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10/23/08 5:41 pm

Yesterday when I got home I took Arthur for a walk and then did two loads of
laundry and 2 loads of dishes. The kitchen was looking a lot better. Edward came
home just after 3. He had a migrane so he took a nap and I took a bath. Nothing
too exciting to mention from yesterday. Watched Neighbours and then Edward and I
played Smackdown Vs Raw 2008.

This morning when I went into the kitchen it looked as if I hadn't even done any
cleaning yesterday. Bleh.

Plans for today are really just working on Arthurs costume. I have this
afternoon and all day tomorrow to finish it. I don't know if it will happen or
not. It isn't quite coming out the way I wanted it to which is annoying.

I dont remember having a nightmare last night. And you know what...I forgot to
take my pill at least once yesterday if not twice so I don't know if that is
proof of my medication causing my nightmares or what.

Even though both Edward and I have off tomorrow we need to be up by 7 am. My
parents have bought us a new 32 inch tv for Christmas and it is getting
delivered tomorrow. Convienantly the delivery time is between 7am and 6pm.

At some point I will need to run out to the shops. I know that there are a few things I will need for Arthurs costume.

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a_pretty_girl :
pink_dreams : I don't know about my blood sugar. I have a Drs appointment next week so I am going to discuss everything with my GP

31. Another nightmare(what a suprise) The rent

10/22/08 6:27 pm

Yesterday when I got home from work I made lunch for Edward and me. I was
feeling restless. I felt like I needed to get out of the house so Edward and I
took a walk into town. We didn't get into town until 4 and the shops all close
at 5:30 so we didn't have a long time. We browsed through some shops. Edward
bought himself 2 XBOX 360 games and I bought my mom a birthday card. On the way
home we stopped in a grocery store and bought some goodies, nothing too
exciting.

While we were out I check my bank balance and realized that the rent still
hadn't come out even though it was due a week ago. So when we got home I checked
through my internet banking. For some reason the standing order was cancelled. I
didn't cancel it. Of course it was past 6 by then so too late to contact the
estate agent or the bank so I was not happy.

I am always so paranoid that we will get kicked out. Not that we are bad
tenants, our neighbours don't like the fact that we have a dog even though he
doesn't even bark, and the other people that live in the building own their
flats while we rent ours so I think they see us as outsiders. Our 6 months lease
was up in August so now we are on a month to month basis so technically we could
get a letter anyday asking us to leave within the month. We are currently
looking to move closer to the hospital and to get a 2 or more bedroom flat
rather then a 1 bedroom flat but I want it to be on our terms not someone elses.

So basically I was in a bad mood for the rest of the night. Lately I just
haven't been able to handle stress very well. Possibly because I am under more
than my fair share but hey what is it worth complaining, I can't miraculously
cure myself and my mother.

I sat in bed and read some more HP and the Half Blood Prince then watched
Neighbours and CSI Miami, and then it was bedtime.

I had more vivid dreams. I don't remember them but I had a bad feeling about my
parents. They were supposed to be there but weren't. When I woke up it was
really difficult to get out of bed. My legs didn't want to move and my lower
back was very sore. I eventually pulled myself out of bed, had breakfast,made
Edward's lunch, and got dressed just in time to leave for work with Edward.

This afternoon I have to call the bank to sort out my rent and do some cleaning.
Edward was home for 2 days and now it looks like a bomb hit the house. I really
should do more work on Arthurs Halloween costume since I now only have 3 days to
finish it and haven't gotten very far. Edward gets out early tonight, but we
aren't sure if it is at 3:30 or 4:30.

Tomorrow is my last day of work for this week thank God. It feels like it is
never going to end.

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a_pretty_girl :
f0xy_mama :
megabyte_me : I think it may be the Rx as well. I have a doctor appointment next Friday so I will ask when I am there.

30. Dont know what to call it.

10/21/08 4:35 pm

Yesterday Edward and Arthur met me on my walk home. That was a nice suprise. I
wasn't feeling so well yesterday because on top of my usual aches and pains I
got my period which always knocks me off my feet.

When I got home I started work on Arthurs Halloween costume. I am not telling
what it is, you will have to wait and see pictures when it is finished.

Edward and I wanted to watch Hells Kitchen last night at 9. Around 7:30 I just
started feeling so tired. I forced myself to stay up. This series of Hells
Kitchen I am kind of disappointed with. I don't really want any of the final 4
to win.

I had more nightmares last night. I dreamt I worked in the Operating Theatres
(where Edward works). I was always getting yelled at though because I sucked at
my job apparently.

I didn't want to wake up this morning. I didn't want to do much of anything. I
skipped breakfast because I just couldn't be bothered. Now I am starving.

