melloo , 22

I was having trouble accessing kiwibox for a few days- did anyone else have that problem?

This week has been ok. Working tons though because a huge sale just started and we had to be there to set up til midnight on Tuesday.

Last week for Halloween I got trashed with my "uncle". The guy I'm living with is my grandpa's wife's son, Mike. He is 33. My grandparents own the house and live here half of the year too, but right now it's just me and Mike. So he had his friends over and I got home from work and they were drinking and stuff so I joined in haha. It was my first time getting drunk in a few months so I had fun lol.

Nothing new happening with any boys but it's cool I've been so busy lately!

I'm supposed to go to Vancouver next weekend, but I'm not sure if it's worth it. It's about 3 hours away and I was originally going to go from Friday til Sunday and stay with my cousin. We were going to see this band I'm in love with. But now my cousin had to cancel Saturday night, basically, so I'd only be there Friday to Sat. I don't know if it's worth it to me. I've been really looking forward to it though so I'm a little bummed.

Oh well.

Hope everyone is doing well!

So this older lady at work, Kim, thinks I am her bff. And we take lunch together sometimes and she's really quite sweet but just a little on the looney side. But that's ok I try to be nice to her and listen to her. But I made the mistake of confiding in her that I have a crush on Eric.

Apparently she told him!
She kinda told me she was going to ahead of time, but I thought she was just gonna be stealth about it. This is what she says happened:
Kim- So someone likes you
Eric-Who is it?
Kim-Melissa
Eric-Oh she's cute.

Me and Kim both take this to mean he is not going to pursue it... I overanalyze sooo much I just realized. Based on that one sentence I decided there was no hope hahaha.

But basically I think he's the kinda guy who won't date girls he works with.

Which is cool I'm not too upset about it (mostly because I have Danny to fall back on...maybe?). But I just hope it's not weird at work.

I think I am just going to pretend like nothing happend and like I don't know that she told him.

Plus, everyone kinda thinks Kim is crazy so maybe he didn't take it to heart. I'm not gonna worry about it though.

But I am getting lonely and I'd like someone to spend time with, you know? It doesn't even have to be romantically. I'm just gettin a little restless and missing my friends at home.

Ohhhh well.

I hope everyone is doing wonderfully :)

So I am glad you ladies agreed that it was in fact an invitation for a date.

But uh you know how I said he's probably a lot older?

I found out just how much older.

Let's just say... I'm born in 89, he is born in 79. WOW.

But I don't think he knows how old I am yet. Because the only reason I found out his age is that he called his bank or something from the back room and had to give all this personal info. Now, I respect people's privacy. But sometimes you can't help but over hear, right?

I haven't talked to him too much since the other day because I barely even see him. It's really bad because I find reasons to go to the back offices because I want to run into him. But I don't think I'll be able to keep that up too long so I hope he hurries up and makes a move.

Oh.

I should point out that despite the huge red flag saying "He's ten years older than you" I still am attracted to him.

Or maybe I'm just lonely and I wouldn't mind hanging out with him just to have people to party with.

Either way.

But, the twist is that I think he is friends with Eric, the other cute manager of women's shoes.

So if eric sees danny hitting on me maybe he'll man up and make a move?

Haha.

God I love boys.

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[bgcolor=black][font=garamond][color=white]I am glad your guys' responses were so positive. I was afraid you'd be like "OMG be independent have some pride". But I'm glad everyone took my entry for what it was...humourous.

So I agree that I need to go for the manager boy. let's just make this easy and use their real names.
Manager who is 34 and a player: Will
Manager who is young and beautiful: Eric
Boy in band: Ben
Guy from men's shoes who is super cute: Danny.

So I told this middle aged lady at work how I am into Eric and she totally has my back and is going to find out if he has a girlfriend. She and I both think he is single but she is going to find a way to ask. Then she's gonna try and hook us up. Not that I NEED any assistance snagging a boy, but she might speed up the process. Haha. But I really hope it wasn't a mistake to tell her cuz the last thing I want is everyone finding out about an innocent little crush and making work really awkward.

Also, I'm pretty much over Will. Not that I was into him at all, I just thought he was attractive. And I liked that he was a player. But then I saw how him and this other girl I work with were super flirty last night and I was so turned off now I don't even like him really. ha.

But BEN oh my goodness let me tell you.

So I go on facebook and they have that chat thing, which I hate, but I like to see who's online.

And ben was online!
So we talked for like an hour!
It was wonderful!
I told him how I am planning to take my best friend to toronto and he was pretty excited.
Man, let me tell you,
I basically have not stopped smiling.

I hate when boys have that much power over me.

[color=red]In other news, I am going to be so broke. I get paid on monday but I've basically pre-delegated where the money is going to. Shoes and make up pretty much.
Blah it's hard working at a store where everything is so pretty.