that_one_girl04 , 21

Becky called me at 8:50 this morning. She usually doesn't even wake up until around 10. lol I was, like, scared when I heard it was her on the other line. I was like, "Becky, what are you doing up this time of day?" She's like "What time is it?" *lol* But I guess she and her mom were gonna go meet her dad at the bus station where he works, because he's driving to Milwaukee. We're gonna go see Mean Girls later today. It was just so funny talking to her before 9 AM. lol

The dance was tonight. I just got back.

My friend, Jeremy, really likes my friend Jess and he's always clinging to her. I feel really bad for her. During school he's constantly following her around and when we go to the dances he always has to slow dance with her and have his arm around her. And when he does, she looks really uncomfortable.
At the same time, I'm kind of jealous. Heh...when the slow songs came on, me and my other friends would go to the cafeteria and complain about not having boyfriends and how slow songs are always depressing. *lol*

I've never had a boyfriend. I mean, I'm only 14, but it seems like every other girl either has or has had a boyfriend. I've been asked to dance once by a guy I didn't even know [that was last year- I still get crap for that *lol*]. But, yeah, sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend, but I'm not gonna cry about it. My life doesn't need to revolve around a guy. However, my cousin Mark begs to differ. Whenever I talk to him on AIM, he's always saying "don't you want a boyfriend? why don't you have one? you should have a boyfriend." Omg...shut up...lol Seriously, it is soo annoying. I've decided not to talk to him on AIM anymore. In person, he's one of my best friends, but he acts so weird on there.

I really hope my mom gets a job soon. We need money so bad. I need her to get an apartment. Right now I'm forced to live with my dad, because, where my mom lives, I don't have my own room. I can't stand my dad. If I have to live with him much longer I'm gonna end up in a rubber room. I have to fight tears sometimes. He's a complete control freak and he thinks he knows everything. He makes me feel like I'm 2 inches tall and I don't know anything. I just can't do it anymore.