thetaintedangel , 30

The past week at work could have been better. Tuesday I had a really crap day. When I was leaving the boss asked how my day was and I told her "Oh you know, it was one of those days". So she ordered me to have a meeting with a senior manager to find out what was wrong. It wasn't a big deal. There were just a few practices I was questioning. They agreed with my assement and had someone speak to the other people involved the next day. So from Wednesday onwards everyone was tiptoeing around me and asking "Are you coping?". It was really annoying. I didn't complain to get anyone in trouble. I didn't complain because I felt I couldn't handle the job. I complained because I felt there was a serious lack of concern which could affect the children. I don't know. I go through mood swings of loving the job and hating it.

I got my first paycheck on Thursday. It wasn't as much as I thought it would be and all the money is pretty much either already gone on bills or held back for bills due at a later date this month. That is shit.

Edward got a letter saying that as of May 22nd he will no longer be recieving Statatury Sick Pay. Well he better find some way to get money because we can't live on my pay check alone.

I haven't been able to enjoy my 3 day weekend. I am sick again. The glands in my neck are swollen, my throat hurts, my ears hurt, and I have felt quesy for 4 days.

Yesterday I watch HP and the Goblet of Fire. Today I may watch HP and the Order of the Phoenix.

Edward and I have been having amazing sex since I started my new job. I want a baby.

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As of this past Friday I completed 3 weeks at my new job. In many ways it feels like I have been there forever while in other ways I can't believe it has already been 3 weeks.

It has its up days and it down days but overall I am enjoying it.

My first week I was with the 3-5 year olds then all of a sudden in the second week I was moved to work with the 3 month old-1 1/2 year olds. I have to admit I kind of like working with the babies better. It is a very hectic day, things always need to be done but it is fun.

In my second week there I got called to a meeting with the owmer of the school. I thought it would be to check my progress and what not. But I was wrong. I am not part of a group of staff members who she feels can critically analyze better then the others. Because of this she expects more from us and she is going to fast track us through our qualifications. Both Edward and my parents think it is a great thing and think I will be rewarded and what not. I however am unsure how I feel about it. I only just started and I am not sure if I really want to be given more work.

A new baby recently started at the nursery and he seems to have major seperation anxiety. I was asked to work one on one with him on Thursday and Friday. I left there crying on Thursday afternoon. All day he cried and threw tantrums which inclided hitting, pinching, and kicking me. Everyone thought I did a really good job with him but to be honest I just wanted to throw him out of the window.

Yesterday Edward and I went into town because the International Market was on. We didn't buy anything there. It is always so crowded you can barely see what is for sale at the stalls. Then we went shopping for a birthday present for my Godmother. She turns 60 on May 3rd. I was going to draw her a Disney picture and I honestly did try but I just can't seem to get anything right drawing wise right now so i didn't want to force it. I wound up buying her a Jim Shore Eeyore figure. I may still try and draw something today but I don't know if it will happen or not.

Today I am relxing at home. Might do some cleaning.

My mom's cancer is not doing well. It have become more active and has spread. She has started on an other chemo treatment and is ment to start taking a trial drug.

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a_pretty_girl, f0xy_mama

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