Ive had this piece of writing I have been working on for years now. It started after a nightmare date and I was so frustrated I came home and wrote and wrote and wrote. I ended up leaving it on the counter by accident as I headed out the door to my retail job. I got home to my mom asking what I did to dad. Turns out he had gotten his hands on the paper and read it.

He cried.

So I have been working on and off. Ultimately I would love to publish my life story...but have never really been totally happy with it.

Until now.

When last week I had gotten some bit of inspiration as I rode the metro home on afternoon. And it seems as though everything may have changed and I am in fact really really excited at the way its going...

Now if only I could kick myself in the ass enough to actually complete it and get the nerve to send it off...

Maybe it will actually turn into the next big thing.

Maybe.

had a talk with my financing professor last night. it went. iffy. he said he knew i was trying and how could he fail someone that was trying. that being said he also thought this was well over my head and i probably shouldn't even be in the class. surprise surprise. he then said maybe i should get tested, to see where i should go. like if i wanted to be in another class what level should i be in. i told him i didnt think so. after this class i am done with math. and not thinking about it again. yes i know i am terrible at it. so be it. but i dont have to take another class regarding the subject. so yeah.

it still. kind of hurt that he told me that. even after i laid my heart out and told him about high shool and all. and how i knew i wasnt the greatest at math but my bosses wanted me to take it and all.

he did say he would not fail me, and that just to try and hopefully i will do great on the group project and if i didnt have a good group to either do it on my own or get another group. yeah with three weeks until its due, that is so not happening. nor do i have the time to do it on my own. so i said i would stick it out with my group and see what happened from there.

all i need is to get through. i am not asking for an A. Or even a B...

I just need to pass.

I dont know why I came on here. Curosity killed the kitty.  Looks like entries are here but it is extremely weird, don't really understand any of it..Is this the way it is to be? I wonder? Shall I stay an attempt this whole mess or leave now. Who knows. I shall put my baby toe in and test it...But the whole thing, is so damn confusing.

So lets see how much this sucks.

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