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HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO ME.

I haven't updated in a really really long time
I'm sorry.
I kinda forgot.

Zaida's big now :)

Well I'll probably update later.

Birthday wishes?

Pee ess ;;
I'm seeing someone.. who isn't anthony.. and we're NOT in love :)
so theres no heart ache here lol

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If you read in October, I found out I had abnormal cells and I had to get a celpo done to make sure it wasn't horrible. Well I got retested on Friday and I have to sit and wait for results. If I don't hear anything in two weeks, I'm fine, if I do, I have to go in and be checked out again with a big microscope.

Good luck to me.


Zaida's doing perfect. She's riding a fake weiner dog we have :D soo cute.



SERIOUSLY we have to do the double click box again?
WTF? WHY?

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Posted Pictures in the last entry :)

A lot of people asked why she was on oxygen/in an incubator. Well I'll tell you why. She was born with TTN. Click it to find out what it is exactly, but I'll tell you it's pretty much wet lungs. She was born with in 5 hours of my first contraction. I had 3 contractions 20 minutes apart, then all of a sudden they were 10, then 7, then 6. Doctor said to wait until 3-5 minutes apart, so after about an hour at 6 minutes apart, I started having contractions 2 minutes apart. There really was no slow down from 6 to 2 minutes apart. When I go to the hospital, they quickly became 1.5 minutes apart and stronger and stronger. It sucked lol. I did it WITHOUT an epi. I had nobain or whatever it was called so I could answer questions because I was having too many contractions while they were trying to get my history. It took 4 sets of contractions and pushings to get her out. :) It was nice. The first thing I said was "ew" when I saw her. lol. She was bright purple.. it was so gross lol. Buttt anyway, she was in the incubator because the TTN made her lungs wet and she was breathing too fast. They shipped her to Akron Childrens Hospital here in Ohio, because she started to turn blue. By the time they got her to Akron she was stable though. Which is a good thing. She had to spend 3 days in Akron, even Easter. It was sad. She was born, I held her for about 5 minutes, they took her from me, and then I didn't get to hold her again until 11 AM the next day... Remember she was born at 2:49PM the day before... that was a looooong time.

Anthony WAS in the room. I called him about 5 minutes before I started pushing, well I texted him because calling would have been next to impossible. My mom was also in the room. After Zaida came out, Anthony cut the cord. It was so nice for us to be together as this fake family since him and I hadn't been getting along very well. But I knew it was only temporary.

Anthony and I are fighting almost everyday... Which I don't mind, I ignore him usually :) He's only seen her 6 times and she's 32 days old. That's mostly my fault, I rather not have him around.
He's refusing to pay for the hospital bill, which so far is over 15,000 because the helicopter ride to Akron was rreally really expensive. I'm okay with that, I don't need his money, but if he's not going to help, he's not going to support her, then he's not going to see her. He can't quiet wrap his stupid head around that yet. He will eventually, when he leaves her like he did his other kids. Which I brought up today and he said "Fuck you" 5 times, then I said "Ok Anthony" He felt the need to say "No. No No No. I'll NEVER Fuck you again." I said "I said that a long time ago buddy." :) RIGHT ASHLEY?

But I've been talking to my friend Billy McClay. He's being really nice and supportive of the whole situation. He hasn't met Zaida yet, it's been cold and he has had to work and been really busy. So Soon enough :)

Well That's it.

If you have any more questions feel free to ask and I'll asnwer them.

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Here are here pictures.
She's 4 weeks old today :)



My moms holding her -
See that black person behind her? THERE WAS NO BLACK PERSON IN THE ROOM AT ALL!!! That person also looks tiny tinyy.. WEIRD ADN CREEPY

Look no black person.. weird.




My hands.


Not a happy baby.


Anthony and I both holding her hands


Hungry hungry baby.

Look at her IV :(

Blurrry

So Hungry she's got to eat her fingers

My sister, the new aunt, holding her.

First time holding her after 15 hours of not being able to :(

HEr eyes were open :) At Akron Childresn Hospital







Her and her duck binkie :) (5 days old)







first Bath



Puked in her bath ehhehe

After her first bath.

Fake mustache haha






I was singing to her in spanish to stop her from crying.

Newest picture.


I'll explain why shes in an incubator later.