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  • 10/02/09 5:13 pm
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2374: its funny how life can take new meaning

  • 10/01/09 5:31 pm
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date October.1.2009 // entry 2374

welcome to october!

man i cant believe we are already here. the beginning of another month, two months shy of it being the end of another year. really where does the time go anymore?

and it has dropped majorly temperature wise. i wrapped myself up in a coat and stood outside waiting for the train to get me i was just like ooo crap. what happened to summer. wasnt it just last week?

it reminding me i need to pull out my sweaters and forgo my t shirts for another six months. while i love sweaters and all the thought of it getting into the sort of cold nasty weather i dread. isnt such a lovely happy thought to me.

but i do love october. its probably one of my favorite months of the year. the colors, the smells. the holidays. everything. its just gorgeous. and ah...

not to mention it indicates my halfway through another sememster point. and really who wouldn't like that thought?

and today, brings another thing. the beginning of hockey season. which means i am officially a hockey widow. until june. i joke about this. its not that bad at times but at other times i just want to see my husband. though now i have logan and i will be able to spend all that time with him....

just me and my guy.

it being opening night, we are away. up in boston, ill have to see if andy can keep me posted on the score throughout class.

i would have skipped if i didn't have homework to turn in...that and if i wasn't so damn lost in the subject.

i really dont have a lot to talk about today.
can we tell.

i managed to finish my homework. i got an email from the professor who told me the answers where posted. so i checked. i didnt do to bad actually, a few i missed so i corrected and all. and am good to go. now watch, he won't even for it to be turned it. i mean we are adults after all, and its just so typical....

but i did it.
without any help.

thank you very much.

im tired. logan got us up again last night. and while andy went to change him, i went to make a bottle, when he came down i asked if he needed anything and he said, yes. more sleep. i volunteered to take logan at that point. he said no. its ok.

so i went back up. but i am sure he is going to bitch about it tonight how tired he is and blah blah blah. but you know i didnt have to offer at all. but thats just typical of him.

i am sure you think i dont love him. but believe me i do. i count myself lucky i have met such a man, who would be willing to do most anything to make me happy, including talking about leaving his job in order to find a better paying one. he know i would love to stay home with logan and all. he knows i would love to work closer to home. so he would if i asked him to even though i won't have this, if thats what it came to he would.

so yes i am really fortunate.

now if only i could be as fortunate and win the lottery.

it may not solve all problems, but it would at least help..

-aleisha

[bgcolor=darkorange][color=saddlebrown] AWA_IN_NJ, doomed_dreams, x_anyotherway_x[/bgcolor]

2373

  • 10/01/09 1:46 am
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[font=lucida handwriting][color=white]So close to reaching[/font]

stayed home today. two reasons. last night my stomach was in knots. it hurt so bad. went to bed, not thinking to much about it. woke up it was still a little weird. so i stayed home. i played it safe. besides i figured a mental day would help. i had my financing class so yeah.

of course i hit a stump on my work. called mom told her i could watch logan since i was feeling better.i started crying for some reason, just because i was trying to do my homework and didnt understand. wasn't feeling the greatest and because i felt guilty since i was at home and logan was with my mom. i didnt and dont want anyone thinking i am taking advantage of them, so i offered to take him back.

she of course told me i was being silly crying and all. because i needed to get myself under control. i dont really know why i was crying. it just sort of came. really it did. i feel bad about it. i even cried on burgandy. which was horrible. again i dont know why i did.

she then said that hillary and her boyfriend could help with the homework since chuck was an accounting major. plus she said that hillary could at least help watch him.

great i think i packed up and headed down. of course, chuck never showed. and hillary couldnt help. instead she 'cleaned her room'. she took a shower before he came over. and so on. he never showed of course.

i should have know. i had asked him a few weeks ago, and he told me that he didnt know if he could since he had been out for so long. which is why i hadnt asked in the first place. but mom was instant on me ask.

truthfully i think hillary just wanted me to bring her lunch. which i did. and she got what she wanted so why would i get what i wanted out of her?

i did manage to do it, while watching logan and all. i cant say its right. but i did it.

i also emailed my professor in hopes to meet with him tomorrow and get help on it.

hey i am trying here. really really trying.

and now i am watching glee, and trying to wind down....

[font=lucida handwriting][color=white]that famous happy ending [/font]

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2372: lots...

