that_one_girl04 , 21

Hey kids! :]

It's 7:34 AM. Yeah. I know. Way too early. haha

Me, Alyssa, and Tony are going on a road trip today. :D We're going down to Evansville, IN to go to the Stimulate This! tour, which includes Halestorm, Shinedown, Staind, and Chevelle. Sooo I'm excited. I'm pretty much finished packing. I just need to find an air mattress. ha. We're staying at a camp ground. Roughin' it. haha

So, yeah, hopefully everything goes smoothly. :]

We're coming back on Saturday, so I will talk to you then.

<3 kaitlin

Yeahhh, I honestly think Lyle is just looking for attention. He's obviously very insecure and wants to make me jealous. It's so childish and stupid. It's like, ok, you "miss" me, and yet you insist on hurting me over and over just to make yourself feel better. Good job.

I do not understand him.

Anyway, I have a wedding to go to tonight. Her name is Ali. She's one of Alyssa's good friends. She used to live in New Richmond, but her family moved down to Texas last year. She's having her wedding up here, though, in Stillwater, MN. I bought the dress that I'm gonna wear from JCPenny last night. It's so cute. :]

I was actually stuck in Stillwater earlier. I'll tell you more about that later. But my car is being worked on yet again. The radiator is broken. ughh. So I'm borrowing my mom's friend't truck today.

Well, I have some stuff I need to do within the next few hours, so I'm gonna go. Hope everyone has a good weekend!

<3 kaitlin

So. Lyle texted me yesterday evening. And this time, I decided to respond. And shockingly... he responded back.

That's a first.

Our conversation wasn't very long. He kept trying to make small talk. Or something. I don't really even know what his point was. I never really do, though.

But this is the majority of our conversation:

Lyle: Hey stranger
Me: Hi
Lyle: I miss you
Me: Well I'm pretty missable, so I understand. haha
Lyle: Hug
Me: So what have you been up to?
Lyle: Working like a slave and being a bf

...and at that point, I got a little upset. I was just like.. oh, yeah, really? no shit. thanks for that.

I wanted to say something super bitchy when he said "I miss you"... like "good". haha But I resisted. I decided to play nice, for some reason. He's such an ass though. I don't know what he expects from me. He treated me like crap and broke my heart.

But yeah, I don't know if he was just bored and felt like f-ing up my night, or what. psh. He doesn't get to me as much as he used to, but obviously I still think about him.

And truth is, I miss him, too. But I miss the Lyle I knew before he started using me and messing with my head. The Lyle I've known for the past.. oh, 5 or 6 months... I don't miss him so much.

I was just thinking the other day... we started talking about a year ago. That's crazy to me. Like, so much has happened within the past year. It's been such a rollercoaster. :/

I talked to Ben, too, last night.. which of course made me feel better. haha I found out they're moving into their apartment in Red Wing sometime next week! :D That's so exciting cause it means he'll have his own place AND he'll live closer to me.

At one point, before we even met, he was talking about how it'd be cool if we could hang out and stuff once he moves down there. Now I'm like... I hope he hasn't changed his mind. haha

Anyway. Enough about boys. haha

I went to Globe College a couple days ago to check it out. I really like it. They have an awesome graphic design program, and once I get my associates degree, I can get my Bachelors in media business. That's totally what I wanna do, cause I'd love to work with bands and musicians for their promotional stuff and advertising. :]

I applied there, and now I just have to fill out paperwork and get my transcript from Century. blehh.

After being at Century for a year, and then looking at Globe, I've found out how confusing and mediocre their graphic design program is. At Globe, the woman I talked to, Susan, laid everything out for me and it's all organized and simple. It's such a a breath of fresh air.

Sooo, yeah, I'm excited. :D And the school is in Woodbury, which is actually closer than Century.

I do have some bad news though... :/

My manager fired me yesterday for something that I didn't really even do. Basically, there's (supposedly) around $300 missing and it was form the till I was working on that particular day. Obviously, I didn't steal it. I'm pretty sure no one else did either, because um.. I'd think I would notice that. So he's not accusing me of stealing, but I'm being held responsible for it.

I just think it's ridiculous. I mean, if I didn't steal it... and no one else stole it... where the hell did the money go? Could it have been some kind of computer error? It's like.. firing me doesn't give you the $300 back. I can't do anything about it.

*sigh* So yeah... I'm back on the job hunt. Lovely.

Alright, sorry if this is like the longest journal entry ever. haha

I'll ttyl!

<3 kaitlin

Hey kids! Hope you all had a good 4th of July. :]

Mine was pretty good. I worked 8-4, then went over to Stillwater with my dad, a few of his friends, and my friend Courtney. It was gorgeous out, so it was really nice to just relax and hang out for a while.

I'm not doin much right now. Just wanted to make a quick entry and let you know I'm still alive. ha. :D

I think I'm gonna go visit Alyssa. I'll try to post pictures soon! I know I suck at that.. haha But I'll work on it. Promise.

mmmk bye.

<3 kaitlin

Hiya :]

Sooo me and Ben are still talking. And I'm loving every minute of it. :] It just sucks that he lives so far away. It'd be nice to actually hang out with him and stuff more often.

I still think about Lyle a lot. =/ I hate to say that. I wish I could stop, but it's like... he just messed with me so much, ya know? I spent a good part of 7 months or so fighting to be with him, and then... nothing. I saw a picture of him and his girlfriend on facebook a couple days ago. It was a really cute picture, too. I wanna be happy for him, but... it's hard. I can't right now. If he had treated me differently, I probably wouldn't be so bitter. But right now, it's just how it is.

So yeah, both Lyle and Ben have been on my mind a lot lately. As if thinking about one boy isn't distracting enough. haha

Me and my dad are gonna go look at a car soon. If/when I do buy a new car... I'm gonna go back to being pretty much broke again. *sigh* Man... ever since I got the money for my car back in January (which was $2300) I've kind of used it as a crutch. Like, I'd cash my paychecks and use those, but if that ran low and say I needed gas or something, I'd just use some of that money. So now when I won't have that to lean on, it's gonna suck. It's gonna be weird. :/

Anyway, I'm gonna get goin.

TTYL!

<3 kaitlin