this. **off topic->** Marie before I forget, can you send me the code for the man utd layout you made? I need to put it on here one of these days so I can have something more than just this bland thing. Ok back to what I was saying....I am tired and ready for bed but need to take a shower first. Hopefully tomorrow's mail won't be as bad; I'll be on a different route (in the city close to the office) which gets less mail then the route I was on today does so I'm crossing my fingers for a decent day tomorrow. Also it looks like I'll have Thursday off which splits the week in half perfectly. I have a couple things to do on Thursday so I'd better get it off! Speaking of days off, tomorrow I should know if I have the 30th and 31st off; that's the Monday & Tuesday after my scheduled weekend off. If I get them off, I should be good to go for the train show in Mass. next week with Richie, Luke & Don. **fingers crossed again** Four days away will be nice indeed; and I won't even be driving which makes it 10 times better! But until I know that I have it off, it's only wishful thinking. Well I'm off to go play in the shower (and no not that kind of playing that I'm sure you're thinking of) so until next time.......

RB

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As the title says, today has been pretty boring. Just been at home all day watching a little football and playing games on the computer. At least I was able to sleep in today; I slept til almost 11:00. I was exhausted last night too; I fell asleep on the couch about 2:30am, and woke up at 5:45 and finally went to bed lol. I needed to sleep good, and a lot too. My body is just worn down from being so busy the last few weeks that I need a couple days off to catch up, so in that respect today has been nice. Also having tomorrow off doesn't hurt either! I don't know what I'll do tomorrow; maybe go out to Don's to help him with this bring project he's doing with his pictures, but if he gets called for work, I'll probably just bum it here at home. I need to vacuum my room (since I haven't done it since I gained all that space in the one corner from moving everything!) and dust and clean so maybe I'll be productive tomorrow. Then again maybe not, who knows!? I just need to rest til I feel energized again. I'm not the energizer bunny you know; I can't keep going, and going, and going! I need a few days off, and I might get it in 2 weeks, if I know I'll get my weekend off. I'm gonna try to take the monday and tuesday after my weekend off to go to Massachusetts with Don and Rich for a train show in Springfield, MA (where Mike and I were in October) and meet up with a few guys we know. It's the biggest train show all year in the northeast and I've talked about going up there the last 3 years or so and haven't done it so maybe this time I'll get that done. 4 days off would be nice, and I could just enjoy myself up there since I wouldn't be driving (woo hoo!) and we'd have free lodging at our one friends house in Albany. But still, I have to get the days off so I can go. We'll see on Tuesday or Wednesday if I get em! But for now, I'm gonna head off and go relax in the living room so til next time.......

RB