  • 09/29/09 5:29 pm
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September.29.2009

i am exhausted.

logan decided to start wailing last night in the middle of the night. andy went and got him, put back on the covers then hit the bathroom up. logan still fussed so i got up, and checked. by the time i got to the room, he was out. i went back to bed. ten minutes later he is back at it, so its andy this go around i ask him if there is anything i can do while he is changing him, he asked for me to make a bottle. i did.he said thanks, i grabbed a glass of water and headed back to bed. ten minutes later i hear this huge.

'fuck.'

i go to the stairs, ask him what he needs. he says help. im like ok, with what, do you need me to get you something. and he says i need help down here. i rush down the stairs. and he is like he puked all over me, and the seat. im covered in it and all you can do is just stand there. get me something to dry off. which was what i was asking him upstairs, if he needed towels or anything. but he was just really shitty to me, going off and saying stuff how i just need to clean him up and what not. i hand him some papertowels and head over to take care of logan who is at this point happy as a clam playing on the floor with a chewy toy. i change him once more. and andy is just mouthing off.

i put him back down to bed. i crawl in myself and throw the covers over me. upset at andy. because im sorry. but he literally went off on me. and he was just rude. and i am sitting there thinking, i can't use my right hand. when i am alone with logan i cant and i dont have help and all...and he was just acting as if the world was going to end because his son spit up on him....

babies tend to do this.

i didnt mind helping. i didnt mind taking care of my son. it was just more or less the whole treating me like shit part that i didn't agree with...and yes i know he was tired. i was tired to. but still. i dont think it justifies anything.

thats just me.

on a better note, i landed a C on my first quiz in communications. and somehow i just got 100 out of 100 on my financing homework assessment. though don't ask me what i did. because i am pretty sure i guessed on a few of them.

but whatever. a 100% is still 100% no matter what.
score one for me!

-Aleisha


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2371: in a pissy sort of mood.

  • 09/28/09 5:06 pm

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date[color=#dbd09a] 9.28.2009


[font=lucida handwriting][color=white]'A young lady's most natural ally is her sister.'[/color][/font]

[color=white]i have miley cyrus's party in the usa stuck in my head. which is weird since i am not a miley fan.

at all.

moving on.

it has been a long time since i have mentioned, written or even talked about hillary. my little sis. for awhile, it was because mom gave me this talk about how i need to be careful with what i post, and stuff like that. and in a lot of ways i just said whatever. im over all the bullshit and the drama of it all. so i have stayed rather quiet. but after this morning. well. i need to get it out.

so i was over at my rents pretty much the entire weekend. i had a paper to write, andy was gone working hockey stuff so i needed help with logan. plus i am not one to sit from eight in the morning til ten at night by myself. so mom and dad told me to come on over and they would help. not do it. but help if i needed it. so i did.

it was hillarys weekend with the boys. but since gregory, her youngest was sick, he stayed home with joe (hills ex husband, gregorys dad) and hillary got to keep randin (hills oldest). but hillary, had to work on saturday which was no big deal mom said she would watch randin for her. hill lives with my parents, along with randin. yes the boys are seperated. so mom and dad watch ran ran until hill comes in on saturday night. she leaves early for the hockey game on sunday. she got the tix from andy. mom and dad once again watch randin.

she decides to not come home until eleven o'clock at night last night. not asking my parents about it just telling them that they were going to watch randin pretty much.

this morning my mom has a little talk. and she reminds hillary that she volounteered to help dad watch logan this weekend, along with her boys, since its her weekend. mom and i are going to the caps home opener.

and then she says:

oh well i am working. so i cant. you guys are going to have to watch them.
mom says but you agreed to help.
and then she says that her work always assigns her to days that she requests off and how its so unfair and stuff like that so its their fault.
mom tells her she needs to figure something to do with the boys so that dad can watch logan for us. she then asks her what her schedule looks like and she says.

she has to work tonight. and on wednesday, so they will have to watch randin again. and dont you know she wants to play poker on tuesday and bowl in a league on friday and chuck wants to take her out to dinner....

so another words guess who is going to be watching randin?

and then hillary says. well on days that i am not working they can bring logan down our way (25 minutes away opposite of traffic.) and my mom says, yeah cus they are going to do that, and add at least a half hour on to their already two hour commute.

and her response?

'well that is what being a parent is about. that is what parents have to do. maybe its time she starts being one.'

umm hello? shouldn't she be looking in a mirror?

lets just say at this moment.
im more than a little pissed.

to say the least.

[color=#dbd09a][font=lucida handwriting]Aleisha[/color]

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