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if i had it all, y'know, i'd fuck it up.
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it's my birthday, ill cry if i want to.
Tarnishedhope 21
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it's my birthday, ill cry if i want to.
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xdamagedxrosesx , 23from Long SaultCommentsStatistics
goodbye 2009, hello 2010So, how did you bring in the new year? Have you ever fallen asleep on someone's shoulder? Are you currently logged into Facebook? Do you read PostSecret every Sunday? How many blankets are currently in your bedroom? Do you make your smiley faces backwards? [like this: (: ] Would you rather get rid of autumn or spring? Do you know what you're going to do with the rest of your life? Have you ever spilled nail polish everywhere? Are you in your pajamas at the moment? Is your birth year an odd number? On Facebook, do you have people listed as your siblings who aren't really your siblings? Do you ever say "FAIL" when people mess up? Does your cell phone have a case on it? What color? So what do you think about Chris Brown now? What was the last song you had on repeat? Who is your favorite person to watch on youtube? What do you like about the last person you kissed? What do you think about your cousins? Do you think the name Sage is for boys or girls? Do you ever save things as a draft or a note in your phone so you can remember them later? Do you use Sharpies often? Did 2009 go by too fast or too slow for you? What didn't you get for Christmas that you asked for? Any weird fears? Would you say that you've become more of a slut or less of a slut since a year ago? Any important firsts that happened during 2009? Are you older or younger than most of your friends? What does the last text that someone forwarded to you say? Pokemon or Yu-Gi-Oh? How often would you say you take naps? Have you ever played "the game"? Ya know, that game you play with your friends where the first person to think of "the game" loses? What are your opinions on Kanye West (even though he's kinda old news...)? What is your third favorite movie? Does anyone you know exaggerate a lot? How many songs are on your iPod? if i had it all, y'know, i'd fuck it up.I haven't written in here in a while.
topic #1 I miss him. I really do... Or do I miss the way he made me feel? I don't know. He always seemed to listen, and understand me. As much as he /hurts/ me, I still want him. How fucked up is that? We barely talk anymore. Whenever I see him sign on, I secretly hope that he'll start a conversation with me. I've learnt that I can't start the conversation because it goes nowhere. So I sit anxiously, impatiently awaiting him to start a conversation. However, the moment he does - I instantly wish he hadn't. He starts talking about his current relationship, or past relationships that he pushed me to he side for. This hurts. Immensely. Not that I'd willingly tell him this. It's not like he cares. He's changed so much - I don't even know the new him. I miss him. You once said that you were taking me for granted, no actually you said this on several occasions. I hastily denied it each time. ... Now I think you were, and you were such an asshole to allow it to happen over and over again. For this, I hate you. I ask, is it possible to truly hate somebody to the point you want to make them feel what you're feeling yet at the same time you cant get enough of them. topic #2 i hate mood swings. anxious.1. full name - emily
2. like it - sure. 4. zodiac sign - scorpio 5. male or female - female. 6. elementary - ECSL 7. middle - same 8. high - ESLC 9. college - SL 10. hair color - brown 11. eye color - hazel 12. hair length - medium 13. current worry - everything 15. are you a health freak - sometimes 16. height - 5'8 18. do you like yourself - meh. 19. piercings - ears. 20. tattoos - soooon 21. righty or lefty - righty FIRSTS 22. first surgery - appendix. 23. first piercings - ears 24. first best friend(s) - meagan 25. first award - idk 26. first sport - baseball 27. first pet - cat 28. first vacation - hmm. 29. first teacher - mme bisonette. 30. first crush - garrett THIS OR THAT 31. orange or apple juice - orange. 32. rock or rap - rock. 33. country or screamo - screamo 34. nsync or backsteet boys - backstreet boys, ftw. 35. britney spears or christina aguliera - britney. 37. sun or moon - moon. 38. tv or internet - internet! 39. playstation or xbox - both? 40. kiss or hug - both! 41. iguana or turtle - turtle 42. spider or bee - ew, none. 43. fall or spring - fall. 44. Limewire or iTunes: itunes 46. soccer or baseball - soccer. CURRENTLY 50. drinking - nothing 51. im about to - change. 52. thinking about - stress. 53. singing - nothing 54. typing - this. FUTURE 55. want kids - no. 56. when - no 57. want to get married - nty. 58. when - no 59. where do you want to live - idk. 60. how many kids do you want - no 61. any name on the mind - no. 62. what did you want to be when you were little - secretary 63. what do you think you'll be doing - social work 64. mellow future or wild - hopefully mellow. 66. something you would never eat - ew, idk 67. when do you wanna die - now would be great. HAVE YOU EVER 78. kissed a stranger - yeah. 79. drank bubbles - bubbles? o_O 80. broken a bone - nope 81. climbed up a tree - yup 82. broken someones heart - idk 83. turned someone down - yeah 84. had your heart broken - yeah, kinda 85. liked a friend as more than a friend - yeah.. DO YOU BELIEVE IN 86. yourself - not always 87. miracles - meh. 88. love at first sight - no 90. kiss on first date - only if he's worth kissing. ANSWER TRUTHFULLY 92. is there one or more people you want to be with right now? - sure? 93. who is it - yeah, right. 94. like someone - no. LASTS 95. text message - sophie 96. received call - idk 97. call made - to university 98. facebook message - birthday wishes. 99. missed call - uhm, mom? 100. last hungout with - sophie and amanda it's my birthday, ill cry if i want to.no i'm not crying.
