x0xmarix0x , 23

I am blogging today because  I have something to get off my chest.......I need to let go,it's hard.......I need to keep thinking however if he does come back then Its meant to be.......Im scared,upset,sad and confused as for the next 4 days I still get to cuddle him,kiss him,love him. But once these days are done as hard as this will be It is time for me to back off, not give up but back off and let faith go through its course.......I need to remember that no matter what happens it is what is suposse to happen and no matter what I need  to rememeber i will be happy

Im going to miss his kiss,His arms around me,the way he warms me up when im cold,makes me laugh when hes around.

all memories i will never forget and hold dear forever. 

xXx Mari

Heya everyone :)

So Morgan came down last tuesday and left again sunday night :( he was down for court over his 4year old daughter. I was very happy though because all he did the whole time he was here is spend the days with her and the nights at my place :) but things were different this time we saw each other. I have known him since Oct 2010 and he left end Nov 2010 to go back to Ontario were he is from to get away from his ex because she was driving him crazy and there was no work down here for him.

When he left  i was supose to go with him and backed out last minute because at the time i was still with my ex. I made a big mistake because little did i know at the time I was head over heels in love with Morgan. I did not seen him until July when I went up to find him. I stayd there for 2 months had trouble finding a fulltime job so i had to move back :(.

This time seeing him was different :) he was alot more open with me if you will,we laught we talked I really think hes letting me in and it's a great feeling :). I found out as well he will be back down in Dec to spend time with his daughter so I get to see him again and im coming up for my birthday in March :). I think its great he is an amazing man and I can't get him out of my head...Im inlove xoxo

xXx Mari

this isent getting any easier,I still miss him so much I find myself spending time with mike when I know  I should not all he has done is hurt me and I dont want to feel like that anymore im a horrible person...they one feeling is not going away and it is eating me up inside tried making new friends that didnt work...so lost and dunno what to do i know what I want but it's not time for me to have it...

xXx Mari

well ive been up since 5:30am i cant sleep ugg it sucks. It has been only 5 days since  I have seen Morgan and yet im still going crazy :( god i miss him but I know this is for the best  i will go find him again one day because i cant get him out of my head.well i think im gonna go back to bed for a bit just wanted to update oh i start working monday too that should take my mind off him.

xXx Mari