So I was supposed to go out with that guy MacKenzie again last night for some drinks at a favorite pub of ours, except that his parents decided to drive here a day early, and seeing as they drove for over 6 hours to get here, it'd be rude of him to not see them and go on a date instead right? So reasonable reason to cancel, it's cool. He made up for it a bit by saying right after "but I really do want to see you, so we'll hang out sometime during the week?", which of course I said "sure" too lol. All's fine and well, whatever, something I'm getting used too so it's bugging me, but at the same time I love it, is that we don't text much, almost barely, now that we've met and all. Which is fine with me, texting really ruins a relationship I find. So anyway, I didn't talk to him for the rest of the night since he was with his parents and such, but then I got a random text from him saying "I wish we were together", now I wasn't exactly sober at this time so I re-read the text probably like 5 times before I finally was like "uhhhh...", Brandon was over so he asked what's up and I showed him the text and said "I really hope he means, that he wishes that we were hanging out like we were supposed to be at that time instead of with his parents..." so I text him back just saying "not having fun with the parents I take it?" I didn't hear back from him right away of course, I ended  up going to bed before hearing back from him. I woke up because my phone beeped, it does that when it's done charging. I usually don't hear it when I'm sleeping lol, but whatever, anyway, so I took the phone off the charger and I had a text from MacKenzie. Yeah, I ended up dropping my phone under my bed because of what he said, well, to be fair, I was tired, I may have just dropped the phone partly because I'm clumsy lol, but anyway it said, "well to tell you the truth, I want to take you home and snuggle with you all day".
So we've met ONCE, and he's saying this already? I know I've been making a great impression on him lol, but already he's thinking about BEING with me? It's kind of scary. I've been single for just about 7 months, I'm comfortable with it, I've been turning down guys for months because I haven't found one I'm willing to be with and so it just got comfortable to me, to be single. I can actually SEE myself with this guy, which had me scared to begin with, but now that I know that HE can see himself with ME...
It's silly. I'm almost 21 years old and I'm SCARED of being in a relationship...
Well I want to take my time, I've been talking to him for about a month continuously, but have been talking to him casually (meaning, every once in awhile), for 2 months and I only actually just met him the other day. So hopefully he wont take it personally when I tell him that I want to take things slow, meaning no snuggling till we get to know each other a bit more haha, at least a few dates!
Anyway, I have to get back to my patient (at work right now), so I'll end this here!

- xo Channy

Hi All :)

So I had a date last night, with a guy that I was supposed to go out with last weekend but didn't end up happening. It was pretty good, I wasn't even nervous! Usually I am, but I was calm the entire time. We had dinner and then went to Tim Hortons for tea. We talked the entire time, no awkward silences. He says he wants to hang out again sometime, I'm hoping that's true and he's not just being polite cause he's nice, he has not once made me feel like he's the clingy or pushy type, which is perfect. He's also very cute ;) Which, come on, being cute IS a must! :) He's 25 and has a stable job that he apparently likes, he's currently attending my school for an apprentanceship for another 3 weeks and yet we never run into each other! lol, we're even in the same wing! So it's weird, he's from Quebec, but he's kind of on the border of Quebec and New Brunswick so he says he grew up in both places technically. He moved to Nova Scotia three years ago, and has been in this city for over a year. He's interesting for sure. To me at least, I hope I'm interesting to him! We shall see though... :)
I'm going to see "New Moon" tonight! Premiere of it, it's technically not out till tomorrow. Only thing I'm dreading is the silly little "omg I love Jacob! I love Edward" tweeners. They're FICTIONAL characters people! Get over it. Even still, if you love them sure, that's great, but there is NO need for screaming and shrieking, they CAN'T HEAR YOU THROUGH THE MOVIE SCREEN! It's not like they're going to choose to date you or be friends with you because you scream and cry the loudest. So annoying, but I'm willing to put up with them to see the movie lol. I loved the books before all the crazy fanatics came out and they made it into a huge "hunk" fest. I'm taking my other sister to see it tomorrow, so I'll be seeing it twice in a twenty four hour period lol. It better be a good movie!
Anyway, I was going to write more but I have to go do some errands before the movie that I JUST found out about and so I have to leave in five minutes.

-xo Channy

My life is very uninteresting... so if you don't want to read this, then don't. I'm not even going to make this all nice or whatever, just type it and publish it. Sound about right? I think so.
I have to do a study group tomorrow, well I don't HAVE to, but everyone in the class now knows my mark on the first test in Chem, and now with a second one coming up, who do they all go to? me. So I should be there, since it's my friends and I who decided to put it together, just more people are interested in it then I thought would be. Did I mention my test mark? Yeah, got 103%, one person happened to look at my mark when I was going through my test and then blurted out for the whole class to hear "you got 103%!", I'm not one to brag to the class about my mark, sure my friends and everything, I just find it rude to do it to the class, especially if there are any people who failed. It's like rubbing it in their face or something, but no one is holding it against me, cause they know *I* didn't go around bragging, I'm just kind of expected to be able to help everyone now... luckily, thanks to my lovely teacher, he has this thing where if you teach anyone anything and they actually learn, you get them to sign this sheet, then you hand it in when it's filled at the end of the semester and he'll drop your lowest test mark, I can't remember if it's PER taught person, or for the whole sheet. If it's for the PER taught person... I may never have to really worry about another test! haha. It's probably for the whole sheet... which is fine with me too. Either way, I have some studying to do tonight so then I know what I'm talking about at study group tomorrow.
So Christmas is around the corner... seriously. There is almost exactly one month left of classes before break (a month from tomorrow), and so Christmas talk is up in the air. My plans for Christmas? Probably going to work as much as possible for the first week, excluding Christmas eve and Christmas because of family events, and then take the second week off work and go to Moncton. I've already talked to Rach (mashuki) and she's excited for it, wants me to come up like pretty much right after Christmas and spend New Years Eve with her and Linda, which would be great since I have no major plans here, I think it'd be fun to go away for New Years Eve, never have, so yay! We'll see how that work, I might only go up for 3-4 days. I was thinking December 30-January 2nd. Spend 30/31 at Rach's, and 1/2 at Linda's. That way, not overstaying my welcome and I get to see them both :) Plus I'm pretty sure Linda would have at least the 1st off since I'm pretty sure where she works will be closed, so I think that'll just be best :) Oh Rach... if you're reading this, let me know if I have anything wrong? or you want to add something :P
Other then that, nothing really going on! I'm not seeing anyone really, the whole thing with Matt has all been a wash, he's going through a hard time right now, which is fine and all, just he's being childish about it and I don't have the patience to deal with another man who can't seem to deal with their problems without taking it out on others, we've argued at least twice in the last couple weeks, we've known each other for 3 years and have NEVER argued! I know people argue, the closer they get, but we argued over stupidness. He was being stupid, which made me get stupid so it was just a big stupid mess!
I much prefer being single for that reason. No stupid fights.

- xo Channy

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