but i'm annoyed that everybody practically expects you to go out and get completely hammered whenever you turn nineteen. seriously. i dont want to celebrate. fuck off. xD my mom asked me like at least 10 times, just today, what i was doing tonight. i told her nothing. each time. so instead, we rented movies. and watched them as a family. it was nice, y'know? we normally don't get a long and i was able to be civil to my dad without feeling forced to. so, that in itself was nice. and i couldnt help but think at least once today... "can't believe I've made it to nineteen" how sad is that? xD sleepy.edit: cant be bothered to fix the text.
twelve ; true or fαlse .. 1. i hαve α birth mαrk: true 2. i like skittles: true 3. i hαve plαns for tomorrow: true 4. i plαy more thαn four sports: false 5. i love country music: false 6. i αm content with my life: false 7. i drink αlcohol: true 8. i own αn ipod: true 9. i hαve been to α pαrty: true 10. i like winter: false/true 11. i know someone who hαs pαssed αwαy from α diseαse: true 12. i own more thαn five pαirs of shoes: true eleven ; hαve you ever .. 1. gone to the mαll with α whole bunch of people: yes 2. tαken pictures of yourself nαked: no 3. jumped off somewhere high: yes 4. eαten sushi: no 5. cursed αround αn αdult?: yes 6. left the country: yes 7. tαken legαl drugs (advil)?: yes 8. cried your heαrt out: yes 9. kissed in the rαin: no 10. pet α pig: yeah 11. shoplifted: mhmm. ten ; lαst .. 1. messαged on msn: dany 2. wrote on your wαll: idk. 3. time you cried: idk. 4. thing you αte: yogurt. 5. people you sαw α movie with in theαtres: good question 6. something you regretted: hmm. 7. person you peed with?: myself 8. person you spoke to in person: mom 9. lie you told: forget 10. person you gossiped αbout: hmm. nine ; christmαs questions .. 1. how mαny dαys left: twoish months :):) 2. who do you buy gifts for: family 3. fαvorite cαndy cαne: mint 4. sledding or skαting: sledding 5. do you drink hot chocolαte: its alright 6. do you own snow pαnts: not anymore 7. is there snow: yeah o_O 9. αny fαmily visiting this yeαr: no? eight ; school questions .. 1. fαvorite subjects: counselling - we dont do anything xD 2. who do you sit beside in french?: n/a 3. αre you friends with this person: n/a 4. whαt αbout in science?: n/a 5. friends with him/her?: n/a 6. do you pαrticipαte in gym?: n/a 7. been suspended how mαny times: in-school 8. αre you usuαlly hαppy with your report cαrds: sometimes seven ; thought on .. 1. britney speαrs: meh. 2. tim hortons: yummy. 3. smoking: is calming. 4. theme pαrks: miss them 5. people who brαg: let them. six ; questions αbout tomorrow .. 1. plαns?: placement and work. fuuuun 2. will it be better thαn todαy: no. :( 3. αre you excited: no. 4. will you hαve fun: probably, 5. will you get high: HAHAHAHAH xD 6. who will you hαng with? uhm. adults? xD five ; questions αbout yesterdαy. 1. whαt did you do: uhmmmmm. award dinner. 2. who did you hαng out with: sophie. 3. wαs it fun: yes 4. did you eαt αnything unheαlthy: cake 5. did you shower?: yes four ; people you trust with your secrets. I. Don't Trust. People. three ; questions αbout love .. 1. ever been in love? no 2. if yes, how mαny times? 3. do you believe in love? meh. two ; whαt did you do .. 1. your lαst birthdαy: nothing? 2. this dαy, lαst week: like I can remember that. one ; who do you love .. 1.(not) you |
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