So this is day 2 of my addiction diary . Typing in this yesterday didn't really help me any but I'm going to give it a little while longer and maybe it will start to help me with some of these feelings .

So today got off to a good start . I got to go to Kevin's . The days I get to see Kevin are easier for me dip wise then the days that I don't get to see him . I just love him so much and he is just so calm and chill that it helps me relax . Also we had hott amazingly good sex today . We are going to see if his parents will let me spend the night on the 4th , which I hope so because for one it's been along time sense I've got to spend the night and two I could really use a break from my grandma.

I don't know if maybe it's because of the fact that I'm trying to stop dipping or what but here recently my grandma has been a royal bitch . She nags and yells and a lot of times I either want to give in and get me a dip or beat the holly fucking shit out of her when she does that.

So I've had a pretty good day so far . Of course right because sense it's Monday I got to see Kevin and those are always my good days . He is just so chill and calm it helps me become chill and calm . We are going to try to do something together on the 4th but we don't know for sure if that's going to work out .

After that I went to Blockbuster because I had to take back Charlie Bartlett . Then I went to see my mom sense she doesn't live that far away from Blockbuster . It was all cool until Mike called her and asked her to bring a bag of ice to him at work . The reason I said it like that is because when he is working on the cabins he is building he always calls her if he needs the slightest thing . Like one time when I was with her even though she was over here in Chatsworth with me he called her and said he wanted her to go to McDonalds and get him some lunch even though McDonalds was only like 5 minutes away from the construction site and he has a truck so it's not like that had anything to do with it . I wouldn't bitch about it like this if it only happened ever so often but he has her running back and fourth every day and then 9 times out of 10 he finds something to start yelling at her about when she gets there .

So that's pretty much been my day . I plan on chilling this evening . So that's all for now.

The Crow

Starring : Brandon Lee
Genre : Comic book/sci-fi
Rated : R

Description : Brandon Lee (Rapid Fire) plays Eric Draven , a young rock guitarist who a long with his fiancee , is brutally killed by a ruthless gang of criminals . Exactly one year after his death , Eric returns- watched over by a hypnotic crow - to seek revenge , battling the evil crime lord and his band of thugs , who must answer for their crimes .

My thoughts : I think this movie is brilliant . Brandon Lee's acting is great . The movie tells an amazingly powerful story . Also the fight scenes are so kick ass . If you haven't seen it already you really should also for those of you that have seen it incase you didn't know it was based on a comic book that I also recommend checking out.

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So my nerves have been on edge all day today and I don't really even know why . I don't really understand how come some small things got to me today and just made me think fuck . But anyway lets move on with things .

I went to the Wal-Mart today . I didn't buy anything . It was really just to look around and kill some boredom . They have some really nice portable dvd players there but they are way out of my price range .

I also went to a store called Sally's Beauty Supply because I wanted to look at their stuff for highlights . I want to highlight my hair I'm just unsure of what color I want . I have black hair and the highlight colors I'm thinking about are either blue , red , or purple . I think I'll start by getting some of the kind that washes out to see which color looks the best and then do the permanent highlights in which ever one looked the best.

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This is day one of my addiction journal . Actually I've been off the tobacco for almost a month now but I just created this journal because things are really bad and I thought maybe if I had some where to vent some of the thoughts in my head that it would reduce the chance of a relaps because I always feel so much better after I release my emotions . But then again this could be a fucking waste of time and might not help me with anything I don't fucking know .

Ok so it's been close to a month and I'm still craving the nicatine . I swear having to deal with these cravings is a bitch and I don't know what I'm going to fucking do if they get worse . Most days ( like today ) I'm slightly irratated and wish I could have some of the dip and then there are the days when it's just like SON OF A BITCH bad and those are the days I come close to saying fuck it I give up . On the days like today though I do have a tendancy to have a short temper . It's like the slightest thing just really aggervates me . I've heard things are supposed to get better after the first few months which I hope to fucking hell they do or else I'm not going to be able to take it . I've also heard that dip can be just as addictive as heroine which makes me think ok what the fuck am I in for because people go to rehab to kick heroine .