that_one_girl04 , 21

Yeahhh, I kinda had a conversation with Lyle a few weeks back, via text message. He was hanging out with his friends, drinking (oy)... and we started texting.

Him: I really want someone to cuddle with
Me: Well that sucks cause you're in (whatever city he was in)
Him: not like you'd cuddle anyways
Me: What makes you say that?
Him: Cuz
*later*
Me: I really like you though
Him: Oh.

("Oh"? that's all I get? an "oh"? ugh..)

Me: I mean, I don't know how you feel about me, but I really like hanging out with you
Him: you're my friend ok?

(ouch. ok)

then more recently, last weekend, we had another conversation. Again, he had been drinking. I don't remember the exact conversation, but he started talking about how WE should cuddle and stuff, and I'm like.. I am SO lost right now. what the hell does he want?

So the next morning I texted him, "so did you mean what you said last night?"

and he said something like, "about cuddling? look, I don't want you to be uncomfortable, but I'm just a cuddly person." and there was a little more, but it's like... reeally? "just friends" don't usually cuddle. That's kinda weird. I mean, if you're willing to cuddle with someone, wouldn't you want to actually be with that person? I don't get him.

is anyone else as lost as I am? haha

Anyway... I worked all day yesterday. 2 til 10. ugh. I was supposed to open today and work til 5, but I switched with someone so now I only work 5 til 10. =D

Alyssa spent the night. I think she's still sleeping downstairs. So here I am... I have the house to myself for most of the day, which is nice.

So, yeah.. I'm gonna go.

TTYL!

<3 kaitlin

oh mylanta. update much? haha

not that there's been much to update... =/

I worked all weekend. blehh. And I work today and tomorrow.

I'm gonna go to River Falls and hang out with Alyssa on Thursday. She goes to school there, and it's about a 15 minute drive, which is sweet.

Me and Lyle saw Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist last week. :] It was good. I liked it. As far as things with Lyle go... I dunno, the boy keeps messing with my head, but I'm pretty sure it's not really going anywhere. He's so frustrating. But whatever. I kinda just want to move on. It's so hard, though, cause I love being with him and talking to him... but then I kind of hate myself for being so available for him, ya know? haha I dunno.

Anyways, I need to go. I have some stuff I have to work on before I go to school. eh.

TTYL!

<3 kaitlin

lanta.

he's killing me.