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June 20th 2009 RIP Mama
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June 20th 2009 RIP Mama
Khayos 25
oh wow. I am so sorry. That must have been horribl… -
June 20th 2009 RIP Mama
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June 20th 2009 RIP Mama
Megabyte_me 30
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June 20th 2009 RIP Mama
A_pretty_girl 23
Aww, I'm sorry to hear about your mom. That sounds…
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Easter Chick Text Text text Rick, space buddies Saturday afternoon Edward and I went into town. We weren't there for very long before Stuart called Edward. Edward went to Stuart's house and left me alone in town. I still haven't gotten everything I need but I did buy 2 new bras, 2 packs of panties, some earrings and hair ties, a birthday present for a friend and the Space Buddies dvd. I needed some cheering up and what is better then 5 Golden Retriever puppies? When I got home I cooked us pasta bakes and we watched Space Buddies. Then we just hung around. A few weeks ago I had a dream about this boy named Rick. I met Rick online about 10 years ago or something. I have always felt a special connection with him. I swear I think he was my brother in a past life. Anyway on Saturday night I was thinking about the dream and I was compelled to sign on to AIM. Guess who was on Rick! After I told him about the dream and what made me sign on he told me that was freaky because he was just thinking about Edward and me and that is why he signed on. So we had a good 2 hour chat just like old times. It was great to hear from him. List of responders a_pretty_girl, megabyte_me, oceangonewrong, pink_dreams,[color=blue] Sugar_xxx Happy easterText text text tecxt Text Text text Text text text Friday was a horrible day. Fighting with Edward. Mother's cancer  Friday Edward and I were ment to go into town. We had a fight in the morning because he didn't want to get up to go out. I felt like every weekend he does this to me. We make plans and he is always too tired, or sick, or too lazy to follow through with them. I threw quite a hissy fit because I am just so sick of it all. I was shaking, crying, kicking things, and throwing things. Whenever we have a fight like that I want to hurt myself. I just want it all to go away. Edward and I weren't talking so I was sitting in the living room playing on the Xbox when my dad called. Thursday night my mom had trouble breathing so she went to the emergancy room. Her heart rate was 130 ( it is supposed to be 66) and she needed oxygen. For a few weeks she had what everyone thought was a cold. She could barely talk. The hospital thought she had Pneumonia so they admitted her. Her Oncologist and Pulminary doctor came to see her. She underwent some tests and it turns out she doesn't have pneumonia. The cancer has become more aggressive. Her left vocal cord has been paralyzed by the cancer. Her voice will be like that forever and it may get worse. When she swallows she coughs because she can not control her wind pipe. When she drinks some of the liquid is going into her lung. It also turns out that the top of her left lung has collapsed and is blocked so no air is getting in. The bottom of he rleft lung has water 9they took a quart of water out of it already but there is more, they are afraid that if they take it all out that her lung will completely collapse. The top of her right lung has cancer in it. The Oncologist wants to put her in a drug trial. However if she has anything else wrong with her that could affect the trial they wont put her on it. However my cousin Pat happens to work for the company which produces the drug and she can request it for a family member. I felt like someone was pulling hte rug right our from under me and throughout the day Friday I was having panic attacks, chest pains, and problems breathing. I think that this is enough for now. I will catch you up on the rest of the weekend tomorrow. jelly beansFriday Edward and I were ment to go into town. We had a fight in the morning because he didn't want to get up to go out. I felt like every weekend he does this to me. We make plans and he is always too tired, or sick, or too lazy to follow through with them. I threw quite a hissy fit because I am just so sick of it all. I was shaking, crying, kicking things, and throwing things. Whenever we have a fight like that I want to hurt myself. I just want it all to go away. Edward and I weren't talking so I was sitting in the living room playing on the Xbox when my dad called. Thursday night my mom had trouble breathing so she went to the emergancy room. Her heart rate was 130 ( it is supposed to be 66) and she needed oxygen. For a few weeks she had what everyone thought was a cold. She could barely talk. The hospital thought she had Pneumonia so they admitted her. Her Oncologist and Pulminary doctor came to see her. She underwent some tests and it turns out she doesn't have pneumonia. The cancer has become more aggressive. Her left vocal cord has been paralyzed by the cancer. Her voice will be like that forever and it may get worse. When she swallows she coughs because she can not control her wind pipe. When she drinks some of the liquid is going into her lung. It also turns out that the top of her left lung has collapsed and is blocked so no air is getting in. The bottom of he rleft lung has water 9they took a quart of water out of it already but there is more, they are afraid that if they take it all out that her lung will completely collapse. The top of her right lung has cancer in it. The Oncologist wants to put her in a drug trial. However if she has anything else wrong with her that could affect the trial they wont put her on it. However my cousin Pat happens to work for the company which produces the drug and she can request it for a family member. I felt like someone was pulling hte rug right our from under me and throughout the day Friday I was having panic attacks, chest pains, and problems breathing. I think that this is enough for now. I will catch you up on the rest of the weekend tomorrow. |
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