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[bg color=white]Wow, I really cant believe how long its been since Ive updated. Normally I would get on at work but since work blocked this website on me, Ive been neglecting it =[

The only major news I have is anything but exciting. We went last Wednesday for our gender ultrasound[17w3d] and found out that I have oligohydramnios and abruption of the placenta. Pretty much I have very low to no amniotic fluid and my placenta didnt attach properly. My OB was more worried about the no fluid because thats what pretty much helps the baby delevop major body organs. Here is a bulletin I posted on My Space about the situation.

"So....after 2 doctor appointments, an ultrasound and a trip to labor and delivery Ive received the diagnosis of oligohydramnios and abruption of the placenta. I went in to get an u/s done and to find out the gender but the tech realized that my amniotic fluid is really low. After the u/s they sent me to l&d to get some test done to see if I was just leaking fluid or what was wrong. Well, the test came back negative, Im not leaking. So I went back to my doctor to talk with her about what was going to happen. The u/s tech and the doctor that did the u/s both made me think there were little pockets of fluid but my when I was asking how long the fluid would last, etc. my doctor told me that there was no fluid.
Low fluid can cause a few things...Different body parts wont develop correctly. my uterus could collapse and deform the baby and Im sure there are others I just am not thinking of right now.

We are waiting to see how things go because I couldnt just decide to get any procedures done when we've only had this one u/s and dont know if things could improve or not. My next u/s is next Wednesday and I have a doctor appointment following that.

Also, today my OB decided to take some blood to test and see if I have a blood clotting disorder since I just had my miscarriage and now this.."



Well tomorrow I will be 18 weeks and Im just praying that my baby is still alive and doing okay. As of now, Im only hoping to make it to 24 weeks and then be induced. I dont think Ill make it much further than that and Im not even positive Ill be able to make it to that point. My next appointment is Wednesday as well as another u/s. Ive been put on bedrest and Im hoping that with a ton of rest and a lot of fluid intake that I can increase my fluid and make this baby a miracle baby.



Uhm, some other random things....Adrianna is doing good. Shes going through the terrible twos and getting into everything. She stays home with Troy during the day and he is going to night school.

Troy and I just had our 2 year wedding anniversary but we didnt do anything special.

I really dont think I have any other interesting updates, I just thought Id come and update on that =[

Here are some random pictures.
Me at 17 weeks

Adrianna the other night helping clean the kitchen

[bgcolor=white]I just had an entire entry typed but it got deleted somehow...So

Im pregnant again. About 3-4 weeks. Due in December. Please pray I dont miscarry again


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[bg color=white]So I just got a call from the chaplin. I guess somehow my mom found me, called the chaplins office on base and wanted them to give me her numbers.

Why cant she just leave me the fuck alone?

Its so fucking hard kicking her out of my life. Yes, I love her but I cant live my life supporting an addict. I cant have her in my life and watch her crumble like that.

I would be more than happy to have her in my life if she were clean but I cant do it with her doing drugs.

I cant let her around Adrianna like that.

I dont even know what to do right now. Call her and take the chance or just leave it alone...

For those that know the history with this entire situation, any advice?

Fuck!

[color=white]So, its been a while since I’ve been on here and I kind of find it funny that I come back now to make an entry...But really..It’s the only place I feel like writing right now.

I think I’m going to lose it. Things are great in some ways but falling apart in so many other ways.

I hate this fucking lifestyle! I’m not sure how much longer I can take the military. Not even how long I can take it, but rather how long they will keep me. My office fucking sucks for one thing. The military in general is so fucking anal. I’ve gotten 2 LOC’s and 3 LOR’s. LOC-Letter of counseling. LOR=Letter of reprimand. Basically they are paper work and eventually the more you get, the worse they get. My LOCs are from having my tongue ring in while wearing PT gear and the other one was for not completing an inspection. Now as for this inspection, I’m not even signed off on this for my training record. My supervisor at the time knew this and yet she still scheduled it for me on my own. I can’t go do an inspection on my own without someone with me. My LORs are for coming to a green machine[we have to be at work by 0645 on these days. Then we pick up trash around the clinic before we start work] late on a Tuesday, after a four day weekend. Another LOR is because I accidently wore a top with no stripes to work one day after I spilt something on another top I was wearing. I didn’t even think about checking for stripes before I put it on. The last LOR was for showing up late to a morning roll call. I was like 2 minutes late. Yes, I fucked up but the things they give you paper work for are so fucking petty. But that’s the military for ya. I hate this.

Then a while back, when I got one of my paperwork’s, my NCOIC had a talk with me. Basically he just wanted to know what was going on and ho I felt about the office. One thing I told him was that I think there are a lot of double standards in our office. He wanted an example so I gave him one. Well, the people that it involved were pretty much harassing me the next day. WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE PUT MY NAME IN IT IF HE WAS GOING TO SAY SOMETHING TO THEM? Why would he do that? And still to this day the one girl is still talking shit.

I’m not the type of person that can deal with this! Oh yeah..Saturday, when we had to come in for another exercise our NCOIC told me that the day before that my 1st Shirt wanted to send a recommendation to our commander to give me an Article 15 and a BCD[ bad conduct discharge] And not to top it all off…I wore ABUs to work today when we are supposed to wear blues on Mondays! Wonder what kind of paperwork I’m going to get now. I had to wear these, Adrianna spilt OJ on the ones I was wearing this morning and my other pair are at the cleaners.

I need the job, I need the stability but I can’t go on like this. I’m fucking miserable. I think my relationship is starting to show it too. Troy and I have been getting into arguments more often lately. The worst one was about a month ago. We got really bad. He ended up choking me and slamming my to the ground, breaking Adrianna’s bed. That’s the only time he’s ever put his hands on me and it won’t happen again. But I hate arguing. I hate living 2000+ miles away from home. I hate how anal the military is. I hate the fact that I can’t fucking be perfect. I just feel like breaking down.




On another note, Adrianna will be 2 next month. She is a big girl now. She is wearing 3T clothing. I’ll have to post some pics of her when I get home.

I turned 21 last month. I seriously just want to be an alcoholic again, everything is fine when I drink =/

I could go on, but this is long enough so I’ll just end it now. If you want to see what Adrianna looks like now and what our Christmas Pics look, go to Babygaga.com and Search for me. [there is a star]Heather[another star]The pics are in my profile.

[CENTER][BG COLOR=WHITE]So, I have to online jobs that Im willing to share with people. They arent surveys or anything like that. You pay nothing to start. Ive looked long and hard and finally found something that is real!

If you want more info, send me a message or reply here and Ill send you some info.