if people are still alive here i have blogger ccount instead. I've decided Kiwibox and I are not friends. http://welcome2myboringlyfe.blogspot.com/2011/07/so-here-we-go.html

new name on here...i'll explain all that's been happening there. It's Muslimgirl

Hello there, I guess I'm a bit of a snippy bitch tonight! I was talking to some stupid guy on darkstarlings. He asked why  I don't snail mail anymore. I told him, "Because impending motherhood is staring me in the face, school, and because I have a boyfriend. I have hardly anytime for snailmail." That makes me snippy. Whata jerk! I don't care. I forgot to care about people.

So as you read motherhood is staring at me like a hunter staring at a deer down a barrel of gun. I think that's what's going on with me. We're giving it 5-8 weeks. I actually have a little belly! It's kind of cute. I'm just hating the back pain, nausea and morning sickness. Some women like that stuff, I'm hardly able to bend over because my breasts feel like freaking lead weights, and my little belly weighs me down. I'll get over it i suppose and it'd be worth it in the end. I did get a bit of a scare already. Bleeding is fine during pregnancy, so I do have spotting to light bleeding. I guess I thought my light bleeding was a bit heavier than it should be. I cried a bit thank God I have a great boyfriend that was there for me and held me, told me to just cry and let it out.

For school, I'm almost done with everything. I have to test out and that's it. I'm excited. When I get back I should pass with ease. That's good then I can finish with more education starting October or whatever. I'm going to get as much of this done as I can. I want to make a child when I have one (well the way it looks in about 7 months or so), I'll have more to offer them. I'm not 100% what line of work I'm supposed to even look for or what to go to school for. I'm either thinking medical or graphic design.

Well I think I'm done with writing for today. Later

♀I'm having one of those days where I'm mad at people who can read profiles. Katie's friend from back home (where her and I both used to live) ended up adding me to Facebook. I don't mind adding people. It's nice to make new friends. But of course this guy wasn't into wanting to be friends. He was into calling me cute. I'm alright with being called cute. But I tell him, "I'm in a relationship," he told me that he wasn't into bothering women who have a man. That's good so I was fine with it and thought he'd just leave me alone. Why on earth did I believe that. Then he's bothering me more. The question came up about why am Idating a girl.  Kelly is not a girl. So he had to question that a bit. Thank god he left me alone finally because I was about ready to e-smack him.♀

♀I had a chance to talk to Katie's husband today though. He seems pretty rad. I have no problem with him. I seem to like him he seems like a nice guy.♀

♀My stomach isn't agreeing with anything today. I tried goldfish crackers, every flavor imaginable, none seem to agree, cereal don't agree. I don't know what will and does agree anymore. It's insanity that's what it is. I can only eat fruit and salad and that gets too much,. I don't want to see an apple, banana or a bowl of cereal ever again.♀

♀Other than that no fun updates sorry people :)♀

It's been a long depressing day. A guy I went to school with when I was younger, a family friend passed this morning. He was my age. I can't believe I'm taking it harder than I am. So I did write him a poem. I'll let you guys read it beofre I get on with my day. Yes that's a picture of him.
My memories are clear
About the time on earth you spent here
The news today hurt so deep
The memories of you on earth are ours to keep
I know you put smiles on our face
Ones that will never erase
You were a fantastic friend
True to the end
I'll keep these memories close
Charish the person I've come to know
So now that you're gone
And we have to say so long
I'll miss you
I'm sure I'll always do





Now on with my day. It was okay. Kelly had Rayne today. She's great. He was reading her the Lorax story you know the one from Dr. Suess. I forget the full title. His grandma got the book and the doll for her. She loves it. I never found the Lorax to be totally cute. I think one of the animals from a wocket in my pocket would be better or something like that little skinny bird chick from Are you my mother.

I played some DDO today my character isn't leveled well yet but I hope for her to be. I stopped playing because my mind couldn't keep on the game I'm kind of in a blah mood.

Still not sure on the baby thing something's just not right. I'm lightly bleeding as some pregnant people do, my hips actually changed a bit now. So you figure. But as a promise on the names. I'll give you what we have so far. For a girl Guinevere Brigid and for a boy Gabriel. We don't have a middle name. We'll figure stuff out when the time comes I suppose. So hah.

I feel like a piggy today though. I ended up eating some ice cream and Kelly's who couldn't eat all of his ice cream. I ended up some how getting my hair in the ice-cream now it's all sticky. Eww.

Anyways that's my day not much but like i said i just needed that out