This morning during our coffee break everyone at work thought I was nuts since I
asked if they would be dressing their pets for Halloween. Thats what I get for
living in a country that just barely celebrates it.

Tonight no plans. I kind of want to go home eat lunch and take a nap but we will
see.

Both Edward and I work tomorrow so I will be going into work early. I have an
hour and forty five minutes I have to make up so even though I am going in early
I wont be able to leave early.

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a_pretty_girl :
f0xy_mama : Arthur was 6 months old last Halloween
megabyte_me :
pink_dreams :

29. Weekend catch up, more nightmares, Halloween costumes

10/20/08 6:15 pm

Saturday was ok. I went to my mother in laws with Arthur, Lavasa, Gary, and
Tess. Ran around with the dogs a bit and took them for a walk. I wasn't feeling
too wonderful so laid down on the couch. Even though the sun was shining it was
so cold inside the cottage. There isn't a lot of carpet and there aren't enough
radiators to heat up each room. We lit a fire but I was still shivering the
whole time.

While I was at the in laws my parents called. My mom had a dose of chemo last
week so she was really ill. They also asked what Arthur was going to be for
Halloween. Last year I made him a wizard costume and called him Arthur Potter.
This year with my mom being sick and me being sick I hadn't really thought about
it. They made me feel guilty for not making him a costume so now I have 12 days
to make Arthur a Halloween costume.

When Arthur and I got home I started to watch the X Factor and a cooked
dinner.Chinese style pork steaks with rice for Edward and gnocchi in a tomato
and marscapone sauce for me. Someone was lighting fire crackers outside and
Arthur was not happy. He sat under the Duvet on the couch with me shaking.
Edward came home a little early and we ate dinner. I finished watching X Factor
and was going to wait for the results show which was an hour later but I was
just too tired to stay up. Arthur was up pretty much all night because people
kept setting off fire crackers. He kept jumping out of bed and hiding in the
corner.

Sunday I didn't get up to make Ewdard's lunch. I was too sore and tired so I
stayed in bed until 10. It took ages to be able to get out of bed but I finally
managed and took Arthur for a walk.

I did some laundry and dishes and just played around online really. I was
listening to some old music. I got kind of sad and had a little bit of a
breakdown. I watched a tv series called Merlin. It doesn't stick to the
Arthurian legends very closely so it kind of bothers me sometimes but it has
Anthony Stuart Head playing Uther Pendragon. If you don't know who he is then
you would most likely recognize him as Giles from Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Anyway...he is looking a bit old now. And he had a bit of a pudgy belly. After
Merlin I decided to watch "One More Time With Feeling" The musical episode of
Buffy the Vampire Slayer. That is my favorite episode. I know it is dorky but
that is why I love it.

Had dinner when Edward got home and tried to go to bed. I had an upset tummy
last night and it was making it really uncomfortable trying to sleep.

I also had a nightmare again. I only remember bits and pieces of it. I was
scheduled to have surgery for something but canceled because I would miss a
flight or something. Then I was home with Edward. My parents were away and there
was a terrorist threat on a specific flight. It happened to be the flight my
parents were supposed to return on. Edward and I were having a picnic in a back
yard. Apparently our house was near the airport because all of a sudden we saw
the plane my parents were supposed to be coming home on flying overhead. It
burst into flames and crashed near by. Aparently not only my parents but also my
cousins John and Tammy were on the flight. My cousins Pat and Billy were
supposed to be on the flight but had taken an early one home. My friend Jen's
dad was also supposed to be on the flight but he had come home earlier. When the
news broke about the attack Jen called me and asked what she could do to help.
It was a horrible dream. I have vivid nightmares nearly!
every night now.

My pain is getting annoying. I am on prescription medicine that isn't doing
anything. I am not sleeping well, I am distracted at work and I don't think it
is possible for me to wait 16 weeks like this. So I want to go to my GP, see if
there are other medicines or other tests they can do. She is on holiday this
week though so the soonest appointment I could get is on Halloween. I could see
another dr at the practice but then I would have to explain everything all over
again. Maybe I should though I will see how this week goes.

So far today it was hard to get up this morning. I am not tired when I wake up I
just feel like I have no energy to actually move to get out of bed. I was 15
minutes late to work because I just couldn't get moving this morning. The pain
is localized in my hands and wrists right now while I am typing this. It feels
weird. Almost numb but not.

My mother in law has asked if Edward, Arthur, and I want to go to Crathes Castle on Saturday. They are having a witch and wizard event. So screw the 12 days I had to make Arthur's costume I now have 5. Yippie!

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